What if you never find me?
What is there left to find?
You have beautiful eyes
Will they be beautiful when they see the sight of me?
Am I beautiful in your eyes?

I promised myself, I'm not afraid
Can you doubt me, one more time
I once asked the mirrors what they saw
They warned me they saw evil

I asked the silence to save me
And it didn't say a word
Before I die, I'll wonder
If anyone had heard

If you ever find me
Would you love me all the same?
No, not I
The only time I gaze at fire
Is when it is tame

These words cannot come from the heart
I cared too much, and it gave out
Instead they come from regrets
I won't tell you what about
I suspect I have a clock for a ticker
How much time do I have left?

You will never find me
And that is all my fault
I'm in a maze of mirrors
Where the warden is I
And the prisoner is myself

How much have I lost?
I find no worth
In myself or the love of others
I have lost both

Who am I to dare to love
And who are you,
To dare to love me in return
When clearly, I am evil?
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It's 2 am

I need to be up at 8

I've gotten less than 5 hours of sleep every night for the past week

What the hell am I doing rn

I'm going to sleep now 👍

Goodbye 👋