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ーBe like snow. Beautiful and coldー

Opening his eyes,a loud gasp left from Jin's lips. Sitting straight, he held his forehead with one hand while supporting his body by the other. He snapped his head towards the door but his gaze was stolen by the little fancy fan which was lying sadly on his nightstand.

It was his fan. The fan Qin Xiu held so dearly wherever he goes. The only treasure which was succeeded in stealing Qin Xiu's sincere love,the fan.

With trembling hands,he reached out.
It wasn't a dream? Did he say good bye to me?no...

Igarashi was staring at the outside standing on the veranda.

"I know I shouldn't be saying this to you. You will do it whether I said it or not but I want to say it. Please take care of Seokjin. He truly means a lot to me. I'm leaving to where I belong to. I stayed here too long. I will not be back unless it is a command from Emperor. Then,good bye"

She closed her eyes feeling the morning wind against her face. But they weren't closed for a long time when the expected person came to her.

"Where is he?"

Igarashi tuned around with her cold empty look. There is no point in lying and lying isn't her way.

"He is gone"

Jin tightly clutched onto the fan and directly stared into her eyes.

"Where?"

"To the place he came from"

"Why?Why did he leave? What's the reason?!",Jin was slowly loosing his shit and his body was already trembling.

"I ordered him"

It was like a cold bucket of water had hit Jin. He had a little feeling that it may have something to do with his sister but hearing it,he didn't know what to do. It hurt him. It broke him. He was emotionally unstable and wasn't in his right mind. He still had the toxicness of the last night drinks and events.

He looked at his sister with disbelieved eyes.

"Why?WHY?!!",For the first time,he raised his voice at her breaking Igarashi's heart but she stood there with her icy gaze like his words held no power to break her.

It was the time for breakfast, so everyone was coming one by one to the living room of the suit. And seeing the scene,they were dumbfounded except Dongwook.

"Go to your room. You are not in a position to speak now",Igarashi spoke knowing that this conversation would not bring them anywhere nice.

But of course Jin wasn't buying it.

"No! I want to talk now! Why did you do it?!",his eyes were slightly teary by now.

Igarashi felt her body going paralysed seeing his intoxicated insane figure. She knew that she was the reason behind it. Her brother's love story just started and she put a pullstop even before everything.

"Hyung,what's wrong?",Yoongi was the first one to ask. He didn't like the way Jin spoke to their sister. But he was ignored by Jin.

Jin was still waiting for his sister's answer.

Igarashi heaved a sigh.

"Because you two were going somewhere you shouldn't. What you were about to commit was something which never should happen"

Jin shook his head not believing her words.

"YouーYou can't decide it",he mumbled clenching his fists.

"I can",Igarashi spoke not even waving her cold expression. "I am your sister. I know what is good for your future"

Jin's face darkened immediately hearing the same words which were uttered by his father years ago. He hated those words and it triggered him. It traumatised him. He no longer saw what is right. He just wanted what he wants.

"You. Are. Just. Like. Him! ",he uttered the words one by one through his gritted teeth.

Igarashi blinked hearing his words. She understood his words. Did he just compare her to her father?

"Hyung that's enough",Namjoon warned knowing where it might lead. But Jin wasn't the one to listen now.

"You are just the same as him!! Ordering me what to do and not to do!! Who even gave you permission to invade my personal life?!! I LIKE HIM AND YOU CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!YOU ARE JUST AN OUTSIDER!"

"KIM SEOKJIN!",Yoongi yelled hearing the last part. No one could believe that Jin could say something so harsh to their sister who gave them everything.

Igarashi finally gave a reaction. Her eyes went wide hearing the last part. Yes,it broke her completely even though she knew that he didn't mean it. It was his intoxicated mind. But Igarashi couldn't help but to get hurt.

Invading personal life? She could make an escape routing for them to their dreams and freedom when they needed it the most. Wasn't it also invading privacy?But they let her invade because she was their sister. And when she did something which wasn't upto their liking,she became an outsider.

Jin was pulled by his collar and a strong punch was collided with his face by none other than Yoongi who had the authority other than the rest.

Jin stumbled onto the floor with a busted lip.

"What the fuck did you just say Kim Seokjin?!",Yoongi uttered through his gritted teeth and pulled him by his collar again and was ready throw another punch but Namjoon held him.

Yoongi struggled in his hold wanting to punch his brother again."HOW FUCKING DARE YOU?!LET ME GO!"

Hoseok also helped Namjoon to keep Yoongi in place while Taehyung and Jimin helped Jin to stand up.

Jin slowly looked at his sister with dazed eyes. It finally got him. He realised what he did. He didn't mean it. He didn't fucking mean it. He opened his mouth bit nothing was left from his throat. Only tears left from his eyes when he saw her just staring blankly at him. Guilt striked him hard.

Jin wasn't sure if he saw it right but a shiny tear dropped onto the carpet under his sister's feet. It was almost like an illusion because when he looked at her eyes,there were no tears. But he knew that he hurt her.

Gulping the lump,he took a step back. His chest rose up and down with his heavy breathing. He looked at the still struggling Yoongi who was in Namjoon's and Hoseok's grip. Then his gaze went to Jungkook who was looking back at him with wide eyes. Disappointment was visible in his eyes. Why wouldn't he. Jungkook had always looked into him with adoration but seeing what he did,of course it broke him.

He couldn't stay there. He wanted to run and that's what he did.

"Hyung",Jungkook mumbled but didn't dare to run after him. He just couldn't. Everything was a mess. He didn't know who he should reach for now. He looked at his sister who was now back facing them.

Jennie covered her mouth with her palm not believing what just happened.

Dongwook's first instinct was to reach Igarashi but paused when he saw Jungkook approaching her. The rest of the boys stared from far not knowing if they should approach her now. So,he decided to search for Jin right now. It was what Igarashi wants right now and he knew it. He didn't need Igarashi's words to know what she needs.

"Stay here",Dongwook muttered to Jennie. She gave a small nod.

He ran outside.

Jungkook gulped hard before speaking to Igarashi.

"H-He didn't mean it noona. I-I'm sure that he didn't mean it"

"I know"

Jungkook fiddled with his fingers not knowing what to say more. He didn't want her to be sad. But he also wanted to know what exactly happened. He grasped few things by earlier conversation between Jin and her but he wasn't that much sure.

He snapped out of his thoughts when he felt a hand messing his hair. He looked upto to see her eyes on him.

"Go and eat with your brothers. We are going home after few hours",with that she started to walk away.

"Noona what happened?",It was Yoongi. "Qin Xiu and Jin hyung? What happened between them? "

Igarashi didn't look back. "It is what it looked like. You heard everything. Now eat",she looked at Jennie. "Make sure they eat",with that she left.

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Jin was in the pool area of the hotel and no one was around him since it was specifically reserved for them. He sat on a laying chair with his elbows on his knees and held Qin Xiu's fan from one hand.

He couldn't belive that he said such a thing. He felt horrible. He closed his eyes with a palm and sobbed to remove the pain in his heart.

"Hey"

Jin recognised the voice but he didn't look up.

Dongwook heaved a sigh. He waited until Jin stop crying and let him cry. He just sat on the chair next to him and waited.

When Jin finally stopped crying, he spoke.

"It's okay. She understands"

Jin shook his head not meeting Dongwook's eyes. He felt guilty.

"No,I shouldn't have said that",his voice cracked. "IーI shouldn't have"

"Well,you are a human. Everyone has their ups and downs"

Jin stayed silent,staring at the fan in his hands. Dongwook eyed the fan.

"She didn't want to hurt you. She just prevented a big disaster which might ruin both you and him"

Jin frowned. He looked at Dongwook with a questioning gaze. "What do you mean?"

"I can't say in details. But he is forbidden to love. He is a chained slave for a monster. Those chains are around Qin Xiu's neck and one mistake would choke him to death"

Jin's felt his heart clenching and it drummed against his ribcage. With wide eyes,he listened to Dongwook.

"You are safe because of your sister. Unless,those chains would reach out to you too. But she can't save Qin Xiu. And the only thing she could do to save him was,....breaking you two apart. She knew that if he was to die,then you will not be able to bear the pain. For now,atleast,you two will be assured knowing you both are alive. But what will you do if he die? Can you bear the pain when he died?"

Jin felt his breath shortening. His heart was constantly contrasting painfully inside him.

"The monster will let him die in your arms"

That was the cruelest thing anyone could do.

"So,don't blame your sister for what she did. If she ever take a decision, that is after thinking every side of the possibilities. You seven are her only hope and wish. She lives for you all. So,don't ever think that she will do anything which would harm you"

His words hit Jin like a thunder strike. It burned his soul. He couldn't bear the pain he was feeling now. Guilt was rushing inside his veins. He felt like someone is ripping apart his heart. He took few shallow breaths trying to calm himself with closed eyes.

"She may not show it but she feels the pain. Don't do it again. You guys are the only people who could bring pain and joy to her"

Dongwook patted his back. "I know it's hard to grasp what I just said. But rest assured. Qin Xiu will be fine somewhere and will be alive. Maybe one day,you will meet him again. Who knows. Or you can decide to move on. Let the time decide your fate"

Somehow, Jin felt relieved now knowing Qin Xiu will be alright because of the decision his noona took. But the thing he said to her wasn't leaving his mind.

"Is she mad at me?",his voice was hoarse because of all the crying.

Dongwook chuckled shaking his head. "Are you really asking me that question. When did she ever stay mad at you? She just loves you guys a lot and can never be mad at you"

Jin heaved a sigh of relief but still he needed to apologise.

"Just stay here a bit and collect your thoughts. I'll leave you alone"
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Jin entered the living room after a long time. He looked at his brothers who were sitting on couches without doing anything. They seemed to be in their own worlds.

But as soon as he entered,their gazes shifted on him. He gulped hard seeing Yoongi's piercing glare. He looked down feeling sad.

"I'm sorry",he mumbled.

"Did you even know who you were talking to?",Yoongi asked with a calm yet terrifying voice.

"Hyung,that's enough",Jimin said to Yoongi not wanting to see any scene.

"No Jimin. He is right. It was my fault. I didn't know what I was doing. I insulted her",Jin mumbled still not meeting their gazes. "I deserved his punch"

Yoongi looked away clenching his fists.

"Is it true?you like Qin Xiu?",Taehyung asked curiously.

Jin nodded.

"So,I don't know why noona send him away. But I'm sure that she had reasons. She wouldn't do anything which could possibly hurt us",Hoseok said his honest opinion.

Jin nodded again. "She had reasons. I was a fool not to notice. I was blinded. I could have thought just like you"

"Hyung",It was Jungkook. He stood up and approached Jin. "It was normal to be blind when you like someone. You won't think rationally. You just did it out of pain. We didn't know that you liked him that much. We never saw it. We are sorry for that"

Jin looked at him slowly and smiled sadly. "You have grown up",he whispered with a breaking voice.

Jungkook smiled sadly before hugging him. "You raised me. So of course I am a grown man thanks to you",......"Sorry,we can't really help you. Noona knows better about this situation and she knows what is the best for you"

Jin nodded hugging him back. "I know. She knows what is the best for me"

They parted away. Jin looked at Yoongi who was looking away. He approached Yoongi and stood infront of him.

"Yoongiya, please forgive me. You can just hit me. Please don't stay mad at me"

Yoongi looked upto him with a glare. Jin gasped when Yoongi held him by his collar,ready to throw a punch.

"Hyung!!",the rest of the boys screamed.

Jin shut his eyes tightly being ready to feel the pain. But unexpectedly, he was engulfed in a hug. He opened his eyes to see Yoongi hugging him. Smiling widely,he hugged him back.

"Idiot",Yoongi mumbled receiving a giggle from Jin.

Jennie was watching everything from the kitchen area.

"Alright! Will you guys eat now? Your sister will kill me anytime if you stay like widows whose wives dropped dead"

Dongwook appeared from behind her with a tray of sandwiches. "Sandwiches from the new couple. Wanna taste?"

Yoongi gave a disgusted look to the couple.

"You guys eat. I need to see noona and apologiseー"

"No need",Igarashi stood at the door way leaning on the door frame with crossed arms. She had changed her cloths to a complete black business style outfits.

It was a bit contrasting to her fancy style. She rarely wore such outfits but when she wears them,she rocks it.

"I already forgave",she gave a small smile to Jin reassuring that she is fine.

Jin didn't waste any time before running to her and hugged her as tight as he could. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry noona. I didn't mean anything what I said. Not even a word. Please,forgive me"

Igarashi patted his back. "I told you. I forgave you"

Jin didn't let go of the hug. He stayed hugging her until his heavy heart feels at ease.

"Look,little bastard, you didn't hurt me. Now you are becoming the snotty kid here. I don't want your snotts to ruin my dress"

Jin smiled still not letting her go. His tears already ruined her dress but she didn't push him or did anything.

"I love you noona",he mumbled.

Igarashi blinked few times. She opened her mouth but she couldn't utter anything. It was really a hard thing to say. She loves them too. She hoped that they knew it. She only showed it through her actions but she didn't say it through words.

She hummed.

She determined to say it one day. She hoped that she will not be too late to it just like what happened with her mother.

Jin parted away.

She ruffled his hair. "Go and have breakfast"

She turned to Dongwook.

"Take them home. I have a business to attend"

Dongwook nodded with a stern look.

"Noona,aren't you gonna come with us?where are you going?" ,Jin panicked. The rest of the boys also panicked hearing her.

"Boys,she has something important to do. Don't worry",Dongwook tried to assure them.

"What is it?",Taehyung asked.

"You don't need to know. Go home",Igarashi said.

"Aren't you gonna eat?" ,Hoseok asked immediately.

"I will be eating outside. Don't worry little bastard",Igarashi looked at Dongwook. He nodded without saying anything.

With that Igarashi left.

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