*Rose POV*

“Ahh, finally we're home! Rose, let's go out tonight!” Yoonjeo ran into the house smiling while I just stood there in the doorway watching her.

I was almost jealous that she lost her memory….How come she gets to forget all the shit that happened and then be happy while I'm stuck here doing everything I can to stop myself from breaking down and crying.

How can she forget everything that happened…..with me, with Taehyung. Didn't she care about it enough to remember it!!?

“Rose, are you okay?” Her soft voice pulled me out of my thoughts and a tear rolled down my cheek as I looked up at her.

We stared at each other for a while as she tried to figure out what was wrong.

“It's nothing Unnie, nothing important.”

To you anyway….

To me...It changed my life…

“Come on, let's go get ready!” She said excitedly as she happily jumped up and down smiling.

Why...

Why is she so happy when I feel like I'm dying inside?

“What's wrong with you!!!?? Why are you always so happy and carefree?! You should go work or something, maybe then you wouldn't be such a screw up!!” I screamed the words in her face as she stared at me in shock. Her eyes started to collect tears as she looked down.

“R...Rose.. what's wrong?” She sat down on the ground as she started to cry.

“Now you're sad? I’m leaving.” I grabbed my bag and coat and left the house as she sat in the doorway crying.

I don't think I can do this...I can't live beside her when she's living a happy perfect life and I'm living a broken, depressed one.

I pulled my phone out and dialled Yoongi's number to which he picked up almost immediately.

“You must really miss me sweetheart.” I could hear him chuckle through the phone.

“I need you to pick me up.” I started wiping the tears away, I don't want him see me as weak. Although it doesn't matter, he's already seen my powerless side.

“I'm kind of in the middle of something.” I could hear others talking around him.

“No Yoongi, you can come in my house whenever you like and do whatever you want, so you're going to come now and help me for once.” I kept walking as I tried to see the footpath through my tear filled eyes.

Why am I like this? Why do I always have to bother someone. Why can't I just stop being...stop being someone that creates problems and needs help...

“I'll pick you up in two minutes.” I stopped as soon as I heard his voice.

He's actually coming…

I put the phone down and kneeled on the footpath as the tears started flowing more.

How am I supposed to do this? I lost Jungkook, my relationship with Yoonjeo will never be the same since I'll have to continually lie to her.

This isn't fair.

I didn't even notice people walking around me and giving me strange looks as I waited for Yoongi. I just knelt there crying, trying to hold my self together but failing.

“What's wrong Rose?” I looked up and saw Yoongi looking down at me with concern.

“I just...I needed someone, I'm hurting so bad right now.” I looked back down as I continued sobbing quietly.

I waited for Yoongi to say something but instead his arms wrapped around me and he picked me up bridal style.

“W..what are you doing?” I stared at him as he started walking to his car.

His face was strangely relaxed, even slightly worried for me. He looked at me and his eyes weren't as dark as they were everytime I saw him, they were lighter and showed care.

“Well, I can't leave you crying on the sidewalk by yourself and you did call me from something important so I might as well take you somewhere.” He opened the door to his black sports car and placed me on the seat gently.

I was shocked by his change of attitude. He was actually being caring..

“So, where are we going?” I put my seatbelt on as I turned and looked at him getting in the car and putting his own seatbelt on.

“To my apartment, unless you wanna do it in the car?” He looked at me and smirked.

My jaw dropped as I stared back at him.

“You.....you're always such a pervert, in that case go away, I don't want you.” I unbuckled my seat and started getting out.

“No, wait.” He leant over and grabbed the handle pulling the door closed.

He was so close to me I could smell him, he smelt amazing, like lemon and perfection, if that's even a flavor.

“I was joking, I'll buy you ice cream.” He grabbed the seat belt and buckled me up again, I just stared at him in surprise.

“Why are you buying me ice cream?” I still couldn't believe his attitude. It was a like a completely different person, a much nicer person.

“Isn't that what girls eat when their sad? I can get you cake instead if that's what you want.” He started the car up and pulled out the parking space driving fastly.

“No, Ice cream is good. Perfect actually.” I looked back out the window.

It felt so strange sitting next to him so casually like this, after everything we've gone through the air was thick with awkwardness and bad memories.

Although, I don't know if I can call last night a bad memory…

Oh way to go Rose, remember that stuff when you're in a car with him…

“Here we are.” He parked the car in front of the ice cream parlour and got out. I still couldn't believe I was doing this with him.

We started walking to the store and I gasped when he grabbed my hand and held it as we walked.

“What are you doing?” I stared at him as he pulled me faster to the shop.

“What does it look like? I'm holding your hand pabo.” We walked through the he big glass doors of the bright white store.

“Ah fuck, my eyes.” Yoongi shielded his face with the other hand and I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

“What, are you a vampire?” I walked up with him to the counter and started looking over the choices.

“No, I'm not. But they don't have to make this place so fucking bright, it's an ice cream shop not a damn showcase for a new phone.” He grabbed my hand tighter for some reason as a young clerk came to take our order.

The man smiled and winked at me and I felt Yoongi’s hand quickly leave my own as he snakes his arm around um waist pulling me closer to him.

I started blushing, I've never seen this side of Yoongi.

“Um, I'll have uh, two servings of double chocolate chip and one serving of cookies and cream.” I smiled and it was Yoongi's turn.

“Are you ordering for me or are you just a glutton?” He turned and looked down to my face while raising an eyebrow.

“Excuse me, I need to drown my sorrows in ice cream, you brought me here so you better get what I order or else you're eyes are gonna hurt a lot more than when we walked in the store.” I glared at him as he smirked.

“You know, when you get angry it makes me want to bend you over this counter and fuck you till you can't scream my name anymore.” He licked his lips and came closer to me.

“You already did that once, in case you forgot, except I wasn't screaming your name….I was screaming for you to stop.” I looked down sadly and hid my face as the memory came back. There was a deathly silence between us.

“Sir what will you be ordering?” The clerk thankfully cut through the silence and I looked up to him.

“Nothing.” Yoongi answered quietly and paid for my order.

We quickly got it then went to find a table to sit at. It was quiet, no one was saying anything and it was driving me crazy.

“Yoongi, you weren't by any chance jealous when that guy smiled at me we're you?” I asked in a playful tone to hopefully lighten the spirit.

“No, I just don't like people looking at what’s mine.” He cocked his head to the side and stared at me.

“Whatever, thank you for the icecream.” I avoided his gaze and dug into my dessert. I can't believe I bought three big cups, I mean Yoonjeo would eat this much but not me.

Yoonjeo…

I should've gone with her instead of Yoongi. We should’ve both had icecream instead of me leaving after yelling in her face.

What's the point though, she would just be talking about life and funny stuff, while I would sit there and be forced to listen to it without saying anything.

I didn't even notice the tears rolling down my cheeks or my spoon that I was still holding in mid air with ice cream melting off it until Yoongi shifted in his seat leaning closer to me.

“What is troubling you so much, is anything wrong? Are you in a bad spot financially?” His voice was soft and it was beautiful.

“No, I...didn't you hear? Yoonjeo lost her memory, she has no idea what's happened the past week. So I'm stuck with all this pain from you and Jungkook while she is happy and doesn't remember a single thing of it.” I put my spoon back in the Ice cream and started crying more.

“Did Taehyung know?” He came closer while putting a hand on mine.

“What do you mean 'did’ he know?” I stare back in his eyes as I wiped the tears away.

“He killed Jaebum, shot him right in the heart, but then one of Jaebum's men hit his car with a truck. He's in a coma Rose, severe head injuries and numerous broken bones, I was just at the hospital with him when you called.” Yoongi's voice was serious and I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

Taehyung killed Yoonjeo's brother, and now he's in a hospital and might die.

“I..I have to tell Yoonjeo..” I stood up and grabbed my bag.

“No, if what you said is true and she did lose her memory than we can't tell her, it's best that she not know anything.” Yoongi grabbed my arm stopping me from leaving.

I gabbed my head with my hand as I closed my eyes. This was too much, it was hurting so much. Everything was running through my brain.

“I need to go home, Yoongi please take me home.” I grabbed his arm this time and looked a him pleadingly. He nodded and started walking to the exit.

I followed him quietly and soon we were driving home in silence.

“Thank you for picking me up Yoongi and for buying me ice cream.” I looked at my hands as we sat in the parked car outside the house.

It was quiet and Yoongi was looking down while thinking.

“Rose, can I...can I kiss you?” He looked at me and my eyes widened in shock.

Why is he asking me this, he raped me for crying out loud, so why would he ever ask for permission to kiss me?

“Why..why are you a..asking?” I was afraid to say that, what if he agreed and forced me to do something again.

“I never got to properly do it, and I don't want you to be sad today.” Yoongi’s soft voice was filled with concern and tears came to my eyes, waiting to fall slowly.

“Okay.” Was all I said as I turned toward him slightly.

His hand came up as he gently held my neck, and then his lips were on mine. Kissing me softly as the tears finally rolled down my face.

A part of my body responded to him but another part held back in fear of what he can and already had done to me.

“Thank you, be careful Rose.” He pulled back and wiped the tears from my eyes.

I didn't say anything but just got out the car and watched as he drove away.

I turned and slowly started walking up the stairs, I knew Yoonjeo was waiting for me and I would have to explain why I ran out.

I just hope I don't slip and say something about Taehyung.

I can't let her relive that experience again.

I can't let her be hurt...