me and ashobeanito had this roleplay, and they wrote a oneshot based on it. They gave me permission to use the entire storyline, minus it's the opposite way.

¡!¡Trigger Warnings!¡!

Cutting
Suicidal Thoughts
Anxiety
Negative Thoughts
Swearing
Smut (at the end)
etc

If you are sensitive to any of these topics, please do not read this. I don't want anybody to get hurt (emotionally or mentally)

If you are okay with all of those then read on.

~Sam Golbach's POV~

I sigh, running my hands through my hair. Tears continue to roll down my face, silent screams for help filling the air. I wanna leave... I want everything to stop, especially these feelings... Recently, I've developed feelings towards someone, a person I know I can't have. I hate myself for it, but I can't help it.

I receive a text message from my best friend, Colby Brock. I wipe away my tears, reading the text message. "Hey, Sam, I got a question," the text message reads, and I start typing back. I've fallen so hard for him, so all I want now is to make him happy.

"What's up?" the text goes through, and I grab my tissues, wiping away my tears from my eyes. The three dancing dots appear, showing that Colby's texting back. In a minute, a new text message appears.

"You wanna come over to my apartment and film a prank with me?" I bite my lip a bit, standing up. I grab my hoodie, sighing as I take a glance at my arms. Multiple cuts and scars make their own sleeves on my arms, and I quickly pull my hoodie on to hide it. Some of them are recent, others from about a month ago.

"Sure, I'll be right over."

I grab my house keys, just so I have them, and slide my phone into my pocket. Glancing at myself in the mirror, I sigh. I haven't really eaten much in a while, seeing as I just, don't have the energy to. I also am not happy with myself in the mirror, so I've been forcing myself to get out of the house and go work on that.

I head out to Colby's apartment once I'm composed enough to look like I wasn't just crying my eyes out, sighing. I cross the hallway, knocking on Colby's door. A faint "come in!" shouts from the inside of the apartment, and I open the door. It was unlocked, so I go in the room. I sit down on the couch, and he smiles at me. I force a smile, and look at him.

"So, what is this prank and who's it on?" I ask him, and he grins. (I'm changing the prank, woohoo-)

"Well, I wanna prank Aaron and Corey, seeing as they're dating now," he starts, showing his signature smirk. I nod gently, listening to his idea. "Well, I figured, why not do a I'm not single prank!"

My heart flutters, seeing as he invited me to do it with him. He clearly doesn't have feelings for me, and I know it, but I can't help but love the idea. "Are you in?" he asks, and I nod. He grins, grabbing his camera. "Alright, let's film the intro and then I'll call them, asking if I can talk to them about something in person. Sound good?" he asks, and I nod.

"Let's get into it then!" he grins, setting his camera up. He does his silly intro, just like always, making sure to mention me. I can't help but let a smile form on my face. "Today, we're going to do a prank that'll make all you fangirls scream. As you know, if you watch our buddies Aaron Doh and Corey Scherer's videos, they got together some time ago. So, to celebrate it, why not prank them by saying I'm not single anymore?" he grins at the camera.

"So, me and Sam are going to pretend to date!" I imagine all the screaming fangirls attacking us once he posts the video, making me smile. My smile fades as I remind myself that this is just a prank; Colby doesn't actually love me and he's way too out of my league to date me. "Shall we get on to the video, Sam?" he grins, and I smile at him.

"Let's do it!" I find myself a bit like my former self, the one before all the shit from life started taking a toll on me. Colby puts the camera down on the table, just like he always has it when he isn't recording.

"You think they'd notice it?" Colby asks, looking at me. I step back, looking at it. Minus the fact the light was blinking, which we can turn off, it's not much different from the usual.

"Just turn off the light, then they won't," I respond, and he nods. He picks up the camera again, turning the light off.

"Alright," he places the camera back down, pulling his phone out of his back pocket. "So, we should plan out what we're gonna say first," Colby sits down, and I sit next to him.

"Sounds good to me," I respond, biting back a stutter. "What if I run to the store first and we get some makeup, then we can make a like, fake hickey on your neck?" I ask him, wanting to make it as believable as possible, that way there Colby's satisfied with the prank.

He grins, nodding. "This is going to be one of the best pranks ever," he grins, turning the camera off for a bit so I can get the makeup.

"I'll be back in a bit," I say, walking out. He follows me, carrying the camera. We head down to my car, getting in. Colby records it most of the ride, probably going to do a time lapse. We walk into walmart, heading straight to the makeup aisle.

"What do you think we need?" I ask him, and he shrugs.

"I don't know, I've never had a makeup hickey before," he says jokingly, smiling. He's been recording this small talk for a moment, before we finally call over a worker. For privacy reasons, she told us not to film her, so we didn't. Colby told her that we're making a prank for our friends and we need to make a fake hickey, so she got a few different things off the shelf, offering them to us.

We bought a couple of them, bringing them home. Colby blogs it, and then we head back to his apartment. "So, who's getting this hickey?" he asks, and I blush faintly.

"I mean, do you think you could make a hickey, or do you think I could?" I ask, not even realizing how it sounded. The camera is still recording, and Colby smirks.

"I definitely could make a hickey," he purrs with his signature grin. "Makeup wise though, I honestly have no idea." I can't help but blush from his flirt, hoping the camera doesn't catch it. "I'll try to make it, and if it fails we can say that I got real aggressive. Deal?" he looks at me, and I nod gently. He gets the makeup brush out, doing yet again another time lapse. After a bit, Colby finishes.

"Ready to see your hickeys?" he grins, and I nod gently. He leads me to the bathroom, seeing as that's one of the only places with a mirror in his house. I look in the mirror, finding multiple quite realistic marks trailing along my collarbone, leading down towards the inside of my shirt. I gasp, turning back to him.

"They look really realistic!" I explain, and with that, we set up the prank.

In about fifteen minutes, Aaron and Corey are finally heading to Colby's apartment, seeing as he told them that he has a big announcement. "You think they'd believe it a bit more if you sat in my lap?" Colby asks, and I shrug. I bite back a quiet squeak, and he grabs my hips gently, making me sit in his lap. Knocking comes on the door, and I glance back at the camera.

"Come in!" Colby says, making his voice seem to be laced with stress and worry. Aaron and Corey come through the doorway, confused looks plastered on both of their faces when they see me on Colby's lap.

"Uhh... what's going on?" Corey asks, and Colby gently rests his hands on my thigh.

"Well... I called you guys over here to tell you, I recently got a partner," he says, seeming nervous.

"Well, that's goo—" Corey starts, seeing the seemingly realistic mark on my neck. "Damn, did you guys already fuck or something?" he asks, and I blush. Colby blushes a bit as well, the camera clearly catching both of our blushes.

"I don't believe they're together; they've been doing pranks still recently," Aaron scoffs softly, and Colby pretends a gasp.

"So, you don't think that me and my little Sammy could be happy together?" he asks, and I stay silent, too embarrassed to even talk.

"No, I just don't believe you're actually dating," he huffs. "If you want me to believe you, then kiss."

Colby looks at me, and I bite my lip. "We don't have to do this if you don't want to, Sam," he whispers softly to me, but I gently grab his face and kiss him. He doesn't do anything for a moment, but then he kisses back. I pull back after a moment, blushing. I stay quiet, and Aaron just claps.

"Well, congratulations, you two," Corey and Aaron say, smiling.

"When do you plan on telling the viewers?" Corey asks us, and Colby grins.

"Never, cause you just got pranked!" he laughs, and I hate how much my heart sinks from it. I was off his lap by now, and Aaron, as well as Corey, roll their eyes.

"I knew it," Aaron huffs. "Nobody's gonna believe you next time you do actually get with someone."

Nobody's ever going to love you anyway, especially Colby, my mind tells me. You should just end the pain you feel.

I get up, walking out before the video ends. Tears start forming in my eyes, but I ignore it. I need to be alone...

~Third Person POV~

Sam just walked out, the video not even over with yet. Colby bites his lip a bit, knowing something was clearly wrong with Sam. Colby quickly stops the camera from recording any more, quickly chasing after the blonde boy.

Sam locks his apartment door as soon as he gets in, knowing Colby was following. "Sam, open the damn door," Colby shouts through, banging on the door. "Tell me what's wrong, please... I just want to help you..."

"I'm fine," the blonde lies, tears streaming down his face. "Leave me alone, Colby."

Sam grabs a knife from the kitchen, biting his lip gently. He's probably not going to end it, not just yet. He's just going to escape the mental prison he has, seeing as the only way he can leave is when he cuts. That's when he feels most alive; when he feels like things aren't going to go wrong anymore.

He locks himself in the bathroom, slowly dragging the knife over his scarred skin. Tears continue to flow from his eyes, dripping onto the newly forming cuts and making them burn.

Colby continues to bang on the door, figuring he doesn't have enough time to grab his keys to Sam's place from his apartment. Something's wrong with Sam, and it's scaring Colby. He ends up kicking the door down, knowing he's gonna have to pay for it but not caring. He looks all around Sam's apartment, trying to find the blonde boy before anything else happens.

Sam continues to cry, his vision blurring from all the deep cuts flowing with blood. He hears things being thrown around inside his room, not caring though. "If this is the end, please be happy, Colby..." he whispers, his throat burning. "I love you.."

Slowly, he loses consciousness, the knife clanking to the floor.

Colby was outside of the bathroom door, tears flowing down his face. He hasn't even seen Sam's state yet, but he heard everything. He continues to bang on the door, choking back sobs. He fumbles with his phone, quickly dialing 911 since he can't get in the bathroom, and because of Sam's state, as far as he knows.

"911, what's your emergency?" the voice asks, Colby's voice cracking.

"M-My best f-friend," he chokes out. "A-Apparently he was c-cutting, a-and he locked himself in the b-bathroom. I-I'm pretty sure he's unconscious from b-blood loss, but I still can't get i-in."

"Calm down, sir," the voice attempts to soothe. "What's the address?"

Colby tells the lady the address the best he can, telling them Sam's room number as well.

"Paramedics are on their way now. Can you stay on the line with me?" the voice asks, and Colby hesitantly does.

"S-Sam," he chokes out, crying uncontrollably.

Aaron and Corey got the memo on what's happening, quickly leaving Colby's apartment and going to Jake's apartment, right down the hall. Corey was crying by now, tears in Aaron's eyes as well. Jake lets the couple in his house, concerned on why they're crying.

After a minute or two, the paramedics are rushing into Sam's apartment, everybody in the apartment complex clearly hearing it. They end up prying the door open, and that's when Colby sees it.

His best friend, and his crush that nobody knew about, lies motionless on the floor, blood pooling around him. He sees a bunch of cuts along Sam's arms, wanting to just wake up and find that this is just some sick nightmare.

But it's not, and Colby knows that. He attempts to reach out and touch his best friend, the paramedics carrying him out before he even can.

Colby follows them, finding his car keys in his pocket and then running down to his car. He starts it up, quickly driving to the main hospital behind the ambulance.

He sits down in the waiting room, continuing to cry as he waits to get any sort of information on Sam's current state. A woman with her five year old daughter is sitting down at the other side of the room, the daughter getting up. The little girl ends up waddling over to Colby, hugging his leg in attempt to make him feel better.

"Don't be sad, mister," the little girl says, looking up at Colby with big eyes. He glances over at where the mother is sitting, seeing the mother looking proud of her baby.

"Thanks, little kiddo," the brunette man mumbles, ruffling the small child's hair.

"Is there anybody here to see Samuel Golbach here?" a nurse comes out, and Colby quickly springs up.

"How is he? Can I go see him?" Colby fires off at the woman, who just sighs.

"He's stable. He lost a lot of blood, but we were able to make him stable for the time being. He's going to need to be staying here for a few nights once he wakes up, just so we can make sure he's alright," the woman explains. "Also, only family members or partners can visit for the time being."

I need to see Sam... Colby thinks silently, biting his lip. "He's my b-boyfriend, ma'am, may I please visit him?"

The nurse nods, leading Colby back in the area. They stop at one room, and the nurse opens the door. "You can stay the night with him, if you wish. If you get any signs of Mr. Golbach waking up though, come get a nurse or doctor," she explains, Colby nodding.

Colby thanks her, his voice faltering. He takes slow steps, finding a sleeping Sam in the bed. The blonde boy seemed so at peace, you would never believe he's in the hospital, much less from almost taking his own life.

"Hey, Sam..." Colby whispers softly. "I don't know if you can hear me or not, but I'm right here... I'm sorry, bubba, I really am. I l-love you too, just have been scared to say it. You don't deserve to be the one sitting there in the bed, I should be in your spot... I wish I could've told you how I felt, before all of this happened..."

Tears silently go down Colby's cheeks, and he looks at the boy he loves. He grew up, Sam right by his side from the beginning. "I was dumb to suggest doing that prank, I just... I wanted to be with you, and it was the only thing I could think of.."

Colby grabs Sam's hand, holding it gently in his own. He continues to cry softly, wanting his best friend back, without the scars and hospital trip. "P-Please don't leave me, Sam..." Colby whispers quietly. "I can't lose you...."

Sam's able to hear everything that Colby's saying to him, and he can't believe it. Colby actually does like him... he wants to just reach out and hug Colby, though finding himself unable to move his body.

Instead, Sam just puts a lot of energy into holding Colby's hand, making himself have a slight grip on it. Colby looks at the blonde boy once he feels his hand being held back, finding the boy is still asleep.

He gets up, heading out of the room to get a doctor or nurse, seeing as Sam clearly just moved. "Ma'am?" the brunette asks softly, looking at the woman.

"Yes?"

"I was with my b-boyfriend, Samuel Golbach, and he just moved," he explains to the nurse.

"Alright, I'll send a doctor right in," she smiles softly at Colby, who walks right back to Sam's room.

In a few more minutes, Sam's fingers move, clearly getting more feeling in them. Colby looks up at the boy, hope in his eyes.

A doctor comes rushing in soon after, finding Sam moving. "He'll be awake within the next few hours, sir," the doctor explains to Colby, who just continues to watch on.

"Alright, thank you, sir."

Silence fills the room, minus the beeping of some of the machines. In the span of an hour and a half, Sam is almost fully awake. He groans softly, reaching up and rubbing his eyes.

"Sam! You're awake!" Colby explains excitedly, hugging his best friend. Sam bites his lip, hugging Colby back the best he can.

"I'll leave you two alone, though I'll be back in ten minutes to check on Samuel's state," the doctor says, leaving the room.

"D-Did you mean it..?" Sam asks the brunette softly, earning a confused look from Colby. "W-When you said you loved me..."

Colby blushes faintly, though nodding gently. "Did you mean it when you said it..?" Sam nods.

"Well..." Colby starts softly. "I know being in the hospital isn't the best place to ask this, but will you be my boyfriend..?"

Sam nods eagerly, hugging Colby tightly.

A couple of days later, Sam was finally released from the hospital. They headed home in Colby's car, which was still in the parking lot. Aaron, Corey and Jake all ended up visiting over the past few days, happy to know that Sam's going to be okay now.

Colby was curious as to why Sam felt the need to cut, but he wasn't going to ask him about it, not wanting to hurt the blonde boy that he loves.

"I love you, Colby," Sam smiles at Colby, whom is driving at the moment. Colby smiles as well, resting his one hand on Sam's thigh.

"I love you too," Colby hums, soon pulling into their apartment complex parking lot. They walk in, Colby holding Sam's hand.

Sam presses himself close to Colby, blushing faintly from people looking at them. "People are staring," he whispers.

"Let them stare then," Colby smiles, kissing Sam's forehead. They then get in the elevator, heading up to the floor that them and Jake live on.

They go in Colby's apartment, Sam's still missing the door. Thankfully, the people who own the complex said they would pay for the damages to the room, seeing as they were all to try to save Sam.

"Hey, Colby?" Sam asks softly, blushing. Colby looks down at the shorter boy, humming softly.

"Yeah?"

"Can we... can we do something..?" Sam asks, blushing more.

"Like?"

"I-I want you," he stutters, knowing Colby knows what he means by it. Colby blushes, looking at him with a look saying 'are you sure?'

The smaller boy just nodded, wrapping his arms around Colby's neck. "O-Only if you want t-to," he adds, and Colby smiles at the boy.

"L-Let's go to my room," he says softly, picking the smaller one up. Sam wraps his legs around Colby's waist, holding on to Colby.

The taller one lays Sam down on the bed, crawling over him. He then starts to kiss along Sam's neck, searching for a pleasurable spot. Sam gasps softly from the feeling, soon moaning as Colby finds what he was looking for.

He starts attacking that one spot, leaving some actual hickeys instead of the makeup ones. Sam continues to moan under Colby, who just grins. Eventually, Colby's satisfied, so he pulls back. He looks at the panting Sam, smiling. "Are you sure you want this, Sammy?" he asks, earning an eager nod from the subdominant boy. He continues, tugging on Sam's pants.

Sam nods gently, the pants quickly being discarded. Colby sits up, taking his shirt off and throwing it to the side of his room. Afterwards, he tugs on the blondes shirt, and Sam bites his lip nervously. He hesitantly nods, sitting up and taking it off himself. All of the scars lining his arms are revealed, and he bites his lip as he waits for Colby to stop what they're doing and dump him.

But it never comes. "Those scars, let them be a signal of how far you've come. Alright?" Colby says, Sam blushing faintly. He nods gently, and Colby kisses him gently. Sam kisses back, leaning back against the bed once again. The kiss leads to a heated make out session, Sam tugging on the hem of Colby's pants, whining.

Colby pulls back from the kiss, chuckling. He then takes his pants off as well, tugging Sam's boxers down next. The blonde boy is left with no clothes, and he shyly crosses his legs.

The dominant one of the two kisses his lover, running his hands along his lover's body, earning more soft moans and gasps. Sam ends up uncrossing his legs, wrapping them around Colby's waist instead. Colby grins, pulling his own boxers off as well, pulling back from the kiss.

"Are you ready, Sammy?" he asks softly, massaging Sam's hips in attempt to prepare him. Sam nods gently, blushing. Colby slowly pushes himself into the smaller boy, careful not to hurt him. Sam gasps from the feeling of Colby's large dick inside him, his eyes watering slightly. Colby continues to massage the boys hips, not moving so he can get used to the feeling.

After a minute or so, Sam nods gently, signaling that Colby can continue. He does, rocking his hips a bit before starting to thrust, careful not to go too hard on the smaller boy.

"F-Fuck," Sam moans. "H-Harder, Colbs, harder!~"

He obeys, thrusting himself faster and harder into Sam. Sam claws at Colby's back, making Colby hiss from the feeling. Sam gasps and moans, streams of cursing coming from the boys mouth.

"C-Colbs, I'm c-close," he gasps, throwing his head back from the pleasurable feelings overwhelming him.

Colby nods, his own climax starting to near. Sam arches his back, riding out his orgasm by bucking his hips into Colby's thrusts.

Colby soon finds Sam's prostate, only earning more sounds of pleasure from the boy. The dominant thrusts himself there a few more times, releasing deep inside of his lover.

Pulling himself out, he lays down next to Sam. Sam quickly snuggles close against Colby's chest, Colby brushing Sam's beautiful blonde locks out of his face.

"I love you, Sammy," Colby mumbles, smiling. Sam looks up at him, blushing from the nickname still.

"I love you too, Colbs."

Jake, being right next door to Colby, sadly heard everything that happened in Colby's room. He ended up grabbing his phone, plugging in his earbuds to escape the sounds consisting of "h-harder!" that he heard.

~~~

So ye, that's the prompt that Ash gave me. Thank yeeee :3

Well, that was a long, emotional ride of a oneshot. I hope everyone stays safe, I love you guys.
Thank you for reading, have a good rest of your day, evening, morning; whatever it is for you. I'll leave a link to ashobeanito 's oneshot in the comments since I mentioned it a lot, and ye. Imma head out now- tons of other updates to post now-

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