Chapter 9 is here! :D poor Usagi and Misaki can't seem to get a break~ I don't own Junjou Romantica Nya but I do wind this fanfic Nya so hope ya enjoy~

Misaki POV

I was helpless in helping Usagi, I couldn't do a thing. I felt like I was useless and lost. I watched Usagi as he painfully coughed, I could feel tears threatening to fall.

No

I've got to stay brave for Usagi..

If he sees me crying..

It'll only make him upset and blame himself..even though he's blameless

Everything is my fault

I rubbed my hand in circles on his back, it was the only thing I could think of doing. I could feel the effort it took Usagi to cough, he saw in so much pain.

I can't help..

I wish this was all a bad dream..

Usagi coughed for around ten minutes then, I felt his body relax as I was patting him and Usagi slumped forward, I coughs him in my arms.

You should be in a hospital..

But I know you would be happier being at home..

I can't be selfish..

I will make sure you're the happiest person in the world Usagi..

I checked Usagi's pulse timidly and sighed with relief, he had just passed out from the exhaustion from coughing so fiercely for so long. I lifted Usagi over my shoulder with great effort, I carried, half dragged him over to the red sofa, there was no way I could safely carry Usagi upstairs.

I looked at Usagi's sleeping face, it looked so peaceful, even though he was in so much pain. I couldn't stand Usagi being so hurt, but of course the only thing I could do was stay at his side.

I went and grabbed a blanket from our room the draped it over Usagi, not wanting him to get a chill as he slept. I smiled at his sleeping face sadly then went to my room to get changed out of my dirty clothes. Afterwards I examined the messy bandaging Usagi did to my arm, it looked hilarious. I didn't think anyone could have been capable of such bad bandaging skills, I sighed at unwrapped my arm.

The cut stretched up from the edge of the my back hand to by elbow, it was a thin line and was only half a centimetre deep I was thankful that I got away with such and mild injury. I applied disinfectant to my cut, causing my to wince slightly before I bandaged my arm neatly. Afterwards I returned downstairs to see Usagi sitting up on the sofa, the sight of him awake made happiness overflow within me. I quickly ran to his side.

"Usagi you feeling better?"

I asked cautiously, doing my best to just show a little casual worry instead of the unease that was swirling within me.

Usagi looked at me, his lavender eyes seemed a little foggy, I stepped closer to him.

"Usagi?"

He glanced at me in surprise.

"Ah sorry Misaki I was thinking about something, what did you say"

Usagi..

Are you as worried about yourself as I am about you?

I want to wash away your unease and pain..

I want to but..

I don't know how..

I smiled at Usagi.

"I just asked if you were okay, so are you?"

I leaned close to Usagi and examined his expression closely, looking for any signs of pain. Usagi opened his mouth cautiously to respond.

"I.... Don't know how I feel.. I just have this numb feeling inside of my body.."

His voice was void of emotion, I looked at him shocked that he actually told me he was suffering.

If he's admitting this much..

Then the truth is that he actually feels a lot worse than that..

Usagi.. I'm sorry..

I wasn't going to force you to the hospital but now..

I am..

"Usagi... You're going to the hospital..Now"

My voice was firm, making Usagi look at me with surprise, he shook his head, his lavender eyes were filled with sadness.

"I don't want to.."

He sounded like a little kid, this made me angry. Usagi was dying and in pain and he refused to go to the hospital where his pain would lesson. I balled my hands into fists, I glared at Usagi.

"We're heading to the hospital, I will not let you disagree. I hate seeing you in so much pain!"

I yelled at him sadly. I felt bad about guilting him to go to the hospital but I knew there was no other way. I looked into Usagi's eyes, they were filled with sadness. He nodded slowly and got up to get his coat and shoes.

I'm sorry Usagi..

I love you..

So I have to hurt you for your sake...

Please forgive me..

When me and Usagi were ready we drove over to the hospital silently, not one of us daring to say a word.

Usagi POV

The fierce coughing was exhausting, I couldn't move, it was like I was paralyzed in pain. Each bout of coughing brought up extreme waves of pain to resonate within my chest. I was so glad that Misaki was by my side.

Misaki...

You're so precious you care so much, even though you're in so much emotional pain.

I may be in pain, but you're so sensitive and precious to me

You're like my guardian angel

Always, always worrying for me..

Misaki's hand rubbing on my back felt so soothing for me, even though the coughing took so much energy and caused me so much pain.

I'm sorry for causing you worry Misaki...

I coughed for around ten minutes with Misaki by my side, I felt my strength fading and my vision was faltering, I didn't resist the temptation to close my eyes. I knew I would be fine, Misaki was with me.

I saw my Misaki was crying, I went towards him so I could comfort him but I just went through him when I went to touch him.

"Usagi... Usagi... How could you... Leave me... All alone... Why?!.... I love you yet.."

Misaki was sobbing as he knelt beside a grave, my heart dropped instantly when I read the name on it 'Usami Akihiko' I was helpless to sooth my beloved Misaki, I could only stand there and watch him cry his heart out.

I felt like a knife had been slowly pushed into my chest

How could I let Misaki suffer?!

It's so cruel...

The kindest person in the world has to suffer so much..

This just isn't fair..

My poor dear sweet Misaki will be all alone..

I don't want him to be.. It's not .. Misaki doesn't deserve this.. Not at all.. He deserves to be blessed with happiness.. Not cursed with sadness..

Oh Misaki..

"Usagi.. Can I join you?"

Misaki's words made my blood run cold, he was smiling sadly towards my grave and had picked up a shard of glass that was probably from a old broken bottle.

Misaki no! Please don't!

I saw Misaki's arm holding the piece of glass go speeding towards his chest.

MISAKI!

I opened my eyes and saw that I was in the sofa, I breathed a sigh of total relief.

It was just a dream..

Misaki's safe..

Oh thank god it was a dream..

I sat up on the sofa, I noticed that Misaki had place a blanket over me.

He's so..

Kind..

I heard Misaki come down the stairs then he ran to my side.

"Usagi you feeling better?"

I heard Misaki ask, I looked at my dear Misaki.

He's alive and well

My Misaki is perfectly fine

There's no need to be anxious..

He wouldn't really do something like that..

Would he?

"Usagi?"

I glanced up at Misaki surprised, I had forgotten he was next to me as I thought.

"Ah sorry Misaki I was thinking about something, what did you say"

Misaki smiled at me sadly.

"I just asked if you were okay, so are you?"

He had leaned close to me, as if he was searching for any traces of me lying

I should tell him how I feel.. Even though it might make him upset..

I opened my mouth cautiously as I though about how I was going to respond.

"I.... Don't know how I feel.. I just have this numb feeling inside of my body.."

It was true, I couldn't feel anything except for pain.. I didn't mention the pain part because I didn't want Misaki to freak out. However Misaki looked at me, his emerald eyes were wide with shock and his mouth was open.

Misaki?...

Maybe I shouldn't have told him...

"Usagi... You're going to the hospital..Now"

Misaki's voice was firm and demanding, telling me by surprise, I got over it quickly and shook my head I looked up into Misaki's emerald eyes that were brimming with worry.

I don't want to leave you..

I want to be by your side

I want you by my side...

I'm sorry Misaki for being selfish

"I don't want to.."

I noticed Misaki tense at my words, he balled his hands into fists and glared at me, fury was sparking inside of his emerald eyes. I've never seen Misaki so angry at me before, it sort of scared me.

"We're heading to the hospital, I will not let you disagree. I hate seeing you in so much pain!"

Misaki yelled, his voice was filled with so much anguish that I couldn't stare it.

I'm sorry Misaki..

I'm the worst

Hurting you so much..

I sadly got up and put on my coat and shoes, Misaki did the same.

I can't believe how awful I am..

How can I keep hurting the one I love?!

When me and Misaki were ready, I drove over to the hospital slowly, regretting how much I've been hurting Misaki. I didn't dare speak during the ride.

Me: yay chapter 9 is done!

Misaki: Usagi...

Usagi: sorry..,

Me: stop being gloomy~ you're together right now~

Usagi...

Misaki....

Me: >^> *takes Misaki from usagi* if you're so sad I guess I'll take him~

Usagi: >.> *takes Misaki back* mine! How many times do I have to say he belongs to me!

Misaki: *blush* I'm not an object.. I've said this a few times..

Me: :3 well hope ya enjoyed the chapter~