when i cut,
it feels like nothing.
my whole body becomes numb
and my mind empty because i can't feel a thing.
the razor blade slicing my skin
and the blood start to come...
and i realize:
it's just begun.

i do it all the time,
sometimes for no reason why.
i just want a chance to feel that empty numbness
my body has in store.
it's the only way i can stay alive...