It's one in the morning I dont want to sleep
I keep thinking how messy my room is, not neat
And I like hearing the stars distant cries

My thoughts seem to love me since they never leave
But they hate my friends, my face, and my life
But I know theyll get bored soon
But the weather is nice
And the window is open
I've already died twice
So I'll leap

Its lonely in here its dark out there
I left the door open so we dont get scared
When the stars start to scream
And my voice starts to break
When the sky finally splits
When we fall in an earthquake
When we lose our dreams
Who knows what they meant
But my heads gonna crack
From the love that I lack
Because its filled with blue that first burns then turns black
When i sell my soul and my sanity
To save your safety and humanity
When we have to wake up

Would you like to leave me?
Do you like living without me
I dont wanna know
I'd rather keep my head low
And avoid you like strangers do
I'd keep my head low and my mouth shut
Because you dont like things that are new
But its ok if you wanna go
Even though every step is a beat missed by my heart going slow
I dont wanna know

Would the world be better (without me)
Yeah it might be bitter but
I already know
That my dreams are too big for a little world like mine
But its fine
Cause with time, even dinasours die
But ill still try

Spilling tears over my phobias
But theyre not spiders bees or bloody knees
Im mostly scared of what youll do and what ill be
So can we be scared together
Of the future and the dark
Cause both seem keen to keep us far apart

Spilling blood over my sadness
Cause whats not to be sad about
When the world thinks it can live without the sun and still be blue and green
And we're all fine with being mean
Because no one understands our problems
Your heart beats so loudly I can feel it scare my own
But mine beats alone
Mine beats alone
We're all alone

Maybe you wont die tonight
So maybe I wont scream
But I dont think we'll be alright
Doesn't matter what we do or think
Maybe I wont cry

This time
I'll stay here
I promise I'll stay longer
I swear I'll be stronger
I will try even harder
I'll love you past the moon and stars, so much farther than I will ever know

I will never know
Where did you go?

My stars seem to love me, since they never leave
But they hate my heart, my bones, and my sky that falls every night because all three of them broke, and its foolish to hope that they'll mend

But I like hearing them cry
And the weather is nice
And the window is open
I've already tried twice
Its lonely in here it's dark out there
I left the door open cause lately I dont care

When the stars start to scream
And my voice starts to break
When the sky finally splits
When we fall in an earthquake
When we lose our dreams
Who knows what they meant
But my heads gonna crack
From the love that I lack
Because its filled with blue that first burns then turns black
When i sell my soul and my sanity
To save your safety and humanity
And honestly I wish that it killed me
Or let me escape gravity
Cause you're probably going to fly away anyway
When we wake up

Strangers are usually secretive and silent
But you know that I'm more irrational, emotional, but these feelings feel violent
Am I really so strange to you?

This time
I'll stay here
I promise I'll stay longer
I swear I'll be stronger
I will try even harder
I'll love you past the moon and stars, so much farther than I can ever go

I will never know
Where did you go?

I dont wanna know

I already know
That my dreams are too big for a little world like mine
But its fine
Cause with time, even dinasours die
But ill still try
But I'm scared of what you'll do and what ill be
So can we be scared together
Of the future and the dark
Cause both seem keen to keep us far apart
But I can still hear your heart beat so loudly I can feel it scare my own
But mine beats alone
Mine beats alone
We're all alone
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Sorry for taking so long

Most of these updates are old, but I just never had the heart to update them. What I do is pretty stupid after all. I guess the only reason I'm still doing this is because I want to improve. So eventually, maybe I will update more often, and make enjoyable content. For now, I still have a lot to improve.

Sorry if anyone actually liked this and was waiting for updates.

Hope y'all have a good day, and let me know what you think (if anyone still reads this that is).