January 11, 2011

5:50am

Chris

Emily still had my number which made me really happy, but she needs my help now. I skipped steps up to get Sebastian. I barged in his room and waked him up. "What? WHAT!? Quit shaking me damn it! What do you want?" He asked throwing a pillow. I dodged and threw him some clothes. "Hurry up! Emily is in trouble!" I ran out the room and ran down the stairs. Please be alright! I ran and ran until I saw the alley way and heard screaming. "Get your fucking filthy hands away from her!" I yelled glaring. "Wanna join in?" The man asked smirking. I glare at the man and charged at him landing multiple punches in the man's abdomen. Sebastian got Emily as I beat the crap out of the asshole. "You fucking stay away from her!" I continued to punch him and I didnt care that my hands where starting to hurt. "Shit!" Sebastian cursed. "Chris, enough. Hold her." Sebastian ordered walking towards me. I stopped and frowned. "Seb, this fucking bastard almost violated her! I can't let that go!" I yelled glaring. "I know you can't, but you have to hold her... now." He ordered glaring at the man. I banged the man on the wall and gently got Emily from Sebastian. "Emily... shit." I whispered kissing her forehead. I hate myself for not following you... If I had... Oh, Emily! She turned to look at Sebastian to see him kick the man one last time before stopping. "I'll get the car around, don't leave her." Sebastian ordered kissing her forehead and jogged away.

"Emily, you got me worried." I whispered smoothening her hair. She frowned staring up. "Me? I got you worried? Chris, I could've handled it. I don't need a scumbag like you to pretend that you care about me to make me feel better." She mumbled feeling her eyes get heavy and fall into a deep sleep. I chuckled kissing her. I love you, Emily, but I can't be with you. Minka would be crushed and will seek revenge on you if I didn't distance myself from you. I love you so much Emily. You have no idea. Sebastian came around and I stooped to the man's level. "This is for trying to violate her." I whispered kicking his head on the wall strong enough to cause him amnesia. I jogged towards the car and sat at the back with Emily in my arms. "Chris... You need to leave her." Sebastian said as the Red light appeared. "I already left her." I replied feeling a sting about getting reminded about that. "No, Chris... I mean leave her for good. I can't have her hoping, wishing that one day you'll change your damned mind and man up to the responsibility of having her kids. Chris, stop giving her mixed signals. If you want her, show her. If you don't want her then stop hurting her like this. She was avoiding you this morning and you know it." Seb stated as the green light flashed. I frowned closing my eyes. I should... I can never go back to her not unless Minka stops threatening me that she'd destroy her if I wasn't with her. I sighed opening my eyes and staring at Emily's peaceful face.

The ride was silent. I don't have the courage to talk. We reached the house and I got out of the car carefully so I don't hurt Emily. I walked her up to the room and changed her. I know, I look like a pervert at the moment, but I missed her. She was sound asleep. "Get out." Arthur ordered holding the hands of the twins. I obliged and gave Emily one last glance before walking out and leaving then to have their time with her. I walked down the stairs and into kitchen. I need something cold. I gripped the handle of the fridge to feel a jolt of pain. I frowned and looked at my hands to see my knuckles bleeding. I got water and cautiously drank milk. I'll clean it later. "Chris!" Arthur yelled. I frowned and turned to be met by a jab to the nose. I groaned and feeling my nose bleed. "This is for Emily." He stated giving me a right hook. I groaned and leaned on the counter.

"GET AWAY FROM HER! YOU ALWAYS GET HER IN TROUBLE!

What are you talking about?

You fucking left her, broke her heart thrice and then this happens to her when you come back!

I didn't mean too, Arthur! Watch your words!

You're not my father or family! You don't have the fucking right to tell me jack squat!

Arthur, enough! Why are you blaming everything on me anyway, huh!? Why don't you blame your mother once in a while! She decides what she does and it got her almost fucking violated!"

Shit, did I just say that? I didn't think of her that way, but I guess Sebastian's words are motivating my answers.

"No, you fucking jackass! Listen to me carefully and listen well because after this... You better get the hell out of house or so help me God... I will call the cops and put a restraining order on you!

You can't fucking do that!

Fucking hell! How can he do that!?

Oh, I will and I can! Emily was running from you this morning, asshole! She didn't want to get hurt or to get in too deep with you and she ran as fast as she can not caring where she went... She wanted to keep a distance from you to stop you from hurting her even more! She has taken care of us more than you could! She has provided us with a home and father once in a while! I want her to be happy not hurt so don't you ever dare try contacting her after this day! I don't care that you are going to work with her in the Avengers movie... JUST STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER!

Arthur, I know I haven't been a good man to her and you guys, but I do want to be a small part of your lives. Even if that means the twins will be spending time with me... a hour a month or even a year. I just want to be part of their lives and hers!

But you can't! You have a girlfriend to take care of!

Arthur, you're not listening! I'm not asking you're mom to be my girlfriend here! I'm trying to tell you I want to be part of their lives even just as a friend."

Emily appeared wincing at every movement walking towards Arthur.

"What Arthur is trying to say is that you... you can never be part of our lives even as a friend. You've hurt me too much that I feel nothing but hatred towards you at the moment. When people see you with my children... They'll make rumors which will destroy our careers and I don't want that for any of us. Let me re-phrase what I said... At the moment you can't be a friend to us, but maybe someday. I'm only letting you stay here because of Sebasti..an." She whispered closing her eyes. "Mom!" Arthur exclaimed as she collapsed almost hitting the ground if Seb didn't catch her.

"Damn it, Emily. Chris, please... Go. She needs rest and she has to travel tomorrow. You can come here if you want, but avoid my sister." Sebastian stated carrying her. I sighed and walked out, skipping steps up the stairs. I walked towards the guest room and started to keep my extra clothes that I left. I smiled at one in particular since it was the shirt I wore on the day I stole Emily's first kiss. At least I have that. I'll let her keep this. I groaned and shook my head. No, shut up! Negative thoughts out. I yawned finally packing everything I had left here and stood up. I washed my nose and leaned my head back to stop the bleeding. I walked out the room and cautiously walked down the stairs, avioding to pass by the living room. "Chris!" Sebastian hollered. I rolled my eyes and walked back. "Yeah?" I asked facing them. Arthur was still glaring while the twins gave me a sad face. "Drop your bag back there in guest room. You're taking care of Emily until tomorrow. She needs your help right now. These kids need me so go, please." Seb begged. I sighed and walked back up and dropped my bag on the bed. I heard someone moaning in pain whick puzzled me so I rush into Emily's room to see her clutching her stomach. I rushed to her side with a trash bin. "Chris?" She asked huffing. I smiled and helped her lean on the headboard for easier breathing. She vomitted on her clothes and I changed her. I sighed cleaning her as she fell alseep and I washed her clothes.

6:40pm

I sat on the chair beside the window reading. "What the hell are you doing here? Sebby told you to leave." She whispered leaning on the headboard. "Hey, take it easy, wonder woman. Seb called me back and told me to take care of you till tomorrow and drive you to the airport while he took care of the kids. He'll be going after you with the kids." I replied getting the cold towels from bedside table. I went down and got some soup I cooked for the family. "Here, eat this." I reached out the spoon with soup in it. "Thanks." She mumbled opening her mouth to eat. I fed her everything in awkward silence. "Seb is downstairs with the kids if you're wondering." I said smiling and I rushed down. I washed the dishes and dried them. I skipped steps up the room to see Emily almost hitting the floor and I caught her. "Don't move damn it! At least wait for tomorrow! You could've injured yourself further!" I scolded carrying her back to bed. She stayed silent and tried hid her blush which made me smirk. "Thanks." She mumbled as I gently laid her on the bed.

6:55pm

"What do you want to do now?" I asked closing the door behind me. She frowned down which made me look down as well. "Carry me to the bathroom, please." She replied swinging her legs out of bed. I frowned, but did as she asked. "Are you gonna take a bath or something?" I frowned confused. She chuckled shaking her head. That was adorable. "Hand me the first aid kit behind the mirror and sit down." She replied as I helped her sit on the edge of the tub. I got the kit and sat by her. She gently reached for my hand and cautiously washed the dried blood with water from the tub. I hissed occasionally, but shut up. She was so gentle. She then applied betadine and wrapped my hand in bandages. "Why?" I asked. She smiled and kissed my knuckles one by one. "It's payment for saving me earlier." She replied smiling. "I could ask you the same thing you know." She continued looking up.

"I care. I know you don't believe that, but I care about you. I care a lot. Emily, I still love you." I whispered caressing her hand. She smiled and faced me. "As much as I want to believe... I just can't. Can you bring Me back to my room. I want to sleep." She said staring at the wall. I sighed and carried her towards the bed and laid her gently. "Can you hand me Inkheart, please?" She asked smiling. I smiled back and gave it. "Thanks." She opened on the page where she stopped and read. I smiled and walked out again preparing dinner for the other four.

10:35pm

We finished dinner with the occasional banter from me and Arthur. Sebastian finally put them to sleep and I checked on Emily. She was about to fall asleep, but something seems to be bothering her. "Hey, what are you thinking?" I asked as I approached her and sat by her on the bed. She smiled up to me in confusion. "I... Chris, I... I... I'm scared to sleep." She whispers with her voice cracking. I frowned and faced her to see her with teary eyes. "Hey, shhh. What are you scared of?" I asked taking her hands in mine ad kissing them. "Everything... Stay with me?" She asked. shaking. I smiled and kissed her forehead. "I can't." I whispered pulling way, but she still held my hand. "Please, at least stay until I fall asleep." She begged. I sighed and removed my shoes. She smiled brightly as I walked towards the other side of the bed and removed my cardigan. I got in and she immediately cuddled into my arms. I have to say, I miss this. "Thank you." She whispered tightening her hug. I smiled and smoothened her hair. "Shhhh... Go to sleep." I whispered as I felt like drifting off to sleep as well, but I stayed up for Emily when she started to have nightmares.

1:32am

Her hug tightened again. "Please! Please don't take them away!" She begged and started to kick. I frowned and tried to steady her. "Let go of me!" She yelled kicking. I shook her awake and she gasped opening her eyes. " I-I... You shouldn't be here." She whispered embarassed. I chuckled and smiled caressing her cheek. "I'll be here as long as you need me. Now, would you mind telling me what I'm getting myself into?" I asked smiling. She smiled chuckling. "Cheezy much. I often get nightmares about those three children. I love them dearly and I feel like I am not an adequet mother." She whispered trying to get free from my grip. "I'm sorry." I mumbled letting her go, but still stayed on top of her. "Chris?" She asked after minutes of staring at each other. I tried to memorize everything since I could never see her again after tomorrow until the tapping for Avengers. "Hmm?" I asked caressing her cheek again. "I think you should get off me now. We need to sleep." She chuckled shivering. I laughed and fell beside her and she came closer wrapping arms around my torso. "It's cold." She commented. "It is." I replied taking her hand in mine and kissed it. She laughed laying her head on my chest. "Goodnight." She whispered closing her eyes. I smiled and watched her until my eyses closed.

2:05am

"Chris?" Emily called waking me up to see her face inches from mine. "Yeah?" I asked as I saw her cheeks beginning to blush. I smirked as she just stayed there. "I have so many questions I want to ask you." She whispered getting off me, but I wrapped my arms around her waist to keep her from pulling away. She gasped and rested her hands on my chest to prevent herself from falling on me. I smiled and held her by the waist. "Shoot." I replied. She smiled and started to trail her hand up my face. "Why did you leave me the first time?" She asked stopping at my cheek. I took her hand in mine and kissed it. She blushed and smiled wider. "I was a jealous bastard back then, I still am. Ems, I thought baby was Jensen's because of the kiss. I panicked and it scared me which fueled my anger. I regretted everything. I... I know you're going to ask why I left you the second and even the third... Ems, just know that I'm protecting both of us alright? I know I can't ask you to trust mr, but trust me. Please." I begged caressing her cheek. She sighed and closed her eyes. "I want to trust you, Chris. I really do believe me, but I can't... Can I do one last thing before I leave America?" She asked opening her eyes. I smiled and continued to caress her cheek. "Do what you want." I whispered as she inched closer. I smirked and leaned in so our lips touched. Fuck! Her lips were softer and sweeter than I remember. We closed our eyes and she smiles through the kiss as our lips danced. I gave her all I had as I asked for entrance. He obliged and she buried her fingers in my hair as I pulled her closer. She moaned into my mouth as the kiss got hotter. We pulled away slowly since we both needed air. I opened my eyes to see her do the same thing.

3:45am

"Well, I thought you were adorable in Fantastic Four! You portrayed Johnny Storm perfectly! I was jealous of the girl playing as that reporter. You were barely wearing anything in that scene when you discover your powers." She exclaimed tracing my abs. I laughed kissing her forehead. "You don't look too bad in Supernatural. I thought you'd really kill Meg when Castiel kissed her." I commented smirking. She chuckled looking into my eyes. "Huh, you weren't jealous?" She asked raising a brow. I shook my head. "Even a little bit?" She asked raising a brow. I smiled. "I was jealous enough to ignore Minka for a month just to think about how I feel." I replied checking her out from top to bottom. "One last question." She whhispered stopping my hand from trailing down her body. I looked up and smiled. "Am I a bad girlfriend?" She asked. I laughed. "I knew it! You'd laugh at me!" She yelled frowning. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! You were adorable and I can't help, but laugh. Emily, you were the best girlfriend I ever had. Whoever has you is lucky." I whispered kissing her forehead. She smiled and laid her head on my chest. "Goodnight." She whispered. "Good night." I replied closing my eyes.