- Pack your back and and go study aboard!!! You will never find a job in this country!!! - my step father said to me.

- No, I wil not leave my house, my bike and my friends. You are not my real father. I musn't do anything you said. - me answered

He doesn't look at me anymore. He's staring at the floor cause of my words. I quickly feel sorry for saying that. I try to open my mouth and say "I'm sorry" but he already in his room.

My step dad always wants me to study abroad but i disargee that. I don't wanna leave my room, my house, my beautiful bike and my friends, especially my boyfriend, Niall. He would be broken hearted. I don't want that. I want to marry him here. So i gonna ask him if i could study aboard and if he could wait for.

iMessege:

Me: Hi Niall! Vas happenin'?

Niall: Hey babe! I'm working with the band. And you?

Me: Nothing. I'm just lying on bed and texting to you.......

Niall: Is everthing ok honey?

Me: Yes

Me: No, i have to ask you something

Niall: Umm, okay.

Me: My dad said i had to studied aboard. Should I? I don't wanna leave you and my friends.

...

Niall didn't reply me for a day. 

The next day, 6 a.m: You got a messege from Niall 

Niall: Can we break up?

I drop my phone on the floor. Did I do something wrong? I was just asking about my study aboard and he didn't say anything after that. I thought he's gonna ignore it. And then today he texted to me like this. Oh hell no, I gottta ask him. Take my phone back and start texting.

Me: What are you doing?

Niall: I'm breaking up with you

Me: Why?

Niall: Yesterday, I was with someone else. I love her. I'm breaking up with you cause you and me are not going anywhere.

Me: Are you sure? :(

Niall: I'm sure :) I'm sorry and I hope you will find someone else deserved your love more than I do

And then, I stop texting to him and cry. I throw my phone away and hurry up downstairs. I get into my dad room and say "Dad, i wanna study aboard. Set me up any school and let me be there for 5 years". Saying with the tears streaming down from my eyes. My dad understood immediately, he told me to go upstairs, pack all the things and say goodbye to all my friends.

I slowly upstairs, thinking of Niall. He used to be the reason i smile. But not any more! Because he already has another girl by his side.

The next day, Dad come up to my room and saw me lying on bed and still have the sign of the tears. Wake me up, tell me to go down and have breakfast. I said I wasn't hungry. Actually, I have no mood to eat breakfast right now. My head still full of Niall's pictures. Take along breath and then fall asleep again. I dreamed, Niall and me, getting married. I was so happy in that dream. When suddenly a big sound wake me up, it is my best friend, Alison. She properly come here to yell at me. But instead of yelling, she just sit there and stair at me.

5 mins later, I start talking: "Alison, why are you here?". She replies "To say goodbye to you". She starts crying, making me confuse. To ease her "I'm only go for 5 years, don't worry, time flies really fast". Then, she hugs me and we all crying. 

The sunset has the blood color and my heart is bleeding hard. One knife in heart is Niall and the other ones is Alison. I have to let her here for my selffishness. I didn't think about her then. Well, time will fly fast right? On the brightside, I will be free for 5 years. 5 YEARS HONEY!

.....

30 mins till the flight

I'm sitting here, checking my phone if there was any messege of Niall. But Alison take my phone and throw it into a trash can. She says "You don't have to look at that guy anymore. He betrayed you. Stop thinking about him".  I run to the trash can and almost reach my hand into the trash can. I stop. Smile a little and walk away. Take all my luggage and say goodbye to Alison. 

The first step is so hard. I feel like I can't go. But I have to stay strong and get over this soon. Pay attention in studying and it will bring me great reward. Love is for stupid! Tell myself to move on. I will forget about Niall! 5 years are my opportunity to be grow up person

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~TO BE CONTINUE~