Yah know what Ill finish the book because I feel MOTIVATED

I cant believe it, I have to see him again. See the face of a person that I thought was my friend ,who beat me mercilessly. I cant do this, I cant see him again, let him see how much he broke me

I must have said the last part out loud because soon Keefe was there sending calming breezes of green. But even that wasn't enough to stop the panic. I started crying

¨I cant do this, I cant see him again! I cant even walk and now they expect me to relive it all I cant I cant I cant I cant I cant I cant I cant I.............¨ I sob as the panic washes over me like the new tide

¨Sophie hey, look at me. You CAN do this. You are one of the strongest people  I know and IM going to be there for you through every little bit of it. Keefe whispers to me as he pulls me into a hug.

¨ I know it might be okay but, Im scared I don't want  him to hurt me again.¨ I choke out ¨his entire touch is poison, his words, everything. I cant expose myself to that again.¨

Biana walks up and places her hand on my shoulder, ¨Sophie, its ok We all are going to be by you the entire time, and it may do you good to get you back to a normal schedule, because we all know that you have trial every other weak,¨

We all laugh at that, but soon the laughter dies out and I whisper ¨well I don't think I can go to Enternilla in a hospital gown so if someone could help me to the bathtub.¨

Time skip (after the bath)

Im wearing a long ice blue dress with spaghetti straps and flats. Because I cant walk its proven a challenge to find a safe way to go to enternilla without light leaping because my concentration is too low when IM healing.

It was also the first time in almost 5 months I've been able to see me reflection , and what was in  the mirror haunted me. I saw a pale, weak ,little girl whose face was all cut up by scars. I cant believe what Fitz's face will look like if I look like this

I guess the only real perk of being In a wheelchair is that I don't have to worry about tripping over the dress. Biana meets me in my room and gushes about how good I look but  honestly I just want to get this over and done with so I have Biana wheel my chair down from my room, and towards the leap master where she excludes all her concentration to keep me from splinching,

Time skips (the court house)

While me and biana are enjoying a late afternoon snack before my trial starts I cant help but notice a special someone is missing.

¨where is Keefe I¨ ask  why isnt he here

¨I think he went to go talk to the police to keep FItz away from you when he is on the stand. Biana sayx.

Welp I guess we stalled long enough ¨I've called long enough ¨¨I whisper¨ its time for the trial to begin