"When life gets bitter, it's good to have a little honey in it."

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B i t t e r s w e e t

A/N - Picture of Alec ^^ - Mathew Daddario❤ thanks lelakayy for the suggestion!   

Clarissa's P.O.V

2 minutes...

1 minute...

Wait for it...

"Bringggggggggggggg" , I jumped out of my seat and was the first one to head out of class.

School has ended and it's the start of the Christmas holiday!

I can't wait to lounge in my bed and eats lots of junk food until I explode.
My Christmas was spent eating, sleeping and repeating.

My mother came home in the early morning yesterday,when the birds were chirping and the sun was still down.

Shocker.

Guess what?? She had the damn nerve to act like she's the boss of me.
When in all honesty, she doesn't have the right to.

Ok.
She does have the right until I'm eighteen but you know what I mean.

Some mothers don't deserve to be called mothers.

She started telling me how to eat, who to talk to and what I should do!

What is she going to tell me next? Who to fuck?

Ugh.

She told me that if something is bothering me I can talk to her anytime.

Let me tell you something about my mother.

Her moods changes like 5489012357749 times a day.

She can be nice. Sometimes.

Scoffing internally, as if she thinks that I'm ever gonna tell her anything. The last time I told her that I was abused by one of her "boyfriends", she called me a liar, jealous bitch, unloved whore and my personal favorite "Good for nothing child".

So loving I know!

"What are you thinking about love?", I heard a voice behind me startling the shit out of me.

Dingle dick

"Oh you know, the usual, I'm just thinking about the fact that puppies are wonderful creatures", I said smiling and lying through my teeth.

But puppies were indeed wonderful creatures! I love them soo much!

"Suree love", He said not believing a word I said.

"So hey, are you free tomorrow?", Dingle dick asked.

"No, actually I'm not", I said putting on my best pretentious face.

" Oh, uh, okay, that's cool", He said looking embarassed as hell.

" I'm Just kidding dingle dick", I said laughing at his expression.

"Yooooooouuuuuuuu!!!", He shouted making every heads turn.

"Meeeeeeeee!", Laughing I ran as fast as I could before he could catch me.

I'm sure I could outrun hi------

"Gotchya, love", He whispered with his hands wrapped around me from behind.

Well there goes my athletic skills.

"Care to go on that date you promised me, tomorrow?", He whispered giving me a kiss on my temple, making me feel all mushy inside.

"Uh, yeah where to?", I asked nervously.

"That's for me to know and you to find out, tomorrow", He said giving a cheeky grin.

"Please please tell me, I hate suprises", I pleaded pouting my lips.

"No love, you just hate not knowing something", He said matter-of-factly.

Well, true.

"I hate you", I said crossing my arms and walking away from him.

"Wear comfortable clothes, I'll pick you up at 8 love", He said making me glance back at him.

That stupid smirk on his face.

Giving him the finger I walked away smiling.

I wonder were is Mirand----

Oof!
" I KNEW THAT YOU GUYS LIKE EACH OTHER, O MY GOD! MY SHIP HAS SAILED! I AM COMING OVER TONIGHT TO HELP YOU IN ANYWAY I CAN, HOLY SHIT! DID YOU JUST TAME THE BAD BOY! I KNEW THAT I LOVED YOU FOR A REASON! BITC-----

Slapping my hand over her mouth I told her to shut up which in return a glare came my way.

"Firstly, Your ship hasn't sailed, secondly why the heck are you coming over, thirdly I don't really know much about dingle dick which means I tamed nobody, fourthly Why are you more excited than me? Finally, please shut the fuck up before somebody hears you", I said finishing off my ranting.

"Okay okay geesh!", She said holding her hand up in surrender smirking at me.

I swear that dingle dick's friend, Ryan, is rubbing his oh so famous smirk on her.

Poor Miranda.

Haha.

Miranda is beautiful with her deep ocean blue eyes,dirty blonde hair that glows in the sunlight, perfect button nose and pearly white teeth.

"Hey is your, your umm, mom home?", She asked looking at me, perhaps afraid of my reaction.

"No, She came yesterday and left again, you can come over if you want", I said shrugging at her.

"Okay! Let's go!", She drags me to her black car in the bustling parking lot.
Everyone chit chattering about what they're going to do on the holiday.

I flopped down on the car seat and buckled my seatbelt while Miranda started to sped away.

"So how's things with Ryan lately?", I asked her.

"Things are great!", She said with a BIG FAT FAKE SMILE PLASTERING HER FACE.

"I'm wounded Miri, first you didn't tell me that you guys were dating, then you're lying to me now!" I exclaimed.

"Okay I'm sorry, it's just that you have a lot on your plate you know? And I didn't want to bother you with my silly teenage problems", She said sighing.

" Listen to me Miri, We Both have alot on our plates, we have to take up responsibilies because of our situation, but we are obligated to be teenagers, we shouldn't put our lives on hold just because things around us are different, I don't care how silly your problem is I want to hear it, We should be able to live like normal teenagers", I said meaning every word I said.

"I love you Clarissa, I don't know what I'd do without you, I'll tell you when we arrive at your house because I don't want to crash and destroy my beautiful face", She said making me laugh.

We arrived at my house about 5 minutes later.

My mother, Caroline and I live in a white two story suburban house with lawn filled with freshly cut grass, beside it on the left sidewas a well trimmed white oak tree while on the right side layed Alec's house.

It was your normal suburban home.
Perfect everything.
What people don't know is what happens behind those closed doors.

Shuffling with the key in my hand, I opened the door to reveal sweet sweet hom----

"What the fuck?!" I exclaimed.

There she was, in all her naked glory.
Getting it on, on the damn couch I cleaned yesterday.

"O my god, Uh-- I didn--- Oh honey, Uh, It--- It's not what it looks like", She said hastily putting on back her clothes.

"Oh fuck it! You! Get the fuck out of this house right now before I call the damn cops", I shouted at the scrawny looking dirt bag.

"CLARISSA! Don't talk to houst guests like that, it's rude and----"

"You! Shut up mother! House guest?! Is that what you call your little play things now? Huh? Look at you, having no shame, no fucking ambition, I have to be the adult here and taking up your fucking responsibilities because you are out there everyday acting like a dang child! I am the child here mother! Do you even notice that? I guess not because you're too busy fucking with strangers, I hate yo---"

Slap.

I felt the stinging sensation burning across my cheek.

Then I felt wet hot tears dripping down my face.

"Oh honey I'm so sorry! I slapped you even when I knew that you didn't mean any of that, I know that you have been through alot, losing dad and all, I'm so sorry to make you sad", She apologized.

"No mother, I meant every word I said and don't you dare talking about dad when you don't even care, You know, I was so afraid of losing you when you moved away and left us, I was so afraid that I came to your house everyday to spend time with you, Pity me didn't realize that I already lost you, I chased after you mom because I was so dang afraid that I'd lose you, but my thoughts now are, Were you afraid to lose me?", I whispered feeling disappointed as I dragged Miranda's arm and went upstairs to my room.

"Hey I'm here Rissa, I'm here", She said hugging me as I cried in her arms.

"Will anyone ever be afraid to lose me?I try-- I try so hard and it's like I'm never good enough", I cried and I cried.

"Hey hey listen to me, I love you so much Clarissa, You're the most precious bestfriend in this world, your soul is pure, your love is pure, your heart is pure, Too pure for your own good and people takes advantage of that. I know you know that, that is why you walk around helping people, smiling and cheering up others, you don't show others how broken you are because you know that once they see that, it's a bigger advantage for them, I know you still love your mother, despite of everything, I know that is why it hurts you so much, I know Rissa, remember? Forever and always,You might be broken Rissa, just like me, but together we make a complete jig saw puzzle, You are more than good enough babe", Miranda hushes ne.

I don't know what I'd do without her.

She is my rock.

I nodded my head sobbing quietly.

"Maybe I should cancel that date with dingle dick", I said frowning.

"Absolutely not young lady! You need that date more than ever now, you are going and that's final", She said sniling.

I do need this.
I deserved this much right?

"Okay I will go, It's now 7:05, I'll hurry up and get ready", I said smiling slightly.

Squealing she said, "I'll pick out the best comfortable outfit for you."

The bitch practically shoved me inside the bathroom.

30 minutes later I saw the outfit that Miranda chose layed out on my bed.

With Miranda nowhere to be found.

It looked really comfy but a little too much, But I mean, Miri would kill me if I didn't wear this.

I touched the oversized hoodie and oh my lord! It's so soft, And it's even more perfect because it's black.

By the time I got ready, I went downstairs and was about to call out Miranda's name but I heard my mother and her talking in hushed tones.

"I am so happy that she has you, I don't know what would've happened if you weren't her bestfriend, so thank you for been here for Clarissa", My mother said.

Huh? Like she gave a crap about me.

"I didn't do it for you Ms Hensworth, I did it for Rissa, there's no need to thank me, I will always be here for her but please with all do respect don't cause her more pain than you've already put her through, please get your act together for you and her sake", Miranda said.

"Pingggggg", The doorbell rang.

Well that's my cue.

I nervously opened the door to see a dashing dingle dick wearing black leather jacket paired with a white T shirt and black jeans.

"Hello love, you look awfully beautiful as always", Shoving his hands in his pockets while smiling at me.

"Well you don't look bad yourself dingle dick", I said smiling whilst blushing at the same time.

"Hello it's nice to meet you, I'm Clarissa's mother"

Huh? Seriously mother?

"Hello Ms Hensworth, I'm Al---"
He couldn't finished what he was saying because I shoved him out the door.

"Goodbye mother, Miri you going home now?", I asked.

"Yeah, uh, ofcourse, well goodbye Ms hensworth", She said before rushing to me and Alec.

"What was that for?", Dingle dick asked curiously.

"Stop asking so much question and let's go", I said although he just asked one question.

"Okay lovebirds I'm gonna get going, have fun! Use protection! Oh and if you hurt her I will slit your throat okay Alec? Unless it's the other type of hurt", She said winking at us and drove away in her car.

Damn you Miranda.

Awkard.

"Uh, so shall we?", he smiled.

"We shall", I replied feeling excited.

"Uh wait, where's your car? I'm surely not walking to wherever we're going", I said feeling confused and uncertain.

"There's our ride love", He said pointing to....

His motorcycle.

"Firstly no!! I do not have a death wish! Secondly you never let anyone on your bike, not even Ryan", I said looking at him cautiously.

"We have helmets so come on", He said ignoring the second part.

Huh, I guess he had a change of heart.

"Okay fine!", I said giving up.

I hopped on and wore the helmet he gave me.

"Wrap your hands around me love", he said.

That little shit.
I can picture his smug little gorgeous face.

"Fuck you Kerrington"

With that said he sped off leaving a trail of dust behind us.

"O my god! This is amazing!" I exclaimed.

I can't believe that I was missing this out.

I could feel the andreline pumping with how fast we were going, I felt like I was flying, like I was free.

10 minutes later...

"Why are we in the secluded area of Manhatten?", I asked as I hopped off the motorcycle.

Dang it! I was worried.

"You'll see, no I am not going to kill you and dump your body here", He said as if he knew what I was thinking.

"No shit sherlock" I said rolling my eyes.

"Come on, we're going in that building", He said pointing at the direction of the tall abondoned building infront of us.

Part of the builing looked crumbled, speckles of dust surrounded us as we walked into the building.

"This better be good", I muttered as he helled my hand and guided me up on a suprisingly working elevator.

He pressed the top floor.
The last floor.

When we reached the top I was astonished.

I was beyond suprised.

Rose petals were scattered across the area, a candle lit in the middle of a well designed dinner table with beautiful floral chairs and all I hear is the life of Manhatten, New York, The city that never sleeps.

The view was breathtaking.

It's like I could see every inch of Manhatten with it's glowing city lights.

"Do you like it?", Dingle dick asked making me snap out of my thoughts.

"Like it? I freaking love it!", I squealed.

"Well that's a relief, This is the place I come to whenever I want to think clearly, I also came up here when I wanted to decide how I felt about you and now I'd like to share this spot with you", He said hugging me from behing while snuggling his face in the crook of my neck.

"I would love to, thank you", I whispered looking at him.

"Anything for you love", He replied as we turned our faces and gazed at the city lights before us.

And that was us.

That was all I need.

Dingle dick and me.

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A/N - That was the longessttttt chapter I've ever written and my personal favorite chapter! What did you think? Penny on your thoughts?

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