The day Jonghyun was sent off, the whole world paused for many of us.

Those of us who couldn't attend a vigil, or visit his funeral hall, sent him off on our own. Perhaps with a candle, or perhaps with just a few words and heavy breath.

At the funeral, the prayers and well wishes were received.

Throughout the world, fans felt their hearts lift to their throats, and as they blew out their candles, the smoke and breath rose up, and carried their messages of hope and comfort, grief and persistence.

And in the sky, the boy with Angel wings listened,

and he heard.

And the wings on his back rose up, mimicking the growing smile on his lips.

He was home. And from this new place, he found happiness. He was sorry to leave them, but hearing that they understand, it helped him be relieved. He finally relaxed back into his new life, watching over his friends.

And wishing to tell his friends on earth that he was sent off well, he followed his spirit to the moon, and he asked that for one night, it could change colours. 

And we listened,

and we heard.

~

I wrote this to feel better, I hope it will make you feel better too.

If it seems that I'm supporting suicide, you're mistaken. I hope it doesn't seem that way, because suicide is a tragic thing and I wish the concept of it never existed.

Reach out to friends, family, acquaintances, anyone, to ask how they're doing. If you see someone online that seems to need help, message them too. I promise you, it could really help. Even if you don't really know the person, it still means a lot. 

Please, please stay strong, all of you. I guess it's a little late to tell you, since I took a break (I'm not back yet) after hearing the news... But still, I think it's always relevant. I hope you guys know that you have people who care about you. Please reach out if you're feeling bad. Message your friends, your family, even me.

I'll be here to listen. If this (wattpad DMs) doesn't work, message me about my other social medias. I hope you guys take this seriously, and ask for help when you need it. We don't want to lose another person that has so much left to experience and do. So please, find it in you to live.

I'm not back, as I'm still not ready, or okay, if I'm being honest. I hope that you'll wait for me. I just thought I should post this before I dwell too much on its quality. So, assuming, until I return, I wish you all the best.

1 800 273 8255 - National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, I think it's USA centred. They also have an online chat, if you'd rather do that.

Argentina: +5402234930430

Australia: 131114

Austria: 017133374

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 3911270

Brazil: 212339191

Canada: 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553 (outside Montreal)

China: 85223820000

Croatia: 014833888

Denmark: +4570201201

Egypt: 7621602

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 0145394000

Germany: 08001810771

Holland: 09000767

India: 8888817666

Ireland: +4408457909090

Italy: 800860022

Japan: +810352869090

Mexico: 5255102550

New Zealand: 045861048

Norway: +4781533300

Philippines: 028969191

Poland: 5270000

Russia: 0078202577577

Spain: 914590050

South Africa: 0514445691

Sweden: 46317112400

Switzerland: 143

United Kingdom: 08457909090

If I missed any, you might have to google your hometown to see what numbers show up.

You can search up online chats, there are a few, if you don't want to/can't talk on the phone.