3rd Person's POV:

~Merry Christmas~

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⚠️Warning: Mention of Self-harm⚠️

After two hours of talking about their lifes, they knew they should get going.
San and Wooyoung followed Julia and Chan to their car, because the female told them to and they didn't argue.

While San and Chan were walking in front of them, Wooyoung and Julia slowly followed them and talked about some personal things.

"Did it get worse? I mean your mental health?", Wooyoung hesitantly asked, looking at the ground.

He still couldn't help but blame himself for everything that has happened after he left.

"After you left it did get worse, but Chan helped me a lot", Julia explained and smiled to herself as she thought about the daily texts Chan used to write.

"Did you.....cut yourself?", Wooyoung asked carefully, not wanting to step over a personal line.

Julias little smile faded and she suddenly started to feel regretful for everything she had done to herself.
At least in some way.

Julia still thinks that she deserved everything she has been through.

But that was just one part of her, the other one wanted help.

"Can I see your arm?", Wooyoung asked softly as he noticed the pain in her eyes.

Julia looked up surprised and hesitated for a second before she agreed. Both of them stopped walking and she slowly lifted her sleeve revealing hundreds of almost faded scars, some of them even looked quite new.

She knew that Wooyoung would notice that they were new, but she wanted that in some way. Maybe it was time to finally and fully except help.

"You didn't stop, didn't you?", Wooyoung asked hurt scanning all those cuts she had on that one arm. He knew those weren't the only ones, because her favorite place to cut herself were her thighs.

And Wooyoung had to find that out the hard way, as she passed out in the bathroom from exhaustion.

Chan somehow felt that Wooyoung and Julia stopped walking, so he turned around just to see something that made his heart ache more than ever.

Chan didn't expect to see the younger one doing this, that's why he was so shocked at first.

He teared up and it was like his feet moved on their own as he walked up to the two of them and gently grabbed his girlfriend's arm.

Her eyes widened as Chan's hand came in touch with her arm, because she actually didn't want Chan to see that.

"When was the last time you cut yourself? Please answer truthfully", Chan begged, wiping the tears on her arm away that feel from his eyes.

"I think about two weeks ago", she replied honestly, but it wasn't more than a weak whisper.

Still loud enough for Chan and Wooyoung to hear.

"Why didn't you tell me? I thought you wanted me to help you? Why didn't you.......did I do something wrong?", Chan asked completely overwhelmed with guilt.

"No! Chan don't think that! I-.....I just couldn't handle it anymore and didn't want to bother you", Julia sighed, regretting her decision.

"What- Oh come on Julia! Don't you see that I care for you and no matter what happens, I will always be there for you! I love you, okay? But the only thing you're doing is pushing me away!", he raised his voice, letting all the negative feelings out that he was hiding these past few months.

Julia knew he was just hurt, but she still teared up as Chan raised his voice.

"He's right Lia. I know you don't open up to other people but Chan can really help you", Wooyoung rubbed her back calmly.

"And for you mister, don't raise your voice at her. She's very sensitive and her past trauma isn't helping", Wooyoung scolded.

"I-I'm so sorry Ju", Chan's eyes softened as he saw Julia holding back her tears and he pulled her into a soft, warm and comfortable hug.

"I should be the one saying sorry. I never thought about how you might feel. I promise I will open up more and ask for your advice and help. A-And I love you too", she admitted and blushed like crazy.

This was the first time they said those three words to each other and that meant a lot.

A wave of warmth and happiness washed over Chan causing him to smile widely.

San cleared his throat, making everyone look at him: "I don't want to crash this beautiful moment, but I feel like a third wheel. And we have practice in just about 20 minutes"

"Oh right. Sorry, let's go!", Julia sniffed, before rushing to the car....

(A/n: switch the song for a better mood)

Before San and Wooyoung left, Julia gave them all of the presents Chan and her made yesterday and hugged them goodbye.

The two lovebirds then drove back to Julia's house, to get the cookies and cakes, before they went to the practise room, were the other members were waiting.

Julia prepared everything, so they could all happily eat the cookies and cakes Felix and her had baked, while some staff came to do the boy's make up.

And while Julia started to eat one or the cookies, the boys recorded videos for Stays in English and in Japanese.

As Chan started to talk in Japanese, Julia just looked at him in shock and it was hard for Chan to hold back his laughter.

Well sometimes Julia forgot that her boyfriend could speak more than just 2 languages.

Jisung was the first one who finished everything and basically jumped onto the cheesecake making everyone laugh.

Since the other 7 members weren't finished till then, Jisung and Julia started talking.

"How's it going? With Chan you know", Jisung asked, trying to start a simple conversation that was rather awkward.

"Really good actually. It's just......", she sighed, "I don't open up to people about my feelings often. Especially not to people who are involved or even causing them"

"And how does that effect your relationship with Chan?", Jisung asked slightly confused, putting a another slice of cheesecake in his mouth.

"Chan knows how I feel, he's always there for me, offering me comfort and advice. But I always push him away and that makes him feel like he's-"

"Not good enough", Jisung cut her off, knowing that his Hyung always puts the blame on him.

"But he is more than good enough. He is too good...I don't deserve him", Julia whispered the last part.

"Don't say that, Ju. You deserved him as much as he deserves you. Just let him be there for you. You won't burden him. He is just like you in such situations. It helps him and makes him happy if he's able to help you or even just make you feel better", Jisung explained.

"Really?", Julia asked a little unsure.

"Jisung I want cheescake as well!", Felix reminded, while giggling and sitting next to the squirrel boy.

"My cheesecake", Jisung pouted and gave Felix a death stare.

"If I were you, brownie boy, I would stick to your brownies. Jisung won't share", Minho reminded as he sat next to them.

Shortly after that Mia, Hayley and Areum arrived. Everyone sat on the floor and ate as much as they could.

But it was still not everything, so they shared it with the staff.

Felix and Julia recieved a lot of compliments for their baking skills, which made them both really proud.

It just proved that they were a perfect team.

After eating they hung up some christmas decoration and the staff started preparing the cameras for the short Christmas video.

The members all loved the presents they received and the girls were surprised that the members all bought them something.

Chan's present for Julia was one of his hoodies, a cute bracelet and some printed selfies from each member, especially from himself.

Chan knew how often Julia complained about him never posting, so he thought it would be a good idea to give her these selfies.

Julia's present for Chan was a little self-made book with compliments, memes from stay, old texts, memories, pictures and some thoughts written or glued in it.

It took her a lot of time and effort, all of the pages were decorated and made with love.

This was the best present Chan ever got from anyone and he was so happy and grateful for it.

So was Julia, especially hoodie made her happy.

They all eventually went home after cleaning up and Chan, Jisung and Felix decided to stay at the girl's house.

Just a normal sleep over

At least that's what they thought....

~☆~

Okay so, hi.

I'm not happy with this Chapter.
Again.

So the next chapter is going to be a bit more interesting, trust me.

Btw for every Felix stan, I'm writing a new ff:

If you're interested, go read it 😊

Bye bye :D