I stared outside our window for who knows how long , my mind wandering somewhere far from here—to the late night bed conversations that we had.

———hyung?

mhm?

how will you be sure that you want to spend your whole life with someone?

well , you just do. you'll know when you're prepared to commit,

you'll know when they take care of you when you're sick and their presence enough made your fever go away ,

you'll know when you start to count the seconds , minutes , hours , days , weeks , months , years that you've been separated due to who knows why ,

you'll know when everything goes silent whenever you're around that person , your heart beating at a calm pace because being with that person feels like you're safe and it would feel like you've found sanctuary in that person's arms.

you'll know when you start realizing things , both bad and good.

Taehyung?

yes Jungkook?

I love you.

I shifted my gaze to the charging phone on my nightstand and then without even noticing , I found myself typing a message to Jungkook

to : Jeonggukie 💘

was I the only one who thought of spending the rest of my life with you? was it one sided?

i miss you.

please come back.

i need you.

It's all just a joke right?

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