"I'm passionate about what's mine."

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P a s s i o n a t e

A/N - Shout out to shinyglittergirl for making this beautiful cover for me!❤  I picture Clarissa as Nina Dobrev! Picture above ^^

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  Clarissa's P.O.V

Breathing in the fresh air of Upper West Side, Manhatten. Manhatten was so breathtaking, with it's glowing city lights, broadway musicals, the smell of freshly baked pizza, hot dog and other greasy goodies satisfying your nostrils. The Upper West side had many blooming  trees and other forms of landscapes which balances nature and city.

I was now walking home after buying some groceries at the mini mart near by with the money my mom left for me.

As I took out my keys and open the door I was indeed shocked.

"Surprise!!!!", Everyone shouted with grins playing on their lips.

Everyone as in Miri, Alec and Ryan?

What's Alec doing here?

Wait...What's Alec's friend doing here?!

Matter of fact what the hell are they all doing in here.

Wasting no more time I asked not so gently, " What the hell are you guys doing here in this bloody hour?Especially you two", I said suspiciously pointing at Alec and Ryan.

"We saw that you were down, you come to school looking like shit, you walk like you have 10 tons of weight on your shoulder and you barely talk to me for Christ Sakes!!", Miri said fuming.

I thought that smoke was coming out of her ears.

Like in the Scooby Doo movie.

But it was true though, It has been one week ever since Alec and I-- you know, makeout? Yeah, I was in total bliss until my nightmares became too overwhelming.

I was even naive to think that I could even forget about everything for just a moment.

I hadn't tell Miri that my nightmares came back, I was always zoning out in public, rarely eating and yes walking like I had 10 tons of weight on my shoulder.

Alec didn't talk to me in that one week.

It was close to December since today was November 25th and the project was due first thing in January after the holidays.

"I'm sorry Miri, I really am, I'm just not feeling it lately", I said apologetically.

"That is, why my dear bestfriend, I invited them to help me cheer you up!" She said looking giddy.

"Umm, okay? But I don't even know Ryan that well", I said looking at the two who had not said a single word.

"About that, Cupcak--- I mean, Miranda and I are dating", He said scratching the back of his head nervously.

Wait.

Wutttttttt????????

"Shut up! I was going to tell her!ugh", She said scowling but having a hint of smile on her face.

"How did the hell this happened? Wait, he called you cupcake? Hold up, you ditched me for him the day that you said you had something to do before going to Calculus didn't you?, Oh my God, Am I so Oblivious?", I rant feeling dumb. As. Fuck.

"You are oblivious love", Alec uttered something with a look of sadness? No that couldn't be it.

"Shut up peanutly dick head", I said smiling slightly.

"O my God! Love? Peanutly dick head? Aww look at you guys", Miranda Cooes.

Ugh why am I so unlucky!

"Anyways we are planning to take you out!, so chop chop go put on something decent for once in your life, we're going somewhere fancy, like a nice restaurant. My Dad's paying for it, that's the only thing he can offer as a parent anyways", She said shoving me upstairs.

I went to my room and searched my closet for what to wear.

By the minute, I was getting frustrated because I couldn't find anything elegant or classy.

Then I remembered the dress Miranda bought me last year Christmas but I never wore it.

Finding it, I went to take a shower.

It was a strapless knee length dress with a V neck showing just the right amount of cleavage with other intricate details I couldn't really explain.

Getting out of shower I put on my dress and did a natural makeup, just a little lipgloss and blush.

I paired my dress with gold pumps and my gold purse.

I decided to my hair stay down and
took one last look in the mirror, feeling satisfied I went downstairs.

It seems as if they heard me coming down because Alec was already saying "Took you long enough lov---", he stopped what he was saying when he saw me. He looked at me intensely and something that seemed of lust.

"Uh, I'm sorry I took that long", I said apologizing and blushing at the same time, feeling his burning stare on me.

Clearing his throat he said " Uh that's okay, you look beautiful by the way", He said giving me a charming smile.

The fucker didn't talk to me for one week.

Whilst I was trying to engage in a conversation with him, he dodged me like bullet everytime.

So I did what he did.

"You ready Miri and Ryan?", I asked with much enthusiasm as I could muster with a big smile plastered against my lips.

"Um, yeah sure,You look smoking hot by the way! Oh I'm riding with Ryan so you'd have to hitch a ride with Alec", She pretended to apologetic, but it was written all over her face.

Smug bitch!

"Why can't I ride with you guys? Aren't there four seats in the car?", I questioned pretending to smile.

I was bitch slapping her face in my mind though and she knew that.

"We are going to do things in there, if you know what I mean", She replied winking at Ryan.

"Eeeewwwww, FINE!", I surrendered feeling irritated.

"Come on love", He said placing a hand on my back leading me out to his car.

"Take your hands off me or I'll rip your head in two dingle dick", I threated lowly.

"Dingle dick? Really?What's up with you and my dick? If you wanted it you should've just said so", He teased giving me a suggestive grin.

"Ew, sorry, I'd rather not catch S.T.D dingle dick", I said feeling rather embarassed.

"I thought you were one not to judge, guess I was wrong", He spat in my face looking furious and hurt as we got into the car.

"Huh? Where the fuck did that cane from? I was just stating mere facts!", I replied feeling defensive.

Silence.

"Fine, be that way", I said not giving one fuck.

Keep telling yourself that Clarissa.

10 minutes later we arrived at Carmine's , 44th streeth, NYC.

It was beautiful and looks really expensive.

"Are you sure you can pay for this?", I asked feeling unsure.

"Yes and let's go", She said grabbing Ryan's hand.

"Let's go", Alec said in a flat tone.

I walked beside of him and went inside.

Looks like Mirianda went in already.

Way to cheer me up Miri.

"Hello, may I help you?", Who I assumed worked as a waitress.

"Reservation under the name Alec Kerrington", He told her.

"Oh yes, follow me this way Mr and Mrs Kerrington", She replied smiling.

Mrs Kerrington?

I wanted to say I wasn't but it seemed as if my lips were sewed together.

So I just followed her in silence to a different table.

Different. Not Miranda's.

"Isn't Miranda the one that's gonna pay for this?", I ask confused.

"Nope, I am", He flat out replied.

"Don't argue with me, I'm not in the mood and it's not gonna work", He said knowing full well that I was about to argue.

I wasn't in the mood so I just kept silent.

We ordered our food and ate in an awkard silence.

"Excuse me, I'm going to use the restroom, I'll be back", I said standing up and walking to the female's restroom.

After using it, I washed my hands and fixed myself up a little, as I opened the door a man was standing outside of it.

"Hello, how's your day beautiful lady?", The man asked looking quite handsome but I was suspicious.

"I know you from school and I thought why not say hello", He added.

Okaayy totally not creepy.

Why wait outside the lady's room?

But he looked dashing though.

Almost as dashing as Car---

No don't think about that dingle dick.

"Oh hello, what's your name?", I asked.

"Dyan, The name's dylan, what about you pretty lad-----" He was cut short by someone's voice.

"What's going on?"

Alec.

"Nothing, we were just talking", Dyan said.

"Get lost Dyan! Don't fucking talk to her again", He demanded furiously.

"Fuck Off Kerrington", Dyan said and walked away.

"Hey! We were just talking, the fuck is wrong with you?Huh?", I shouted at him.

"Talking? He isn't a very nice guy Clarissa! You shouldn't be talking to any guy except me okay! You're mine!", He shouted.

Huh!

His?

What thaaaa frackkkk??

My whole body tingled at that I was too fucking furious.

"YOURS?? I AM NOT SOME OBJECT THAT YOU CAN CLAIM ALEC! AND YOU CERTAINLY DON'T GET THAT PREVILAGE TO CALL ME YOURS! YOU AVOIDED ME FOR WHAT? A FUCKING WEEK? AND THEN HERE YOU ARE ACTING LIKE MY BOYFRIEND WHEN YOU ARE NOT", I screamed at the top of my lungs.

I was hurt, he made out with me and avoided me after like I was some fucking conquest to him! He treated me like I was one of those girls!

"I AVOIDED YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING THAT I CAN'T HANDLE! I CAN'T HANDLE LIKING SOMEONE! I CANNOT HANDLE THE FACT THAT I AM FALLING FOR YOU SO FUCKING FAST!"

"What?", I whispered feeling shocked.

Pain flashed across his eyes.

No. He does not get to feel pain. I am the one who's fucking hurting.

I don't why it hurt so fucking much when we aren't even dating! Hell! I don't even know if we're friends.

"STOP LYING TO ME! STOP FUCKING LYING TO----"

His lips smashed against mine.

Tears were flowing through my eyes, I needed to pull away but I couldn't, I wanted this, I don't know why but I do.

This kiss was different.

It was filled with need and hunger.

It was filled with emotions.

We pulled apart to catch our breaths then he smashed his lips on mine again.

Muahahahaa I pulled away.

"We need to talk dingle dick", I pecked his cheek and hurriedly walked away.

Ha! Who was left dumbfounded now!

But I wonder. What were we? I intend to find out soon.

With a smile plastered on my face I went back to our table.

A/N - Longest Chapter Ever!😆❤I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did!