"That type of pain that makes you gasping for air? Yeah that"

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M y W o r l d F e l l A p a r t

A/N - Major trigger! Don't read if you have experienced painful situation like losing someone close to you.

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Clarissa's P.O.V

I was sleeping soundly beside my dad with my tiny arms wrapping tightly over him.

"Shhh you're gonna wake them up", a male voice whispered harshly.

I heard the door hinges screeching against the floor.

I was now cowering in fear.
My heart was beating erotically.
Sweat trickled down my body.

I froze.

I want to wake up dad.
No I need to wake him up.

Yet still, my lips felt as if they were glued together.

One man walked into the house.

Followed by another.

One was at the door to guard.

One was holding the equipments.

The equipments to torture him.

To torcher my dad.

O my god, I don't know what to do, Please don't take daddy away from me. Daddy is the only one I have left. Mommy left us and Daddy was always there for me.

I lay down as if I didn't see them.

Then I heard muffling beside of me.

I heard my dad muffling a scream.

But I could hear cleary. He said "Clarissa".

I started crying and hiccuping.

They told me to get up and watch him.

"Please, please leave him alone", I sobbed and I sobbed until my heart couldn't take it anymore.

My lungs were closing up.

But I had to remain strong for my father.

I have to.

I keep telling myself that yet I was powerless.

Then I heard shuffling in my sisters room.

I saw they dragged Camilla on the floor while holding a knife to her neck.

Then I saw Caroline getting dragged and thrown on the bed beside me.

"Tell us! Where is the boss's fucking money?!" The one in the black hoodie that was covering his eyes shouted making me jumped in fright.

"We don't have any now, But I promise, we will get it by nextweek, I beg, I be---- I beg of you, please leave him alone", Camilla pleaded bawling her eyes out.

Something tugged at my heart.
I haven't seen Caroline or Camilla in so much pain before.

Stab.

Stab.

Stab.

"No pleasee, Daddy is the only one I have left, Daddy is my rock, Daddy makes pancakes for me every morning, Daddy plays with me, Daddy is my World, Daddy means so much more to me than my barbie dolls. Please don't take my world from me", I pleaded and pleaded crying my eyes out.

Stab.

Stab.

Stab.

"He deserves to die!", One of them shouted.

His feet were tied up.

His mouth was taped up.

His sides were bleeding out.

His face.
His face looked.

Pale.

"Clarissa, Clarissa, Clarissa, I love you, I love you Caroline and Camilla", His voiced was muffled but I heard clearly.

My

Fucking

Heart broke.

And in that moment I realized that, nothing could ever hurt me as much as this.

Nothing.

I am daddy's little princess.

My hands were covered in blood, daddy's blood was flowing out.

"Shit shit, I wasn't going to kill him, shit! Run! Everybody run!" The leader shouted.

They stole some of our belongings and ran away.

"No daddy please don't die", I whispered feeling heartbroken and helpless.

My sisters were crying and crying but finally tried to get things under control.
"Come on, he's still breathing, let's go call for help", My oldest sister Camilla said.

I got out of my bed with my monkey pattern underwear on with my pink barbie princess shirt and ran to get help with my sisters.

I wasn't wearing any jeans or skirt but I didn't care.

All I cared about was having my daddy right beside of me hugging me tightly without any injuries.

All I care about is letting my daddy live another day.

"Thump thump"

We went to every neighbour we had and did that for a couple of minutes but and no one was answering.

"Thump thump"

"Caroline, Camilla and Clarissa? What are you doing here"? Mr Jensen asked curiously.

"Please call the cops, our phones were stolen,it's my dad, there's no time to explain! He's dying!!", Camilla pleaded.

Mr Jensen looked shocked " okay okay, please calm down I will call the cops", He hastily grabbed his phone and call them.

"They said that they would be here in a couple of minutes so please calm down and take me to him", He said worriedly.

We ran to our home and checked on my dad.

His feet were cold.

His heart wasn't beating.

His eyes were closed.

With a tear tricking down his cheeks.

"No no no no!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME DADDY! YOU CAN'T! WHO'S GONNA BE HERE FOR ME? WHO'S GONNA MAKE PANCAKES FOR ME EVERY MORNING? WHO AM I GOING TO HUG AT NIGHT TO SLEEP? YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP DAD, YOU ARE MY WORLD REMEMBER! THERE IS NO LIFE FOR ME WITHOUT YOU! PLEASEEEEE DADDY!!", I SHOUT AND CRIED AND BEGGED AND NO.

MY WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN.

MY VISION BECAME BLURRY

THEN I FELL TO THE GROUND.

I COLLASPED.

"No daddy", I screamed jolting awake.

"Why do I still get nightmares! Every night it's a different one, same ending but different details. But this one thi--- this one was what really happened." I started sobbing uncontrollably.

I still blame myself for what happened.

I tried to hold my shit together.

Turning the lamp on my nightstand I took up my phone to see the time.

3:36 A.M

"Fuck" I muttered underneath my breath.

Now I wont be able to get any rest again.

I'm too afraid to sleep.

So I stayed up all night reading wattpad.

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A\N - This chapter is so personal to me.

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