Sorry for bothering you guys again

But

My new-ish starts tomorrow and I'm freaking out

I don't know!

I'll be with all the same people? Right!?

Wrong! Half of the entire school will be people I either don't know, or don't have a close relationship with!

Sure, I have Scarlett, Miette, Laramie, and Levi in my 'clique', but...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I jus want to hide away in my room....

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!!!

And guess what!? The only people who I can talk to about my problems who actually give a flying fuck are you guys (everyone on Wattpad), and my two other friends who I can even talk to in person, because they live hours away from me, and are a grade higher!

UGH!

I'm freaking out.

I just... ughhhhh!!!!

I don't know how I'm going to do this????

Because I'm having a huuugggeee lack of sleep problem, I probably have some bad eating habits (not ones that I eat too much, but the opposite), and we got assigned "math homework" (that we didn't actually have to finish) that I DIDNT EVEN DO!

And I was ranting to this to my older sister, Hunter, who is going to college in a bit, and she gave me some advice?

SHE TOLD ME TO TALK TO PEOPLE AND STOP BEING ANXIOUS!??????????

Yeah, I know. To some of you that's great advice! Someone telling you to put yourself out there, and make new friends! Stop being an introvert, and stop self-deprecating!

Well, sorry to break it to ya sis, BUT IT NOT AS EASY FOR ME AS IT WAS FOR YOU!

I have anxiety, social anxiety, and a few other things that YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ABOUT!

In fact, NOBODY IRL KNOWS ABOUT ANY OF MY DAMN PROBLEMS, BECAUSE GUESS WHAT!? THEY DONT GIVE A SHIT!

THEY EITHER INTERRUPT ME FIRST, OR JUST WALK AWAY WHEN I TRY AND TALK TO THEM ABOUT IT!!

I can't talk to my parents! Hell no! Because whenever I even mention anxiety in front of my mother, she gets all triggered and mad at me!

SO I CANT TALK TO MY DAD! Hell fucking knows what he'll say!

MY DAD, GRANDMA, PAPA, AND EVERYONE AT SCHOOL (other than Levi and Scarlett) DONT EVEN KNOW IM BI, OR HAVE ANY FORM OF "MENTAL ILLNESS", AS SOME PEOPLE WOULD CALL IT.

Sorry, this turned into a rant. But if you didn't wanna read this, than you could have clicked away. I'm sorry.