'Was never the right time, whenever you called'
' Went little, by little, by little until there was nothing at all'

Saturday 21st July

'I get myself up but I feel like hell after spending the entire night watching my team have fun without me. I still don't know how it came to this. Why am I so hated?'

'I remember the times when the only people that Hajime and I needed was each other. We promised to be friends forever but now when he looks at me, all I see is disgust in his eyes. No matter how much I try it's never enough for any of them. I wish I were DEAD'

Iwaizumi couldn't believe what he was reading, how had he managed to hurt, so badly, someone who he loved more than anyone else. He didn't deserve to have the boy in his life. He continued to read.

Sunday 22nd July

'I rang Hajime this morning to see if he wanted to hang out for a little while. 'I'm too busy, stop irritating me. You're so needy. The insults go on and on, he never has time for me. All of my team mates are busy too, oh well.'

'Atsumu messaged me to ask why I hadn't come to the park with the rest of my team mates. I didn't know, no one had bothered to ask me. Atsumu and Suga were furious and apparently made Iwaizumi aware of their feelings.'

'He's shouting at my mom again, I can hear raised voices and things breaking. The anxiety is rising within me as I feel my chest tightening, my breath labouring and the bile rising in my stomach. I need to get away but I can't, he's blocking the exit so I lock myself in my bathroom.'

WARNING - Self harm, don't read if it causes distress

'I sit on the floor with my knees up to my chest, my head in my hands just rocking back and forth my body racked with sobs. I hear her scream and jolt backwards hitting my head hard against the tiles. The pain is sharp but it seems to numb the anxiety, so I do it again, this time drawing blood.'

BACK WITH IWAIZUMI

The door opened slowly and in walked the volleyball team. Iwa looked up sobbing, "this is all my fault. I did this to him, me, and you all helped". Matsun froze in shock, "what do you mean?" the boy asked looking at the others.

The spiky haired boy threw the diary at Matsun, "read it" he growled. "Oh my God" Makki cried, "why did we treat him like this, he was suffering and we didn't see it." "How could we be so cruel" Yahaba sobbed, a tortured look on his face.

"Please leave" Iwaizumi whispered. "I don't want to" Makki wept. Iwaizumi began to scream and shout at the boys just as the door opened again and in walked Atsumu and Suga.

"What do you want?" Iwa growled, "he needs his friends around him not casual acquaintances." Atsumu felt his blood boil but he managed to hold back, unfortunately Suga didn't.

Iwaizumi felt the punch connect, he felt the pain, the blood run down his face. He looked in shock as Suga was being held back by Iwa's team mates. "Don't you fucking dare" Suga screamed. "These two casual acquaintances found him in his room two days after his birthday. The day we all met in the park. He had been cutting himself because of you lot but this time he'd gone too deep and if we'd have been five minutes later he would already be dead."

Iwa recoiled in horror. Sobs could be heard throughout the room.

"You don't deserve him" Atsumu yelled. "None of you do" Suga continued, "and if he doesn't wake up, this is all on you."