(This is a poem)
(Part 1)

I looked terrible
So I tore off every layer of skin
I wanted to find my true worth, the beauty within
My gift from the heavens and the earth
But my muse made me out of sin
So I hated my guts even more

I hated the truth they bore
The truth engraved in my bones
Covered by a poetic lie crafted out of the love of the living, planted in my head, engraved in my stone

You made pain seem so silent
You made death so serene
Last breath seemed so eternal
And yet long overdue

Describe to me the scenery
Which direction the wind blew
We live much too briefly
This might as well be birth
My memory means nothing
My time devoid of worth
Describe to me the scenery
After I left this earth

Death waited, it watched
While they buried me
Wearing a watch I never wore
A ring, they'll never know who for
And a pair of shoes I know aren't mine

They hang on a power line
Imagine my surprise to see they still do
I don't trust the laces, they never stayed tied
The aglets lied
Unless my mother tied them for me
But now I wear my father's shoes,
I know because they don't fit me

Describe to me the scenery
Was I loved in rain or shine
Did they move on in silence
Like ghosts who never died
Or never lived
Or just survived
Or did the earth protest
Was god a witness, will he attest
Or was humanity's hope just mercy for the mind
A fear to which we're blind
That we are born alone
And we will die together

In rain or shine
In sickness and in health
The love of the living is blind
A ring with a promise I'd written
I'd wanted you to take to heart
Instead I took it to my grave
I waited, because the living have time
So this ring is still mine
Death did not do us apart
I did

My father bought me my watch
When I was just thirteen
I wasn't a kid, I wasn't a man
I had so much time on my hands
I didn't know what to do
So I saved it up like pennies
I didn't waste a dime
The watch was a bank because time was money
And I wasn't ready to spend mine
So I put it away
And to this day
I never spent a dime

(Part 2)

Describe to me the scenery
My lover, full of life
Forgive me, forget me
You cannot be my wife

Lover, explain to me
Why you've stayed longer than the sun
You wait for me, you weep for me, you waste yourself for me
The love of the living is blind
As if there's something to be won
Your love is alive and it's patient
But my love is dead and done

Describe to me the scenery
The youth of the empty night
Are there stars, are there candles, does the dark rob you of your sight
Can you see me, can you hear me
Are you finally alone
Now that the light has left you, can you glimpse into the unknown

Lover, you haven't said a word
Has the earth finally decayed
A silly notion, as if erosion
Could ever keep you away

Lover, make me laugh
Read to me my epitaph
What lie has the living designed
For this unresolved life of mine
Did they put me to rest
Just like the rest
Did I get what I deserved

Today, you've brought me roses
A gift I can't receive
Lover, rid yourself of me
Let me die, go on and grieve

Today I die, your final lie
The one you love the least
Describe to me the scenery
Once you're finally at peace

~"I'm not ready, but I'm done"~
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I don't really know why I wrote this. It's probably confusing and weird, especially the second part. I just wanted to include it because I wanted closure for the "lover" who was left alone, along with adding on details through their denial. The first part was mostly inspired by the fear of dying young and what that would be like, which is why I really like the line about the watch they never wore, which basically means the life they never lived. It's also why I called this The Scenery, because part of the fear of death is that the world goes on without you, and the dead person here still wants to be apart of the world and continues to pester and ask about the scenery. The last line in bold is supposed to be an epitaph fitting for an unresolved life.

This poem might not be very good, but I've spent like 3 hours writing it and I put a lot of detail and thought into it, so I'm proud of it.

Thanks for reading this if you did, I'm gonna go finish my homework and enjoy spring break

Bye :)