/CHAPTER FIFTEEN/

~NOTHING HOLDS YOU BACK
MORE THAN YOUR OWN
INSECURITIES~
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(Song; MELO by Liya)

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~CHASE~

Looking out the empty street through the window like I'd been doing since the early morning, out of boredom, I got tired and looked away from the window. My home school teacher had called that he wasn't going to make it, so I was left at home with my Nanny Theresa, some few maids, and Pink's Nanny, while pink herself was in school.

I strolled to the front of the mirror in my room and stared at myself, at age eleven I was tall and could easily pass as a fifteen years old. I raised my hand up, taking a look at my bandaged wrist, then I raised my top a little to get a proper view of my stomach from the mirror, and it was also bandaged all thanks to her who entered into my bathroom to ruin my fun. I dropped my top down and moved away from the mirror.

I went out of my room, moving around the large house, my Nanny Theresa was nowhere to be found, I only came across two maids as I kept parabulating the house, then I heard voices coming from the kitchen and it sounded so much like her. To be honest I wasn't even aware that she was back from work, so I walked to the direction of the kitchen and the voices became two, I didn't mean to eavesdrop but when I heard my name, curiosity got the best of me.

". . .I really don't know what to do about him," she said, her voice cracking a bit while I placed my ear on the kitchen door. "i'm scared. . . Femi, I'm really scared."

"All will be well dear, I promise," I heard the deep baritone voice say.

There was silence for some seconds, and I wanted to enter into the kitchen to greet them when she spoke again.

"Don't you think it's time to get help?" she asked and I wondered what she meant by that. "Femi, I saw him," then I heard sobs coming from her. "There was a blade in his hand, he cut himself open, Femi he cut himself open. . .and he was laughing, he even licked his own. . .his own blood, for God sake he was licking his own blood femi," she said, her voice raising a little then I could here her sob more. "I love him so, so much, I don't want anything to happen to him."

"I love him more dear. . .I promise you that all will be well," the deep voice said. "I'll personally take him to the hospital tomorrow."

"Please do, I don't want my baby Chase to go Crazy."

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It was two in the morning and I couldn't sleep, I was in my bathtub which was filled up with water, smoking on my last stash of weeds. Memories kept playing through my head, memories that i didn't want to think about, especially the memories that had to do with her.

She was the cause of all my problems, just the mere images of her in my memories drove me crazy, the reason for me seeing a therapist was all because of her, the reason I always felt guilt was all because of her. She claimed to love me, yet she allowed me to live harbouring a large amount of guilt in me.

It was all her.

She and the guilt she made me feel was driving me crazy slowly and I knew that a time would come when I wouldn't be able to take it

I kept my weed on my ashtray, closed my eyes and submerged myself into the water. I was under the water for sometime when I saw her.

She was smiling at me.

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One of the perks of being in SS3 was the free periods, especially during the first term. The whole SS3 building was noisy, especially my class.

"Annoucement! Announcement!!" Nola came to the front of the class shouting and the noise in the class subsided.

"What do you want to say, Nola?" A girl from the front asked him.

"Just listen," Ade said as he went to join Nola. "So guys there's a party coming up. . ."

The whole class started shouting and celebrating, well apart from me because I was sure that I wouldn't attend.

"My birthday is coming soon," Nola said and the class erupted into resounding cheers. "Thank you, thank you." He told them with a mock bow.

"Alright!" Ade clapped his hands, earning everyone's attention. "So you guys know how we do it every year? But this year is going to be a blast, better than all other years."

"I can't wait." I heard Rayo scream and people started talking about the party.

"Attention please!" Nola shouted again. "Another important piece of information is that it is an old school party, we're going retro, so come in your parents cloths because it is going to be lit, and everybody in the whole SS3 building are invited, even some SS2 students are invited so y'all should just come and party on Saturday!"

Everybody started celebrating again and they made comments like,

"That party is gonna be lit."

"God I can't wait to cool some steam."

"Can't Saturday come already!"

"Geng awon bum short ati mini skirt, omo we go rock that party."

I smiled as I listened to some of their comments, I had never been to a party before, even owambe -shocking right?- so I didn't know how it looked like, though I had seen the way some parties are on TV, I haven't exactly experienced it in 3D. The class was no longer noisy as it had turned to indistinct chatters. I brought out a note from my bag along with a minted chewing gum because i still wasn't feeling comfortable within my mouth even after brushing thoroughly and using mouth wash, and since I couldn't smell my mouth myself I decided to take safety precautions, by chewing on the minted gum.

I placed the book on my table, opened the chewing gum and started chewing on it. I was reading my book to avoid thinking about anything, especially her, but the book wasn't even entering my head which was unlike me, because normally anything I read enters and sticks into my brain immediately. I wasn't concentrating and I knew if care wasn't taking the guilt I felt could resurface hard.

I turned my head to my left and saw Lily staring at me but as usual she faced her front immediately.

I smiled. "Lily?" I called her and luckily she answered at first call and looked at me but she was still trying to avoid eye contact with me. "What are you thinking about?"

She had a faint smile on her face. "Nothing."

"Okay, so are going to attend the party?"

She shook her head. "No." She answered.

"Why?" She didn't answer me as she stared at the floor. "Why Lily?" I asked her again.

"They don't need me there." Came her reply and I just kept staring at her. The girl wasn't just a loner, she looked shy, and her self esteem had been lowered.

"Why won't they? They said all SS3 are invited." I tried explaining to her but she just didn't listen to my explanation as she kept saying 'they don't need me there'.

I didn't talk to her again so I faced my business and continued reading my book, it wasn't as if I was even going to the party but I kept forcing someone else to.

Someone shouted running into the class, which earned my attention. He stood right in front of the board shouting words that I couldn't really understand because it was rushed.

"Guy speak well joor," someone told him from the front.

"It's those SS2 mischief's ooo," he said breathing heavily. "They are at it again, fighting."

"Who? I'm sure it's Tade, right?," I heard a feminine voice say.

The guy nodded his head vigorously. "It's Tade ooo, the whole SS2 building is on fire right now, Tade and that Kola are fighting. . ." he wasn't even able to complete his statement before partially everyone ran out of the class to go and watch the fight. . . perhaps. Leaving me and some few people in class, so I returned my attention to my book.

"Hey bro!" I looked up to meet pinky looking at me with a smile on her face.

I forced a smile to her still chewing on my gum. "Hey."

She nodded and dragged a seat near me to settled down on. "What of Rayo?" I asked her.

"Apparently she ditched me to go and watch the epic fight in SS2 building," she said in a funny accent."So are you interested in the party?" She asked me.

"I'm not." I told her.

"Why? Please come now!" She pleaded.

"I'm serious Pink, I'm not interested, I just want to chill at home on saturday."

"But for my sake just get out of your comfort zone, even I don't really like attending party like that, but Nola is my friend so I have to attend. So Just come please na." She continued pleading.

I smiled at her act. "I will think about it."

"Okay. . . And you better think about it ooo!" she said and I nodded. "Are you chewing a gum?"

"Yes," i replied and kept on chewing on the gum.

"Do you still have?" I nodded and brought out two from my bag and handed it to her and she immediately kept it into her blazer pocket.

"Ehm, pink where is the PE building?" I asked her.

"Well it's at the far end of the school, where the field is," She answered. "Why do you ask?"

"I want to sign up for basketball." I told her.

She smiled. "I didn't know you played basketball ooo, lot of things I don't know about you."

"Honestly I've never played it before, I just want to give it a try."

"Well even if you register you would be only allowed to play for this term or early next term, because of our upcoming exams. So do you still want to register?"

"Yeah." I answered her and she stood up from the sit she was seated, went to her sit, grabbed her water bottle, took a gulp out of it then returned it before coming back to my seat.

"Let's go!" she said and we left the class.

She locked her arm with my arm as we walked to the far end of the school and the more we walked the more I got tired and the sun wasn't even helping with the scorching heat it was emitting. The PE building was really far, but pinky on the other hand didn't even look tired as she just kept walking without complaining. We walked until we came in contact with a really huge field. Everywhere looked new because I hadn't been there before. The field was really large and green it was like a mini stadium with a sitting capacity of about two thousand people, I guess.

"I'm sure you haven't seen the field before," pinky stated and I nodded in agreement. "It's really beautiful right?"

"Yes, So where's the PE building?"

"Right there." She pointed to a humongous building near the mini stadium and we walked inside it.

The interior was really nice and large, I saw some junior students, some dressed in school uniform and some dressed in their respective sport wears. We were greeted by them as we walked to the basketball ball court. We stopped at a door which Pinky opened and I entered behind her. I was mesmerized with the basketball court, it looked like a replica of the NBA basketball court, that was how nice and well equipped it was.

Some students were on the court practicing, and Pinky waved to them and they also greeted me but I responded with a smile. We walked towards another door which Pinky knocked on, and we were told to enter.

"Good afternoon Mr Azalart." Pink greeted the old man whom was seated on his sit. He didn't look African, he had a white pale skin and his hair was red so I guess he was Caucasian.

"Hey pink." He acknowledged her while I just bowed for him a little. "Hey you, so you're the famous Pinky pink twin?"

I smiled at him and he told us to sit which we did.

"So what brings the Fayeni twins here?" He asked.

"My brother wants to join the basketball team." She told the old man.

He looked at me. "Normally we don't accept SS3 because of their upcoming exams but I will make an exception for you."

"Thank you Mr Azalart."

"You are welcome," He replied. "You would be the tallest in the squad and we could use that as a great advantage especially for the basketball tournament that would be coming up very soon."

I smiled at him. "Thank you sir."

He waved his hands at me. "It's nothing, hope you have experience an in basketball?" I shook my head no. "As far as you have interest we can work with that but be here on Wednesday for trials and practice. Do you understand?"

I smiled and nodded at him while I continued to chew on my gum.

"So pinky you've finally left the swim team." Mr Azalart asked as he faced Pink.

"It's finally time I did, and moreover exams are upcoming, which are exams my priorities right now." She replied grinning.

"Alright if you say, but the swimming team really misses you."

"Awnnnnnn I miss them too." She replied as she stood up from the sit she was seated and I stood up also. "We will take our leave now."

"Aùo rovoir."

He waved to us, speaking in a language which I guess was french. We left his office, walked out of the PE building and walked towards the SS3 building when I sighted Tayo the WWE fighter, he was walking out of the administrative building and he wasn't looking nice at all. He faced us as we got closer to him and I was able to observe him well. His face was bashed, his eyes was swollen and he looked like he was in pain, he looked pitiful.

He walked towards me and Pinky, then we both stopped walking as he got to our front. I looked at Pinky and she just kept staring at Tayo with pity in her eyes, we were all quiet as we stood on the road without saying anything, then I started to wonder why I was even standing on the road with them, so I just left.

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