Chan's POV:

~song~

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I never thought that one day I would be cuddling with my girlfriend in one of the bunk beds.

My girlfriend who traveled all the way from Germany to Korea, to surprise me.

I couldn't believe it.

But there I was; holding the love of my life in my arms while listening to her steady and calm breathing.

She fell asleep about 2 hours ago, but I couldn't get myself to wake her up, because she looked so peaceful and cute.

On one side I felt like a little kid, I was so excited and happy to finally found someone who loves me for who I am.

But on the other side I felt like a creep, because I was staring at her for the past two hours, thinking about all the things we did together.

If I only knew that she was coming here, I would've asked her to be my girlfriend in person and not over the mobile phone.

But things are like they are and I can't change the past, only the future.

Suddenly Jeongin came into the room: "Hey Chan could-"

"Shhhhhhh", I tried to "shush" him pointing to Julia.
I looked at her, expecting a little movement, but luckily she was still sleeping.

"Oh", he stepped closer and climbed up to us. As he saw Ju sleeping in my arms, he smiled widely.

I didn't noticed that I was staring at her again, until Jeongin whispered: "You really love noona, don't you?"

I was surprised by the sudden question and became a little shy.

"Yes, I do", I admitted, not being ashamed of that.

"I think you finally found the love of your life"

"What makes you think that?", I asked curious.

"It's not only a one-sided thing. You can clearly see that she's not using you for your money or the fame.
She travelled all the way from Germany to Seoul and taught Hayley and Mia Korean for hours"

"Sometimes she called me at 11 am, which is 3 am at hers and asked me about the Korean grammar", Jeongin explained and chuckled.

I widened my eyes. I knew that she was working hard, but not that she didn't get enough sleep.
I felt responsible for her not getting enough sleep and probably even skipping meals.

"Chan, don't ever think that noona doesn't love you, because she does. No one would do something like that, if they only use you. No one. And you can be sure, that she loves your personality and not your fame"

I know he was right but I never saw it from that point of view.
I felt the urge to say something, but my head couldn't form a proper sentence.

I was speechless and it was frustrating.

"I just wanted to ask if you could help us to stop Hayley from tearing down our curtain", Jeongin laughed, a bit too loud.

Julia started to move in my arms, groaned slightly and blinked a few times before opening her eyes completely.

"Chan?", she asked cutely as she looked into my face with her sleepy eyes. I couldn't help but smile.

Then we both sat up and I jumped off the bed.

"Need some help?", I asked as I saw Ju trying to get out of the bed.
She nodded before I opened my arms and symbolized her to jump.

She hesitated at first but then she jumped and I caught her, before I carefully placed her back on the ground.

"Will you help us now?", Jeongin asked who was still in the room.

"With what?", Ju asked confused.

"Hayley wants to tear down our curtain", I chuckled.

"The blue thing? Imma help", she said before starting to run. I stood there surprised for a moment before running after her. As she ran into the wrong room I laughed loud and 2 seconds later she ran out again cursing to herself.

This time I was faster and caught her. I then lifted her up and carried her in bridal style.

"Chan don't- I'm heavy", she said worried, making my heart ache. It made me angry hearing her talk about herself like that.

I wasn't mad at her, just at the people who made her feel like that.
Because she is definitely not overweight, but others made her believe that.

Something like that is so dangerous, it can cause serious eating disorders and mental health issues.

I placed her down again and turning her around, to make her face me.

"Hey, I don't want you to talk bad about yourself okay? You are far away from being heavy! Don't let people tell you otherwise, they just want to make you feel insecure!"

"Some might even want to make you starve yourself!", I almost shouted, regretting my tone in an instant.
I looked at her trying to read her emotions from her eyes, which were filled with tears now.

My heart shattered.

"Sorry", she mumbled, looking down.

"I-I should be the one saying sorry, I didn't wanted to make you feel bad. I'm just worried", I pulled her into a hug and felt guilty for what I just had done.

She was crying because of me.

"I'm so sorry, please forgive me", I whispered.

"You were just saying the truth", she admitted and let go of me.
Then she chuckled: ,,Sorry for overreacting. Let's help Hayley with the curtains now"

I gave her a serious look.

"I mean stop her", she corrected herself smiling widely.
I laughed before I took her hand and walked to our kitchen to see Jisung holding Hayley in his arms.

"You won't tear down that curtain, baby", Jisung whispered into her ear, smirking at himself.

"Pet names already?", Julia asked amused, making Hayley blush.

"Maybe?", Jisung laughed.

"Why does everyone want to tear down that curtain?", I asked staring at it.

"It looks horrible", Hayley giggled.

"Come on it isn't so bad", Jisung said.

"It is even worse", Ju joked....

꧁Magical time skip, because the author is lazy and doesn't know what do write anymore꧂

After a few hours Julia and I ended up driving to my studio, Mia and Felix were cuddling on the couch in the girl's house and Hayley and Jisung were in the practise room and danced.

As I told Ju that we were going to the studio, she got nervous and looked like a excited, little child.

And she was even more amazed as we got there.
We entered the room, where I always make my "chan's room's" in.
Her eyes widened.

"It looks way different from this side", she whisper and walked around a bit.
I sat down in front of my Laptop, but watched her a bit.

The whole time, I felt so thankful for her. It sounds crazy, but I haven't felt so lucky in years. It felt like I finally found my safe place.

My sense of living, besides Stray kids.
I wanted to protect her with my whole life and be there for her, no matter what happens.

"Is that your laptop?", she asked shocked pointing at it. I nodded.

"Can I touch it? Wait- that sounds wrong", she realised and buried her now red face into her hands.

I laughed.

"Come on, sit down", I offered politely and pointed to the empty chair next to me.
She sat down and I opened my laptop, logging in. I wasn't scared to tell her my password since I trusted her.

"Which program do you use for producing the songs?", she asked curious and watched every of my movements.

"This one", I answered and opened it.
There was already a beat and a little melody I worked on yesterday, but I wasn't really satisfied with it.

"I don't really liked how it turned out, but I don't know what do change", I admitted.

"Can I listen?", she asked.
I hesitated for a moment, but I still played it.

Ju listened to it and looked like she was highly focused. I watched her with mixed feelings, because she was my girlfriend and I didn't wanted to disappoint her.

After the music stopped playing she stared at the screen and I got nervous.

"It isn't bad, that's for sure. But......may I?", she asked and I knew what she meant. She wanted to change some things.

"You know how that works?", I asked surprised.
She just laughed and started editing the beat.

"I just feel like this special Chan touch is missing", she mumbled.

"Let's add some notes here.......pitch this.....put a harder beat here..."
That went on for about 10 minutes and I watched every of her movements carefully, just like she did.

She was amazing.

"Here you go", she said leaning back a bit and started to play the track.
I listened to it, amazed by every note, beat or effect she had added.

She seemed a bit nervous, but for no reasons. That what she had just created was a masterpiece and I was completely shooked by her talent.

"Wow", was the only thing I managed to get out of my mouth.

"Good or bad?", she hesitated.

"Good as in brilliant! Wow! Ju I never knew you were so talented!", I spoke up.

"Says the man who produces, sings, dances, raps and takes care of 7 children", she chuckled.

The compliments she gave me, caused a wave of warm and sweet emotions to wash over me and basically drown me in them.

"And who loves his girlfriend", I added smiling confidently.
She just laughed and blushed at my comment: "By the way do you have any lyrics for this?......"

~☆~

Hahaha guys I'm soooooo sorry for this piece of trash :")

The last few chapters were sooo shitty :(

I'll try to make the next ones better, but I don't know when I will be able to write again. I have a lot of school stress and I don't know how to relieve it.

Schools starts in 11 minutes again T_T

Btw thank you soooo much for 1.01K