What's even the point of being here anymore I'm always crying i forgot the last time I was happy I'm so mentally insane that people think I should go to a mental hospital whenever I try to open up to my dad all he says is "I give you enough attention why do you need more of it" so seriously why should I be here I don't deserve the life I have know one deserves this life I cut myself on a daily basis and it never works I just with one of these times it will go through and put me out of my misery I dread waking up because that just means another shitty day sometimes I just wish I had a gun so I know it would go through know one had excepted me ever and even my closest friend I feel like is leaving me because I'm turning emo I wish someone would just stay I just feel like leaving my house for a while would but put me out of my misery but then I realize that will only be temporarily like the drugs I just need someone to tell me why I'm even here anymore