someday - lexi jayle

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the bright sun shone in the sky.

yeonjun closed his eyes, feeling the heat run through his entire body.

thoughts were mixed on his mind.

he was happy. feeling alive for the first time after a long time.

still, his mind was fixated on something, on someone

choi beomgyu. his first love. his only love

the boy that had conquered his heart a few years ago

a sigh escaped yeonjun's trembling lips

he knew beomgyu was just a call away. he knew it was easy to contact him.

but it hurted. it hurted knowing that they were like strangers

he wanted to see beomgyu again. he wanted to hug him, kiss him, hold him.

but beomgyu was far away

so far and so close at the same time

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the days passed, and beomgyu had found a new life.

new friends, new college, new everything.

but, still, even if beomgyu was happy with his life, he knew something was missing

someone was missing

and, oh, he perfectly knew who that someone was

the perfect choi yeonjun

choi yeonjun, with his pretty face, muscular body, soothing voice and great height

choi yeonjun was perfect.

too perfect

beomgyu was not enough for him.

he would never be enough.

beomgyu hated every little thing about himself.

he hated his looks. hated the little beauty marks on his shoulders, his brown coloured eyes, not pretty enough.

he hated his personality. he hated to be so weak

he hated it, and that's why he distanced himself for the only one he'd ever love

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yeonjun bit his nails anxiously, staring at his phone screen.

he was in his room, alone, lying on his bed with the lights turned off

his fox-like eyes were fixated on the phone screen, giving all their attention to a single chat.

beomgyu

his mind rushed with questions.

he stopped biting his nails, and started to nib on his lower lip.

"should i text him?"

"no..."

"but i miss him..."

he squeezed his phone tighter, undecided. clear drops of sweat rolled down his forehead. it was hot.

yeonjun got out of his bed and opened the window

he felt a wave of confidence hit him when the cold breeze blew in his face

with a small smile curving his lips, he grabbed his phone again and texted three words

i miss you

before thinking twice, he pressed send

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beomgyu got waken up by his phone ringing

a text? this late? it seemed weird

he grabbed his phone and unlocked it. he almost screamed when he saw who had texted him

...choi yeonjun?

he started at the words texted in disbelief.

i miss you

beomgyu blinked twice. was he dreaming?

he pinched his cheek strongly.

when he felt a wave of pain hitting him, he realised it wasn't a dream.

yeonjun had texted him

yeonjun missed him

beomgyu felt like crying. how could someone as perfect as yeonjun miss someone like him? love someone like him?

he cried. was it a prank? was yeonjun lying?

he couldn't seem to believe it

still, he texted back, because oh, he missed yeonjun too

"i miss you too..."

and he felt his cheeks blush when he realised what he had replied

he realised that the truth he had been trying to hide was finally revealed

and he cried again. he cried because he was embarrassed. he cried because he wished yeonjun wasn't lying

he cried because his feelings were genuine

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yeonjun received beomgyu's face with a big smile on his face.

he was happy because he would see beomgyu again. he would finally hold him again, kiss him again, comfort him again

and, while yeonjun smiled, beomgyu cried

but they were both genuinely happy, deep down

because they would finally be together

and nothing would separate them this time

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