[ hoseok's point of view ]

"hobi hyung? why do you look so sad?" jimin questioned as he sat down in front of me. i looked down on the floor.

"nothing, just tired." i mumbled softly as i brought my knees closer to my chest, and bury my face into my knees.

"tired? i don't believe that. you definitely have a problem," his soft voice soothed me. i lifted up my head and looked at him. unknowningly, tears cascaded down my face.

"hyung!" jimin exclaimed as he saw the state that i was in.

"j-jimin," i managed to choke out, "i'm feeling so hurt now."

my heart feels so empty too. somehow without talking to her, it feels like some part of my life was empty. it was like she was someone that filled in my life. it was like she was a crayon that coloured my monochrome life. even though i know that an idol like myself shouldn't date, but my feelings can't help but to develop for her. even though she was vulgar, i didn't mind. instead, i find it cute whenever she curses.

"hyung, mind telling me what happened?" jimin mumered as he enveloped me into a hug while the tears kept on falling non-stop, like a rain. now understand why rain was the bravest thing god ever created.

it's because it isn't afraid to fall.

"s-so, i accidentally send a wrong snap to this random girl, but she send me back a picture of a dick, so i assumed that she was a guy. and then we started talking, i realized that we have a lot of common interest. and t-then, i thought i was going gay because i was kinda falling for her but i thought that she was a guy. it turned out that she was the girl from yesterday who were in the sauna with u-us."

jimin's jaw dropped from my confession. "t-that's her?"

i bobbed my head.

"and then?" jimin hummed, urging me to continue. i took a deep breath before continuing.

"so i said that i found out that she was that guy and i felt like i was fooled along with my feelings. so i told her that it's best if the both of us don't talk to each other now,"

jimin hissed. "so you are hurt now? because you are not talking to her and you feel cheated?"

i nodded my head.

"if you are hurting yourself, then you should go talk to her! then you won't be hurt anymore, hyung."

•••

thousands of fan swarm all over the place. it was quite a chaos, but it was a normal sight for us.

"oppa! saranghae!"

"oppa! marry me!"

i just smiled at the fans as we walked into the fansign area, which was gwangju, my hometown.

we greeted the fans as we sat down on the respective seats. i was the last one, with namjoon first, sitting next to him was seokjin hyung after that taehyung and jungkook, lastly yoongi and jimin. basically, all the couples sat together. what a risk, i know. but they chose the seats so i have no more choice but to take the last seat.

the cons of being of having odd number members.

soon, the fans started queuing and a petite girl with shades on, wearing a black hoodie and skinny jeans stood in front of me.

"annyeong!" i greeted as i waved my hand at her. she smiled back at me and her smile was beautiful. i wondered how does she look like.

"oppa, i have a question. can you answer it?" she croaked out. i nodded as i patiently waited for her to give her question.

"how does being in love feels like?"

i didn't think twice to answer. "being in love feels like you want to see the person everyday, everything they do is perfect. regardless of how the two of you met, someday both of you will have a perfect ending. you can't bear to ignore the person because you yourself will feel hurt for neglecting the person. i'm not giving the perfect answer, but you need to experience it yourself to understand the feeling."

she slowly took off her shades and i was left appalled.

"thank you for your answer, oppa." she smiled.

it was her.

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asdfghjkl school is stARTING TOMORROW OMG WHY

so yeah when school starts, my updates won't be daily anymore. but i will still find time to write, and update as often as i can c:

i hATE LIFEU OMG I STILL HAVE LIKE 2929387376363 FANFICS LEFT TO READ AND SCHOOL IS STARTING SOON ;-;