So this is the part two which isn't from the original draft. But I hope it falls in the right place anyway.

Chapter 19 : Swift p2

I. Can't. Sleep.

Horrible isn't it? When your brain refuses to give in and just shut up for like eight hours. I mean honestly sometimes I think I'm nocturnal. That would be the life though. I'd love to sleep throughout the day.

Should speak to the government about that.

Anyway, I decide to go downstairs at one o'clock in the morning hoping my parents wouldn't think there's a serial killer lurking. Oh who am I kidding I'm a cereal killer, mwa ha ha!

Lack of sleep is doing this to me.

As I trudge, trying to be stealth as possible,walking on my tippy toes and shoulders hunched, I notice the lounge light switched on. Mum is sitting on the recliner, leaning against the table, her figure bent over as she sorts through papers. I walk towards the opposite couch and lean against the backrest waiting to catch her attention.

"Trouble falling asleep, I presume"

Mum whips her head around, brown hair flying in shock as he holds her chest. "Oh gosh, Danny, you scared me!"

"Sorry," I scratch the back of my neck with a guilty smile. "Mind if I join you?"

She nods her head towards the couch, motioning me to sit and so I do.

"What's up sweetie?"

In response I shrug not knowing where to start. Toying with a loose thread of couch sewing as I try to make else if the last couple of days.

"Hey if there's anything wrong you know you can trust me," Mum says patting my knee comfortly.

I nod in understanding. "I know it's just so hard to explain what's going on, I can't really find the right words, know what I mean?

Even I don't know what I mean at this point.

"Not entirely,"  Mum says slowly and her eyes fall to my hand so I follow her gaze. "That's a nice bracelet"

The bracelet Silver got for me.

"I notice you sometimes absentmindly play with it, who gave it to you? Someone special I'm guessing"

I blink twice there's a teasing tone in her voice, a blush creeps on my face. Stupid blood.

"He . . . He's not special," I stutter.

Stutter?

What the heck?

"A he?" Mum beams with a happy goofy grin. Weirdo.

"Yeah, Xavier that dude," I say slowly trying to see of she recalls.

"Which Xavier? I never heard of this guy, sweetie you only told me about the twins, where did this boy come from"

"Uh, mum I'm friends with most of the football team," I state, mum shoots me a look as if this hadn't happened before. "He's the captain, Xavier Rays"

"Wait as in Colin Rays son?"

The name is unfamiliar to me, must be Xavier's stern father, that's probably it. Well so I've only seen. I wonder if Colin is actually always that scary or he just didn't take a liking to me because I kinda barged into his house.

"Owner of Rays Motors that's the one," I say getting a nod in response. "His son and I are friends, we weren't always, but after he broke up with his girlfriend and we bumped into each other we started hanging out, it's funny though at first I judged him and his three friends but I was wrong, they're all so nice really, it's just a faćade"

Mum doesn't reply, waiting for me to go on.

"But I'm having trouble with the other school kids, you see Xavier is really popular, and Stephanie, Xavier's ex, isn't to happy about me being friends with him, I don't know why, I mean they broke up its over, even if I tried speaking to her, she'll probably gang up with the demon squad to bully me or something"

Woah. Feels nice to say that aloud. 

"Demon squad?" Mum interrupts creasing her eyebrows in puzzlement.

"Yeah the cheer squad," I expound.

"Oh of course dear, let me make us some tea, then you can continue," My mother says waking up. I nod. When she's done I accept the hot beverage, savouring the odd taste and then start talking.

"So I can't really deal with all of this mum, it's aggravating, I'm not good with stress," I take a deep breath trying to face the facts. "Or maybe I'm just scared"

"Actually Danny," Mum says putting her cup down and rubbing her thighs. "I think you're just worried about what the others think of you, stop doing that, just worry about what you think of yourself okay?"

I tilt my head confused. "Can you elaborate?"

"Sure sweetie, you see Dan, you're to afraid of what others think of you because you're at a new school, you want to blend in, that's why you're disguised yourself to blend in with the other boys instead of trying to let them accept you for being a girl, I mean don't you think that if they knew you were such a good player, maybe they would of let you be the first female footballer for Holdenbridge?"

I understand her words. Maybe she's right. I should stop worrying about what others think of me and start focusing on what I think about myself. I really need to stop jumping to conclusions and judging from appearances.

Like thinking Xavier is a egotistical player.

He's more than that, everyone is. Maybe if it actually tried out as a girl, they would of accepted me instead of all this trouble I caused. It would of been so much easier. This was suppose to be a new start for me, leaving behind the old memories of bullying and Thomas. All supposed to be gone. But now I feel like I haven't accomplished anything.

Maybe though, I can finally admit that I have a crush on Silver. Because I do. 

Because after all the sappy stuff that's one step forward.

I wake up and give my mother a hug, something I should do more often to show I'm thankful for the people around me. My hands are firm around her savouring the moment.

Okay woah that sleep deprivation is really getting to me.

"Goodnight Dan try to get some sleep, " Mum says kissing my forehead and picks up her papers before going upstairs.

I wipe my forehead with the back of my hand and my eye catches the football lying by the door. I grin. Quickly getting a jacket and pocketing my phone, I unlock the door and walk towards the nearest park. Roads are empty obviously I'm probably the only looney awake, walking around like a drunkard with only my pyjamas, that's thankfully long because it's freezing outside. I ball my fists and stuff them in my pockets, holding the ball under my arm as I get to the park.

"Okay, here we go," I whisper taking a deep breath. My aim- that fountain at around five metres away. Start simple.

I stand at an angle, before jogging towards the ball curling it into the target. With a splash it's in.

Ah the beauty of physics and pure football.

Smiling, I look for another target, which happens to be a bench, then the tree, then a portion of the graffiti on the wall. All hit successfully. I should really start practising in the really early morning. After a while, I stop, sitting on the bench I take out my phone looking for I don't know what. Let's see, Becky- no messages, Audrey- none (well nothing new there),  the twins- nada, Silver- five unread.

Wait.

Silver?

I read the message he sent, and decide to reply. Don't ask, I don't have the faintest idea of what I'm doing.

Silver idiotic Rays :

Hiya Rose

Hello hii

Infared please reply

I'm borreeeddd.😭

Fine whatever I'll msg JK

Daenrys Swift :

Really dude ???

Wait why are u awake so early ???

Could ask the same about u

Toućhe

Again.

Wud ???

Playing football outside, I need to find more places in this area to play football
Y r u awake

Cool cool

I got insomnia prob rmbr

U can't find places to play football in? Honey u can ply ftbll anywhere