I think I kind of have a crush on two of my irl friends (both use she/her).

AaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

And the thing is I'm pretty sure I'm polyam, but I have absolutely no idea if they are, much less if they'd date someone with my gender alignment or if either of them are even into me?????? As far as I can tell they're both straight and monogamous and they'll both only ever see me as a friend.

hghghhghghghghghgg DAMNIT FIRST I HAD A CRUSH ON SOMEONE WHO WAS ALREADY TAKEN, THEN I FINALLY GOT OVER THEM AND NOW THIS HAPPENS

Anyways dating is complicated I hate it here