Okay. So I have a terrible fear of one thing in particular.

I am terrified of writing.

I'm serious. I am not kidding you, I'm scarred of writing. Writing stuff that's never been done before. Writing what hasn't been wrote. I'm afraid of it.

So I had this idea to write a BNHA
model AU. KatsuDeku, of course.

Izuku is depressed because Katsuki bullies him and he becomes depressed. He harms himself, starved himself, and even shys from social interaction.

So Izuku ends up trying to kill himself as Katsuki told him to. It damages his lungs, and he is hospitalized for a long time. Katsuki is guilty. Katsuki stops bullying him but they aren't good friends anymore.

One Izuku is out of the hospital, he's depressed and he binge eats. He gains lots of weight.

He isn't happy with his body, so he works out and diets so he can feel good with himself. He wants to feel happy with his body. It's hard at first, but he eventually pushes himself to work out and eat healthier. Even if it's difficult. It goes even better than planned, and he ends up reinventing himself. He dresses nicer, gets into fashion, hair, and all that. But he isn't sure what he wants to do with his life.

He goes through surgery to remove the extra skin he has left over from weight loss, and works a bit longer so he can regain body shape. But all his self ha and surgery scars (both from the skin removal and lung surgery) aren't going to go away.

He currently works at Hollister, selling clothing and such and one of his close coworker friends says that they think he looks really good and would be great as a model. They are close friends, and Izuku even told them about his suicidal history. Anyway, Izuku is insecure at first, but he's inspired by his friends propositions. He starts an Instagram- I mean, uh, instafam account and his friend (who I might need some ideas for ;) ) does the photography for.

Izuku eventually gets a modeling deal with a small company and starts from there. By this time, Katsuki has been checking in with Izuku's mom about his health, even if he doesn't know.

Anyway, Izuku eventually gets a modeling deal from his second job, Hollister, to model for their store. He works really hard, keeping his body in shape and his diet good, and taking great care of his skin and hair and all cosmetic aspects. He has a sort of natural beauty. Even his freckles add to it.

He works his way up through companies, but even at Hollister Katsuki noticed his old friend in a magazine looking like a god.

This is obviously a shock to him. This kid he cares for, yet told to kill himself, is growing past him. Standing on the line that borders between normal and famous. Tons of fans, deals all around, and a genuine smile on his face. He's come so far from his past and Katsuki fall in love, but this time he doesn't ignore it and he actually tries to make a genuine attempt.

He visits Izuku and tells him about his regrets and Izuku forgives him with a smile. Just like he always did as a child...

Katsuki has no belief that his friend is gay, I mean, this boy has thousands of female fans who read magazines with him on the cover. This fabulous boy.

But guess what he's fucking wrong Izuku likes the dICK-

Anywho,

Izuku is terribly in love with this blonde haired bomb shell. His mom would tell him that Katsuki checks up with her about him, and how worried he always seemed.

But he's convinced that his Kacchan is straight as a board with no clue that he's actually about as straight as a rainbow. Just with a very dominantly straight personality.

So

Basically, Katsuki makes a bold move three weeks down the road of trying to mend everything and kisses Izuku. Izuku has no resistance and actually kisses back. It's filled with a lot of smut eventually, and it becomes the story of Izuku trying to hide his relationship with Katsuki, him believing it would be bad for his career with all his female fans.

So it also includes class one A catching the two of them kissing and being surprised about Balugou's sexuality, and the couple trying to make sure no one from class A outs them as a couple.

So yeah, other stuff and things plot, BUT IM SCARED OF WRITING IT

I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF A MODEL AU FOR BNHA so I feel like no one would read it and it would be strictly people who read this book, and uuuuuu I also have 15 million other book ideas and no clue what to name this one.

SO HELP ME PLEASE