3rd Person's POV:

~he felt safe~

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(⚠️Warning: mention of self harm and mental health problems⚠️)

After literally hours of baking, Felix and Ju were finally finished.
But they might had a little food and water fight, while listening to all different kind of kpop songs, especially this:

At least they cleaned up really well, so that the kitchen was completely clean.
And the best thing were the cakes, cookies and brownies they made:

(Now I am flippin hungry :') oi)

They had a really fun, but exhausting day. And now both of them were sitting on the couch searching for a good K-drama on Netflix.

"Do you think Chan would mind if we cuddle? Because I know that Mia doesn't", Felix asked, wrapping a blanket around himself.

Ju was a bit surprised about Felix question and wasn't quite sure about it. Chan could get jealous, like Felix said earlier but first of all Chan and Felix are friends;

he knows Felix would never steal his girlfriend, especially because Felix also has a one.

And second of all, he knows that Ju is loyal and would never cheat.
Plus everyone can cuddle.

"I guess it's okay", she then answered, earning a heart-warming smile from the younger boy.

She carefully pulled him into her embrace, while she started the K-drama and got comfortable.

The reason why Felix was in her arms and not the other way around was that Ju was like a mother to Felix.
Or like a bigger sister.
Even though they didn't have that much of an age gap, she was way more mature.

"I'll quickly text Chan, that he can pick me up in an hour", Felix whispered before doing what he said:

chan|felix

Messager:

Me:
Hey Chan-hyungie, just
wanted to ask if you could
pick me up in an hour?

Chan hyung:
Of course!
Are you finished?

Me:
Yeah, we decided to
watch a kdrama

And I hope it's okay that
we are cuddling...

Chan hyung:
Cuddling?

Me:
But seriously just as
friends, Chan-hyung!

I promise

Chan hyung:
I know I know

I guess you're her best
friend

Me:
I guess so :D

And you're really okay
with that?

Chan hyung:
Yes. I trust you two.

But don't make her feel
uncomfortable okay?

Me:
Yes! See you in an hour!

Chan hyung:
Bye !

After Felix went offline, he put his phone away smiling at the screen.
He was happy, he didn't upset Chan in any way his hyung even allowed him to cuddle with Ju.

Even if it wasn't quite obvious, but Ju texted Felix, Jeongin and Hyunjin the most after she found out about their identities.

And she was, even before she found out about that, really close to Felix.
She was the one person he would text whenever he felt anxious or sad.

Ju was always there, but not only for him.

For everyone......

But herself.

She was so focused on everyone else that she forgot herself. But Chan reminded her of her worth. That's what he tried to do so desperately.

Something that always fascinated Felix, was that Chan and Ju were pretty much the same person.
Both care for everyone else, want them to love themselves, want everyone to receive love and to be truly happy.

They give really good advice and carefully listen to other people's problems.
But they forget themselves.

"They deserve each other"

And

"Soulmates"

were two really common thoughts when anyone saw them.
And the members were really happy that their leader finally found someone who takes care of him.

Someone who will remind him when he needs to sleep, to eat or to rest.

And that someone was Julia.
She tried to take good care of him, especially while she's in Seoul, closer to him than she has ever been.

And from other people's point of view they seemed to be the dream couple, the most happiest people without any serious problems.

But something nobody knew, was with what Chan and Ju struggle.

Chan still felt like he isn't enough, even after everything he had accomplished and after all these years.

And he was also worried about Julia. The only thing he knows about her past, was that she has been through too much for her age.

And he was right with that.

Julia never was the type to open up about her problems and feelings.
Especially after the only person she ever truly trusted left her.

Wooyoung.

Wooyoung was the only one who knew pretty much everything about her.
Just not what happened after he left.

But there wasn't even one day, were he didn't stalk her on social media to see what happened to her, or how she was.

Wooyoung knew that he broke her.
And that worried him a lot.
He was scared that she might started cutting herself again, which she did.

He had this pressing feelings of guilt and made a promise to himself.
Once he has her back, he'll not let her go again. No matter what happens.

He knew that Josh was somewhere out there because the Police couldn't find any proof for what he had done to Ju.

Plus it happened in Germany and not Korea, so nothing the Korean police could proof. Even if they wanted to.

Ju was constantly fighting against her own thoughts and feelings.
And the nightmares were only making it worse.

She started having nightmares after the Josh thing, but they stopped after Chan and her got closer.

Chan was like her safe place, her comfort zone. Someone she was able to trust.

The problem was that after Ju met San, and the Wooyoung topic came up, they started again and she thought telling Chan would burden him in some way.

So she kept quiet.

Her anxiety and depression couldn't be worse.
But she still pretended to be completely happy and living her life without any worries.

That was one thing she was really good at, lying about her feelings.
But only as long as that person doesn't ask multiply times, while looking straight into her eyes.

Because she's a really bad liar.

The soft snoring from the girl holding Felix in her arms, caught his attention.
He giggled.

"Not even five minutes and you're already asleep", he whispered, smiling at her, before looking back at the TV.

It didn't take long for Felix to fall asleep as well. He felt safe in her arms.
Something he rarely experienced after he became an idol.

Felix is a person who cares about the opinion of other humans.
Even from haters.

He gets hurt easily and hates to show that.

But the support of Stays always made him happy. You make Straykids stay, has a really deep meaning for Felix.

Because without the support and kind comments from their Fans, the members and the girls, Felix would be destroyed in many ways.

Felix thought that he could never give Mia back what she gave him. Hope, confidence, self-love, especially a different perspective of himself.

Felix was hesitant about the dating thing for a long time, because he couldn't bare losing Mia's and his friendship.

Mia was his light, another strong reason to continue living.

And he couldn't be more thankful for that....

~☆~