Chapter 3 is here~ I don't own Junjou Romantica~ not one bit but I own this fanfic for sure!

Misaki POV

I was eavesdropping, I had placed my head on the door trying to make out what they were saying. Their words were muffled so I leaned fully on the door.

Usagi's awake!

He's okay!

I heard footsteps come towards the door and the handle turning. The door was opened by the doctor and I fell into the room.

Usagi chuckled, his lavender eyes filled with amusement.. And something else.

I hopped over to Usagi, eager to be near him.

"Usagi, you had me worried sick!"

Literally..

Usagi smiled at me kindly, something seemed off about the way he was acting.

"Usagi, you are okay right?"

I could feel unease starting to envelope me.

"Yeah, it was just due to stress, a slight fever, overwork and not eating for a few days"

I felt my knees weaken from relief, I sank down to the floor with a relieved sigh.

Thank god you're okay, I guess it was just nothing to worry about.

I smiled at Usagi.

"Want to go home now?"

Usagi didn't respond, he avoided eye contact. The doctor coughed to get our attention.

"Takahashi-kun it's true that the reason Usami-San came to the hospital was minor... However-"

"However what?!"

I cut the doctor off, something didn't seem right with the way Usagi was acting, I could tell something was definitely wrong.

Please let it be that he just needs to rest

"Takahashi-kun... When we examined Usami-San we found something unexpected.. We found that lung cancer has appeared inside of Usami-San"

I couldn't believe the words that I heard.

Usagi has lung cancer...

Is it from him smoking too much?

I'm sorry Usagi.. I should have stopped you.

I was already worried about your smoking a long time ago... I mentioned it to you.

I allowed you to brush off my concerns.. I should have been more forceful in making you quit, even I know that quitting would have been tough for you.. But I should have stopped you still.

I'm the one who had the concerns.. I should have been more audible with them.. It's my fault you didn't quit, If I really tried I could have made you quit...

"Oi Misaki! Hello? Misaki!"

I hadn't noticed that Usagi was calling me the entire time, I snapped out of my thoughts and smiled uneasily at Usagi.

"Yeah? What do you need Usagi?"

I tried to push all my guilt to the back of my mind.

I can't let Usagi know that I know that it's my fault.. He'll just try to convince me otherwise.

Usagi frowned at me, then wrapped his kind arms around me.

"I'm sorry Misaki..I'm so sorry"

Usagi's voice sounded so hollow and empty.

"Usagi..how long?.."

I could feel myself tense up as I asked, I didn't want to know. I needed to know, how much time I had with Usagi left.

Usagi POV

I awoke suddenly, I looked around confused.

Why am I in a hospital?

I could feel that the pain I had felt beforehand had lessened significantly, I felt slightly disoriented.

"Usami-San, it seems you're awake, how are you feeling?"

The voice startled me, I looked around and saw a doctor beside me.

"I'm feeling okay, where is Misaki?"

The doctor motioned towards the door.

"I told Takahashi-kun to stay out"

Misaki must have been worried sick, I need to see him to show him that I'm okay

"Thank you for helping me, I'm going to go now"

I knew I sounded a little rude but I wanted to see Misaki. I went to get up but the doctor stopped me, I looked up at him confused.

"Usagi.. I have something to tell you.. Your illness may have been minor but something unexpected showed up on the results"

Unexpected?...

"What would that be?..."

The doctor's tone of voice he used made me feel uneasy, I didn't like it at all. The doctor cleared his throat.

"You seem to have developed lung cancer"

I sat there in shock, I couldn't believe what the doctor had said.

Lung cancer?

I'm going to die?... Misaki.. I don't want to leave my Misaki.. I've got to see him...

I want to spend the rest of my time with him.

I can't leave my Misaki all alone..

I looked at the doctor.

"How much time do I have left?"

My voice was emotionless.

"You have ******** left"

(A/N) I'm that jerk who will make the answer be in the next chapter •3• hehe

I can't believe that, I didn't want to believe it. I only had ******* till I had to leave my Misaki all alone.

We heard, the sound of someone leaning on the door, the doctor got up and opened it. Misaki fell into the room. I chuckled at Misaki's little tumble, I was happy to see him yet sad that I will have to leave him alone.

My sweet Misaki eagerly hopped over to my side, he seemed slightly pale.

He must have been so worried, Im afraid to tell him..

"Usagi, you had me worried sick!"

Heh I guessed right

I forced myself to smile, I wanted to look strong for Misaki's sake.

He's going to have to find out..

"Usagi, you are okay right?"

Misaki, I'm sorry

"Yeah, it was just due to stress, a slight fever, overwork and not eating for a few days"

I felt bad for lying but I didn't want my Misaki to be upset. I noticed Misaki's knees tremble and he sank down onto the floor with a relieved sigh.

You were so relieved... Now I feel even worse about lying to you Misaki

Misaki gave me one of his lovely smiles, I just loved the way his eyes shined when he was happy.

"Want to go home now?"

I didn't respond, I averted my gaze away from Misaki's. The doctor coughed and caught both of our attention.

"Takahashi-kun it's true that the reason Usami-San came to the hospital was minor... However-"

"However what?!"

Misaki cut off the doctor, it pained me to see him worry, I wanted to see his smiling face again. I knew I couldn't for a while though.

Misaki please be strong

"Takahashi-kun... When we examined Usami-San we found something unexpected.. We found that lung cancer has appeared inside of Usami-San"

I saw a look of despair cover my Misaki's face, his head lowered and he was silent.

"Hey Misaki?"

He was acting strange I touched his shoulder but he didn't react.

"Oi Misaki! Respond!"

I shook him but he still didn't respond.

What is going on inside of my Misaki's head?!

What could he possibly be thinking, you better not be thinking of a way to blame yourself!

"Misaki please answer me!"

I was now worried about the lack of response I was getting from Misaki, the doctor hurried over to him and placed two fingers on his wrist. He looked up at me.

"His pulse had increased significantly, he's not in danger but he must be experiencing slight shock"

Misaki..Please respond to me..

You're scaring me.. Everything will turn out okay..

I won't leave you till I am forced to by death..

"Oi Misaki! Hello? Misaki!"

Misaki suddenly snapped out of his trance and smiled at me.

Misaki.. Your false smile is nothing like your true smile..

"Yeah? What do you need Usagi?"

Misaki's hurt right now.. I've got to make him feel secure and safe

I frowned slightly then wrapped my arms around my Misaki, I inhaled his familiar scent happily yet sadly, not wanting the day that I won't be able to hold my Misaki like this to come.

"I'm sorry Misaki..I'm so sorry"

I couldn't stop the sadness from entering my words.

"Usagi..how long?.."

Misaki tensed up a bit as he asked his simple question.

I don't want to answer you Misaki, I know that if I do you'll...

Me: that's the end of chapter 3! Sorry for the few updates today~ I had plans for once o.o, it's shocking

Misaki: ... Wow... No comment

Me: XP wattpad is currently the only thing I do besides school~

Misaki: don't you mean writing, not wattpad? The way you said it doesn't sound like a proper sentence

Me: >^> at least I donts talks likes dis during the story, I actually stops myself fromz usings my texting vocab and actually use my proper vocab~

Misaki: oh god.. Don't do a chapter with your texting vocabulary

Me: don't worry, I will never do that, it might kill some readers XP

Misaki: well hope ya liked the chapter~