December 24, 2011

Tuesday

3:43am

Emily

I can't sleep. Ever since that night at the beach the face of the man and Chris keep popping out every time I close my eyes. They only go away when Tom or my children are sleeping beside me. Chris... Those harsh words that day affected out relationship. He rarely talks to me now... He tries to avoid me every chance he gets and most especially, talks so much about Minka on set. It's annoying as hell since he knows it somehow affects me hearing him say those wonderful lies about her when he knows she's the cause of how I got almost raped again! Maybe he doesn't remember, right? I mean he never mentioned it. Son of a fucking bitch! And you know what's the worst part? Well, it's the fact that he's staying with us for Christmas! And Tom won't be here because he's going to stay with his parents.

I'm happy for him, but he promised to keep in touch with me every minute he can so that's soemthing, but I can't get this anger out of me towards Chris! Another reason why I can't sleep... He's already here just sleeping in the room across mine! I mean whose smort idea was it for us to stay on the same side of the house anyway, let me tell you, SEBASTIAN! I sighed again getting out of bed. I am tired and I'm scared to go out and jinx my actions with him, but I don't care right now since I need sleep. I need sleeping pills. They're starting to notice that I have lack of sleep, now. I sighed and got out of bed. I cautiously went out and let out the breathe I was holding. Thank goodness I didn't see him! Tipped towards the steps and ran down to miss a step and trip, but a strong all too familiar muscular chest stopped my fall. Damn it! I just needed sleeping pills!

"What the hell are you doing up late?" He asked frowning and helping me steady. "I needed a drink." I replied avoiding his hand and walked towards the kitchen. He followed as I got a glass for water and sleeping pills which he snatched away. "Give it back." I ordered glaring. "Yeah? Tell me a good reason." He replied looking at the bottle. I stayed silent. I'm not telling you jack squat! "What?

Cat

caught your tongue?" He asked about to throw the pills. "Stop!" I exclaimed reaching for the pills. I don't wanna go buy another bottle. "This will be back in your hands if you tell me why the fuck you need them." He said shaking the bottle. I gulped closing my eyes. "I have nightmares you idiot. I need the pills to make me go to sleep even if I can't alright? You happy?" I asked reaching for the pills, but he raised it out of my reach. "You said that if I told you why I needed those, you'll give it back to me." I whispered weakly. Just give me the pills, please...

"No, Ems-" I cut him off. "Just give it, Chris." I said coldly. He stopped for a second and just stared at me. "What now?" I asked annoyed. "I... Ems, what are your nightmares about?" He asked calmly. I knew you'd ask that! "Ponies attacking Neverland." I replied sarcastically. "Cut the crap and tell me." He ordered threatening to spill the pills in the drainage. I sighed exasperated. "Fine, you want to know? They're about that night on the beach where I almost got raped again. I was scared that no one would save me, that I didn't have the strength to fight off that asshole! I have nightmares of you laughing at me because a fucking viral video about me showed up. I have nightmares that sooner or later my kids are gonna get taken from you by someone I don't even know. I have nightmares about Tom leaving me. I have nightmares about our first break-up! There you happy!?" I asked grabbing the pills and walked towards the table where my water was.

He didn't make a sound to my relief. Fuck him for making me do that! I felt a warm hand on my shoulder and for a minute I forgot that he was there and I twisted his arm away from me. "Ack!" He hissed leaning on the counter. I gasped letting him go. "I-I'm so sorry." I whispered clasping my hands on my mouth. Oh no! What have I done!? "Don't worry about it. You didn't twist anything critical... What was that about, Ems?" He asked walking towards me. I didn't move, but I felt tears on my hands. "Hey, hey. Shhhhh, you're fine. You're here in the house. Safe and sound." He whispered hugging me tightly towards him. I cried on his chest as he lead us towards the living room. "Ems, I'm right here. No one is gonna hurt you. Damn it, what've I done..." He whispered hugging me tightly. "You haven't done anything." I whispered wiping my tears.

He shook his head as we stayed there in a few minutes of silence. "I noticed." And those words broke my heart and world. He noticed and yet he still did those things to me. "Ems, I... I shouldn't have said those things about Minka in front of you. Not when you're having these nightmares." He whispered kissing my head. He pulled me into his lap and forced me gently to look at him. "Ems... I really hope you find it in your heart to forgive me." He whispered caressing my cheek. I can never hate you... I forgave you a long time ago, I'm just waiting for you to actually stop trying to get me away from Tom. If only I could say that. "Chris, just hold me, please." I whispered closing my eyes. He nodded and let me lay on his shoulder. I started to drift off, but I could still hear Chris loud and clear. "Emily, I know this is being selfish, but I want you to stay with me. Leave Tom and stay with me." He whispered as I felt myself being lifted.

No, please... Chris, don't do this. Don't give me hope that you actually still like me. Just stop giving me mixed signals. We stopped and I frowned looking into his eyes. "Ems I... I didn't know you felt that... way. Shit!" He cursed as he lead me towards my room and walked towards the door. I said it too loud! I thought that was just thought! I'm gonna die of embarrassment and maybe end up alone again. "G-Goodnight, Ems. See you uhm... later." He said going out of the door before I could answer. I sighed covering myself. Go to sleep!

4:10am

Chris

Shit! Shit! Shit! I quickly got in my room and sat on the bed. She didn't even know she said it out loud... She... He felt as if I've been giving her mixed signals. I haven't. I'm just too much of a coward to admit that I have fallen hard for her, but I can't have her. She's right. I have to let Tom have her if that's what she wants. I sighed rubbing my face. I'm an idiot. I need to stop thinking about her in a romantic way... Shit! Stop it! I groaned and fell back. Go to sleep! You have a big day later!

5:00am

"Wake up!" Sebastian yelled. I groaned taking a peek at the clock to see I only had fifty minutes of fucking sleep! "What damn it!?" I asked annoyed. "We're going gift shopping, idiot. You've forgotten, great. Just like Ems." He commented shaking his head. "She's up!" Alana whisper exclaimed as both came in the room. Emily yawned and glared at the back of Alana's head. "Ems, quit that. Chris, get changed. We're going to go get some gifts!" He exclaimed pushing me out of bed with a loud thud. i groaned again and glared at him. "Asshole." I whispered. "Words." Ems reminded as I got a shirt and waited for the three to pile out and put new pants and underwear on. I walked out and down towards the car outside. "Whose watching the kids?" I asked as Ems and I sat at the back. "Arthur." Ems replied as we drove off. I hate waking up in the morning at this ungodly hour! I mean it's fucking five in the fucking morning! Who in the right mind would wake up that early on a four month vacation!? "Stop glaring, you're going to start to have a frown line." Ems commented, looking out the window.

I blushed embarrassed. She always knows the right things to say. We actually finished tapping last month which is amazing, but my mom forcing me to stay in Sebastian's house was something I would've never expected.

Sebastian

*Flashback*

December 14, 2011

I stopped at Chris's house after three days when we got home. He's probably on a date with Minka. I sighed and got out of the car. Emily needs this more than she knows. Even Tom is noticing it. She needs Chris to figure out her feelings ad damned head! She's acting quite differently since that day after Chris found her. She pulled away from all of us and slightly from her children. They're still young, but so keen when it comes to their mother. I'm doing this for them as well. I have to get them together.

KNOCK

KNOCK

KNOCK

"Wait a sec!" A young girl replied. I waited as a woman opened the door and smiled. "Sebby!" She exclaimed hugging me. "Hi, Mrs. Evans. Can I talk to you in private?" I asked noticing the two younger siblings of Chris. "Sure." She replied as she closed the door behind her. "Is it about Emily? How is she, dear?" She asked worried. I smiled guilty. "We need to let Ems figure out her head and she can't do that if she doesn't spend time with Chris. Tom has agreed, I just need your permission." I replied looking at the ground. "Sebastian, I would do everything in my power to fix what my son destroyed. I will allow him to stay with you for his four month vacation including this Christmas, but you have to promise me something." She replied smiling. I smiled and nodded. "Get that Minka out of the picture. I know what she will do to Emily and Chris if she finds out you're mending them." She replied smiling. A car pulled up and Chris got out looking pissed. "Honey, what's wrong?" Mrs. Evans asked worried.

"Minka." He replied not noticing my presence. "That's the last straw. Break up with her now and don't tell her you're staying at the Stan's house for your vacation." She ordered frowning. "Ma, you can't..." He trailed off as Mrs. Evans stared at him. "Oh, I am serious, Cevans. You're staying there for Christmas too. I give you permission to stay there. Your girlfriend will stop at nothing to get you all to herself and I don't approve of her." She said glaring past us. I raised a brow and looked back to see Minka standing there smirking. "Shit." Chris cursed under his breath. I sighed as Mrs. Evans opened the door. I pulled Chris inside as she closed the door. "Sebastian? What are you doing here?" He asked confused. "I'm here to take you to our place. Emily's in school for Arthur's Christmas play. Go pack, we have like thirty minutes before their play starts. Emily saved four seats." I replied smiling. He chuckled and jogged towards his room and his two siblings followed him.

He packed all his stuff and Mrs. Evans came in looking pretty joyful. "What did you do?" Chris asked nervously. "Don't worry. I gave her a piece of my mind as kind as I can since she was recording." She replied grinning. "Ma, what did you say?" He asked gulping. "I smiled and told her that you were going to Fiji because you needed time away from here. She bit into it." She replied. I chuckled as Chris said his goodbyes and we sped towards Arthur's school. We got out just in time to sit down and the play started. "You were almost out of seats." She whispered as she raised a brow towards Chris who sat between us. "I'm going to be staying at your house as suggested by my mother. I'm not actually agreeing to this, but I really need to stay away from Minka." Chris replied turning towards the stage. Arthur danced as he was one of the angels. He sang as well which was pretty amazing.

*End of Flashback*

"Alright we're here. Better rush before those moms get stuff we actually awnat to get." I said smiling. "We'll see you both right here after an hour, okay?" Alana asked smiling. Chris smiled and nodded. "Take care of her." I ordered smiling. Emily blushed and looked away so it won't be noticed. "See you guys later." Alana said pulling me to a different direction as Emily and Chris held hands.