It was a normal school day for me. Getting driven to school by my best friend Leo, like he always did. I was screwed, if he was ill or couldn't drive me or something. Wasn't like I couldn't use the bus, but if Leo was ill, why should I go to school? Most of the stuff the teachers tell us I can learn at home as well and without him I would be all alone at school.

I was lucky I had nearly all classes with my best friend, he said, he'd chose similar classes, if I told him, which I'd chose. Though I denied that, knowing his future was more important than me spending time with him. Wasn't like I'd never see him anyways then, but he seems so to be interested in similar subjects and therefor has similar classes.

I'd just always do my work and then listen to what the teacher said with one ear and with the other to what my best friend said, occasionally saying something like "I know" back. I wasn't really interactive. Normally when people talked to me, most they'd receive would be a head bob. But just if I felt like it. Often I'd not listen and think about stuff. Was that why I didn't have any other friends?

Well one things for sure I wasn't like the stereotypical jock with a well build body, playing football and flirting with every girl I thought looked good. I was a kind of athletic looking gay geek, without any stamina, interacting with nearly nobody. And I developed a slightly big crush on my best friend.

The normal day changed when he asked me what was going on. I simply shrugged. I mean what was I supposed to do!? Tell him I felt uneasy because of him? Tell him I was falling for him? Tell him I was about to develop a slightly big crush? Or tell him that I had developed one already?

Hell no! No one knew I was gay anyway and he'd just be disgusted, if he found out. God why did I have to be the gay guy, who developed a crush on his best friend? And why Leo? I couldn't risk losing him, he was the only one by my side. Other than him I was all alone.

I couldn't look at him. I tried to avoid him, but he was by my side in an instant if I needed him. He simply knew me too well to let me go.

By now he stood behind me, his hand resting on my shoulder, holding me in place. My body wouldn't allow me to move, even if I would have had the courage, my bones felt like stone, my skin like metal, my clothes like water pushing me down.

That happened to me for weeks now, before everything was fine. I fell in love with Leo years ago, but I couldn't tell him, I wasn't strong enough! For some reason my feelings just grew stronger in the last weeks, not like myself or my courage.... The things I really needed.

"Alex, tell me what's wrong." He said with the sweetest voice I have ever heard. It was filled with sincerity and concern. I was about to break alone through that. He cared for me, just not the way I cared for him.

"I worry about you." He said, adding a muttered "More than you think." 'Not enough' shot through my head letting a lonely tear flow down my cheek. Quickly followed by a second and a then a third. Before I could comprehend what was happening the tears flew down my face like a river.

Then suddenly I got pulled into a tight hug. "Stop crying, I can't have that." He told me, turning me around in his arms so I faced him. "Why" was all I could manage to choke out, pressing my face into his chest.

"Because I love you." He whispered.

'That's not true.' Something inside me felt like.

'he's just messing with you.' It was just a feeling making me think such things.

'Get away from him he's going to hurt you.'

'He's lying, that can't be true.'

It was getting too much for me to bare. It just kept adding thoughts, one after another and another one after that. Each overleaping the one before. In just mere seconds it started to get too loud in my head to stay calm. I held my head in confusion, trying to ease the pain, before finally blacking out.

When I woke up again I was laying in his arms, while he was stroking my hair. Could someone please wake me up, because this is clearly a dream! "You're cute." Alright now I'm sure it's a dream. "Am I dreaming?" I voiced my thoughts.

"No, no you're awake." He chuckled. He stared at me with sparkling eyes. "Can I kiss you?" he asked barely audible. That made me blush. Did he really have an interest in me? Could he really be feeling something for me?
I wasn't able to say anything anymore. So I simply nodded my head slightly. His eyes seemed to sparkle now, while his smile widened.

Slowly he leaned Closer until our foreheads were touching. Then he placed his lips on mine, sending shivers down my spine. His tongue dancing with mine, letting the world around us disappear. I moaned into the kiss slightly, this couldn't be real could it? It felt amazing, until I suddenly got pulled away from him.

I squeaked out in surprise. My eyes widened in terror, while my head shot up. What I saw surprised me: Max, The Jock of our school, held me at my collar, while his gaze was tearing my best friend apart, whom I just kissed. Wait ... My eyes shot towards him again. I couldn't believe that just happened.

From what I could see in the corner of my eyes, the jock didn't look mad at me. When his gaze turned towards me, he looked possessive. Quickly he pulled me up and threw me over his shoulder, grabbing my legs so I wouldn't fall over.

"W-what are you..." I managed to mumble out, before he put me down and pushed me against a locker. "...doing?" I finished as his head, was closer to mine then I was comfortable with.

"Do not. Kiss any other boy, again." He said threateningly. "O-okay... wait other boy?" That just got interesting. Though he blinked his eyes in confusion, turned around and ...
simply left.

What. Was. That!?

A/N: So yeah... first chapter! If you find better titles be sure to leave me a message :D

Yes this chapter is short... and yes the other will be as well (even shorter as I know me), but hey! who cares? Please report grammar and spelling mistakes, they will be deported in an instant then ;)

I hope you have a good day reading more yaoi, enjoy!