Ex.chap 1

Before meeting her brothers, Igarashi stepped down from her position as the Empress and handed over the organisation to Levi who happened to be the next successor. She had no will to continue to live in that hellish yet memorable place.

Everything she had been dreaming are out of the wall gates of the fortress city. She had stayed too long in the sky.

Then she went to meet her brothers. She wanted to stop the time but it isn't that merciful. Time is cruel. Crueller than any other bloody monster. Time makes you a monster. Yet time has the power to heal the heart of a monster. Time is either a god or a devil. It's upto the user to decide how to deal with it.

When she met them,she revealed what happened to their mother. Everything.

Silence was the only thing she could get.

When she raised her head to see their expressions, she saw what she expected. Confusion. They were confused about what to feel. Should they hate or love her? What should they do? They were wavering in between these two strong emotions.

"But she didn't do it —",Dongwook tried his best to cover her up but she stopped him.

"Excuses won't mend what happened",she said.

Jimin was the first one to speak. "So,it was Lara's sister right? Y –You didn't do it. You didn't see it",He was desperately trying to find an excuse just like Dongwook.

Igarashi didn't utter a word. Even if she did see it,what could be the difference?

Namjoon decided to strike the final blow. "Would you have done the same if you were in the driving seat?"

Everyone held their breathing expecting a clear answer from her. They had high hopes. But they forgot that she was an assassin. She kills. She kills whoever comes in her way.

She looked at Namjoon. Her blank gaze said it all. Still,they needed to hear it from her. "I would. She wouldn't have survived even if I was in the driving seat"

This is not about right or wrong. This is not about the situation. It's about a mother. Their mother. The reason for her death. No one would see it in a clear consciousness. No one would understand it unless they lost their mother in a such way.

Jungkook looked down still in his turmoil state. He couldn't even spend more time with his mother. He was so little when she died and couldn't experience the love of a mother. He only had faded memories of her.

Looking at him,Igarashi couldn't bare the pain. He was the clingy lovely cute brother she had. She could say that he was the first one to open the lock of her heart. She couldn't forgive herself seeing his vulnerable state.

Not only him,the rest of the boys also lost their mother. Maybe she didn't do it. But it wouldn't have done any difference if she was the one to drive.

"You don't have to decide. I already decided. You can chose to hate me. I will disappear from your lives. To never return. Don't forgive me. I don't deserve it. But still I am sorry",she said her last words.

Even if they asked her to stay,things won't be the same. It will be too hard for them. They will be trapped in a maze of confusion. Things between them won't go back to the same way how they used to be. Awkwardness will be their barrier. Rather than putting them into that vulnerable state,she decided to leave. To give them their space. To collect their thoughts and hate her as much as they want.

Indeed,they needed time. Time to recover from the news. Their mother's death was tragedic. What is the justice for the crime? Who will pay for it? Krista? She is already dead. Levi? He is unreachable now. Igarashi? It's even harder now. To whom they should direct their hatred? Time is what they need. To heal.

And like that,they let Igarashi leave. They had no idea what happened like they were in a maze just as Igarashi expected.

But they didn't expect her to leave them without a trace. She disappeared with Yibo. To where? No one knew. Not even Dongwook. Her company was handed over to Dongwook but he insisted her to stay as the chairman. It was okay if she disappeared but her name should remain in the company. The founder of RED. It was her hard work.

Days after days,they couldn't even reach her in any way.

Boys had their time. And they all came to a one conclusion.

"We had lost our mother already. We can't undo it. But should we lose our sister too? I don't want to have any more regrets. She suffered. We suffered. Everyone did. We need to put a fullstop to this suffering. And it shouldn't be done by hatred. Because it will only rebound",Those were Yoongi's words. And the exact same thoughts everyone had.

But to their displeasure, they couldn't find her. They spent 7 years trying to find her but there was no hope.

But one day,Dongwook came with their lost hope.

He found her.

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