Today has been a trainwreck of emotions all day.

First, I woke up after sleeping for literally an hour the night before. Then I walk into school and think that it won't be so bad.

Turns out I was wrong.

So, there's been this rumor going around that I'm a school shooter, and trust me when I say that all of the bullies have made it their life's mission to ruin my every waking moment.

From throwing rocks, to physical harassment. They daily ask me where my gun is. I either just tell them to leave me alone or ignore them entirely.

So I was dealing with that all day.

Plus I'm super stressed because my parents are disappointed in my grades recently so now I have to come home to my parents telling me how bad I am.

It's not even like I'm bad at the work, either. I just don't like doing so much work on things that I already know. It's just stressful when you're in my situation. My parents expect so much out of me, but I can't live up to it.

Besides that, there's also another bad thing.

Not only have my parents been talking about pulling me out of my school, but their conversations about either moving out of the state or out of the country entirely have been happening quite often.

They say it'll be a year or two, but I don't believe them. They want me to make friends every time we move, but then we move away and it's all taken away again.

What kind of screwed up life am I living?

All I want is to be a normal kid that has a normal life, normal friends, maybe a girlfriend if I'm lucky. But I can't hold on to the things that normal kids can.

Maybe I really should just cut myself off from the world. That way, I won't have to suffer anymore.

My heart is bleeding, but nobody cares anyways.