I almost forgot how does this feel. It's been very long time since I performed before my break, I couldn't handle all the stress about fame and stuff so I decided to keep a low profile from the eye of the world.

I was about to get on stage to open my beautiful boyfriend's concert, in Warsaw. Jan was beyond excited for me to open his concert and to be back on stage so I couldn't say no to those eyes full of emotion, even tho I wasn't ready.

I started to feel my heart beating faster and my hands were shaking, so was my whole body, I started to get sad bc I didn't want to let Jan's fandom down, but well, tbh I don't think janek's fans like me at all, some of them hate me just bc I'm dating him, I can't blame them, I'd hate myself too, in fact I do, I just can't make him happy, he is so excited for this and im just ruining it.

I started to overthink everything and I don't even know when I started crying, I tried to calm down by myself without success. Suddenly I feel a lil tap on my shoulder. Shit.

-Hey baby, u ready to go?. I heard his voice behind me, he sounded so happy, I didn't turn to face him.
-Honey, are u ok? Why don't you look at me? Is everything alright? He started to get worried, pls can he just leave?
-Julia, come on this isn't funny, turn around. He grabbed my waist and turned me around, his eyes widened and his expressions became worried the first second he saw my eyes full of tears.

-I... I just... I don't think I can do this, I'm not going to do it right, ur fans are going to hate me even more. I let some tears fall, I'm literally the worst gf ever, I'm literally ruining his night.

-What? Jules, no! Darling, you're going to be amazing! As always! You're the most amazing girl I've ever seen on stage and in general. I do not want to hear u talking about yourself like that. He wrapped his arms around me and rested his chin on my forehead.
-And they don't hate you! I don't think someone can hate you, and even if they did, that doesn't matter, it's my love for you that matters! I love you and that's all you need to care about. If they don't like the fact that we're in love then they should look for another artist cuz I'm definitely fine by your side. He stroked my hair and left a lil peak in my lips. I opened my mouth trying to say something but he started to talk again.
-You don't have to go if u don't feel ready, I'll go on stage a bit earlier and that's it, I don't wanna force you into anything. His eyes showed nothing but honesty. I'm the luckiest girl in earth, this boy means everything to me.

-Thank you, but I really want to try, I guess.

-are you sure?

-only if u promise that you'll help me if you notice that I'm not ok and you'll make it less embarrassing for me.

He giggled and hugged me. -deal.

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