028 // READING

"if i miss you any harder, my heart might come looking for you."

//

Helena holds the letter carefully.

she reads it to herself.

i could never be good enough. i could've done better and i have a lot to learn. thank you for always supporting me...

although she's read it countless times, it still moves her to tears. Helena's finger traces over the folds, creases on the hand written letter. many times, she's scrunched the letter up in distaste and upset but today, she holds it with care and love because it's all she has left from the close writer.

and lastly, Helena reads out the writers lovely name.

a soft whisper in silence, in the comfort of her bedroom.

yours truly...

Helia walks into the room, hands holding a gadget she's allowed limited time on. "so who's Park Jimin?" the innocent child questions, having heard her auntie say his name out loud.

the recipient of this letter, my, your, a... "just someone i used to know." Helena settles with, smiling a small smile as Helia walks further into the room- big eyes with curiosity on show.

"did he make you upset?" Helia asks, putting down her gaming device before standing in front of her auntie. she can sense the sadness in her experienced eyes, in her body language. she wants to know but knows not to ask too much or be too nosy.

"how do you know?" Helena laughs. how does she know he made me upset? how does she know the letter was sad and not hopeful, good?

"you're trying not to cry." Helia states blankly. she's a good observer- Helena thinks. "so did he upset you, did he hurt you?"

"yeah and i still love him." Helena sighs. she folds up the letter.

"love is weird." Helia clarifies her thoughts out loud. "how can you still love someone when they hurt you. what if they didn't mean it? love is so weird." she repeats, utterly baffled.

"it really is." Helena brings her closer and hugs her niece.

the next day Helena rushes onto the bus after nearly missing it.

Helena notices when she steps onto the platform safely that Yoongi was standing towards the front, next to the driver. as soon as he sees her, he walks away to take a seat without a single word.

little does Helena know, Yoongi told the bus driver- "can you wait for my girlfriend please? she's here."

love is indeed weird.

//

jimin hm? any theories?