Louis wakes at exactly 12:03am it has happened on this day every single year since he was eight years old. The anniversary of his parents death always hits him hard, he's sweating and although he has a bad cold and a fever, he knows it's from the nightmare he just had. Every single year the same nightmare occurs.

Louis was in the car when he and his parents were hit head on by a drunk driver. His parents died instantly and so did the drunk driver. Louis though managed to escape the crash unscathed, slight cuts and bruises. He remembers it all vividly though and the feeling of being alone, the deathly silence straight after it all happened then his screams of terror at seeing all the blood and his parents.

The boys are always there for him and helped him through the first year of nightmares every single night. Now he only ever suffers them on this exact day every year. Usually Louis would rush to Harry's room but this year he doesn't want to, doesn't want to burden Harry or get too close to him.

Louis gets up and goes straight to Scott's room, it's dark and Scott is fast asleep. Louis walks over to Scott's side of the bed

"Scotty" he says, his voice choked, chest heaving from gasping for air.

Scott wakes instantly

"Lou, come here buddy it's okay" Scott says gently as he sits up.

Scott leans against the headboard in only his sweats and no shirt, he brings Louis over him so he's straddling him and cups the back of his head as he holds him close.

"Scott" Louis crumbles.

"It's okay kiddo I'm here, let go I've got you, I will always keep you safe" Scott says

And that's all it takes for Louis to let go, having Scott so close and his comforting smell helps Louis but he misses Harry's arms

"Shhhh it's all okay sweetheart" Scott reassures.

Drew, Edward and Harry all wake to the commotion and wander into Scott's room they were all expecting this but Harry was expecting Louis in his arms.

"Lou, kiddo it's all okay, just relax" Drew says as he sits next to Scott on the bed and rubs Louis back.

"It's all my fault" Louis hiccups.

"No angel"

"It's not your fault"

"It's all alright kiddo"

The boys chorus.

Louis is getting more and more upset though and won't settle down

"He's warm" Scott says to the boys.

"I'll go get him some medicine" Edward says

"Lou, sweetheart, we need you to ty and calm down okay. It's going to be alright, we're all here okay" Scott says reassuringly.

Louis is just so upset though and everything he's been dealing with has emotionally taken it's toll and he's just beside himself, the images of his parents keep replaying and it's just too much.

"Harry" Scott says desperately.

He's worried, Louis isn't calming down and they boys have always relied on Harry for that.

"He came to you Scotty, I don't think he wants me" Harry says defeated.

"I think he thinks you don't want him Haz" Drew says

"He needs you Haz" Scott says

Harry so desperately wanted to hear that and he approaches the bed

"Lou darling" Harry says gently.

Before he knows what's happening Louis is launching for him and the weight of the world seems to lift off his shoulders, having Louis in his arms and relying on him is everything.

"Ohhh darling, it's all okay now, I'm here just relax" Harry sooths

Louis slowly begins to calm down in Harry's arms and the boys are all relieved

Edward comes back into the room with medicine for Louis and they manage to get Louis to take it before he's completely out cold cuddled in Harry's arms.

"I'll take him to back to bed" Harry says

"You'll stay with him?" Drew asks

"Of course, I'll look after him" Harry says and the boys know it's true. They smile at Harry as he leaves the room.

Harry ends up taking Louis back to his own room, tucking him under the covers and holding on to him tightly as he falls back to sleep.

......

Louis wakes in Harry's arms, he feels sick with a sore throat and his side aches, he realises he's in Harry's room, in his arms and as much as he knows for his emotions and sanity that he needs to leave he doesn't want to. Harry's arms have always felt like home.

"Hey there sleepyhead" Harry says as he runs his fingers through Louis hair. Harry is spooning Louis from behind and Louis rolls over to look at Harry in the eyes

Louis eyes are still red rimmed and he looks sick but still the most beautiful thing Harry has ever seen. Harry smiles at Louis

"Morning" Louis croaks.

"It's actually afternoon darling, you've been asleep most of the day" Harry says casually.

"I'm sorry" Louis says as he goes to sit up

"Don't be, you're not well and you went through a lot last night" Harry says.

"I'm sorry it still happens" Louis says looking down at his hands.

"Don't you ever apologise for that Louis. You are never to apologise for how you feel. What you went through was traumatic and I'm sorry the boys and I can't take it away from you and fix it but you know we are here, that I'm here for you always" Harry says with conviction.

Tears build behind Louis eyes but he doesn't let them fall.

"I hate Jax" Louis says quietly and Harry can't help the small chuckle

"I hate Rhys" Harry says seriously

"Rhys isn't my boyfriend" Louis says

Harry really wants to tell louis that Jax isn't his boyfriend either, just his submissive, that there are no feelings involved.

"Listen Lou" Harry starts.

"I know Haz, it's okay I just don't want him to take you away from me, I don't want you to leave me" Louis says with Ernst

"Darling, never, I'm never going to leave you. Listen... there's some things I need to work through, some things I need some time to figure out, can you just give me some time. Please" Harry says

Louis looks at him and sees he is battling with something. Louis nods

"I just want you to be happy Harry and....it's okay if it's not with me" Louis says

Harry brings Louis in close and kisses his head.

"You are my happiness Louis" Harry says in a whisper Louis hardly hears it.

Scott, Drew and Edward then Knock on Harry's door interrupting their moment.

"Come in" Harry says and the boys enter,

"How you feeling kiddo?" Scott asks as they all sit around the bed.

"I'm okay, I'm sorry....again" Louis says sighing

"Lou, if we could take your pain away we would, don't ever apologise, please" Drew says sincerely

"We can't even begin to imagine what you went through bud" Edward

Louis sighs

"I don't understand why it happens at the exact time every year and why it's so vivid, the nightmare is literally like I'm there again. I can even smell the gasoline before the car exploded, I can still remember the fire fighters face when he pulled me from the car and I can still feel the heat of the explosion even though I was in the ambulance. It's so real" Louis says as he runs his hands over his face.

"Sweetheart I'm so sorry, if you need to speak to Kimberly again we can organise it" Edward says referring to Louis old psychologist he saw after the accident.

Louis shakes his head

"No, it's fine, I'm fine it only happens once a year I can learn to deal with it" Louis says

"You shouldn't have to learn to deal with it Lou" Scott says concerned

"I'm fine, I'm going to have a shower" Louis says as he climbs over the boys.

When he's climbing over Scott though Scott has hold of Louis around the chest helping him off the bed when Louis shirt rides up.

"Louis, what the hell" Scott asks as he grabs Louis and stops him from moving off the bed.

Louis tries to pull his shirt down over his side but it's too late, Scott holds him tightly and his whole side with the huge purple bruise on him is exposed.

"What happened Louis, Jesus" Drew asks as he makes his way over to Louis to get a better look.

"Nothing it's nothing" Louis says as he tries to wiggle free.

"Be still" Harry commands sternly and Louis instantly stills

"It's bad Lou" Scott says as he runs his hand over The bruise

Edward reaches out to check Louis temperature and he's still burning up.

"He still has a fever we need to get that checked" Edward says worriedly

"I'll call Sammy over, she can look take a look at it" Scott says

"No, it's fine honestly please let me up" Louis says squirming

Scott finally lets Louis up.

"How did this happen?" Harry asks

"I....it....I fell" Louis says

"Is this why you came home on Friday? That's why you've been sore" Edward says in realisation

"Did Noah do this to you" Drew asks and his voice is angry.

"No, Noah didn't touch me, I promise it wasn't him" Louis says panicked.

"But it was someone" Scott says

"Please leave it" Louis says desperately

"Louis, if someone has hurt you, you need to tell us" Edward says.

"I fell okay" Louis says and he leaves the room abruptly.

"I'm calling Sammy" Scott says

The boys agree and they go to change too, hoping Louis is okay and Sammy can get to the bottom of what happened.