A/N-This is defiantly a trigger chapter. If you have self-harm/suicidal issues, I would NOT read. If you can't do this, I'll post a little summery in the A/N below. Enjoy loves.

Daisy's P.O.V. (trigger warning)

I sit on my bed with my a red pen as tears stream down my cheek, I write "the" note,
 "Dear friends and Family,
I want you all to know this isn't your fault. I want to be alive, but I'm so tired of the pain. This pain is too much to handle. I'm sorry, this is how I have to end. I'm not sure if any of you care that I'm gone, but ya'll don't know what it's like. I sit in a room with you guys as you laugh and smile, but I still feel alone. I love all of ya'll and I hope your lives are full of joy unlike mine.
Dally-Thank you so much. I want to thank you for taking care of me and loving me. I put you through so much, but you never gave up. You loved me through all the stuff I've done. I'm sorry this is how I have to end, but after the other day, I'm not even sure if you care.
Charlie-I love you so much. We've gotten so close. I am so happy you saved me that day because, at least you and my brother will get your happily ever after. Please tell Claire about me and tell her that I loved her very much. Tell her all about me. I love you.
Del-Delilah, we were best friends for so long with Soda and Steve. We were the four best friends. What happened to us? I love you Del and I hope the best for you and Steve. I love you two. You're forever in my heart. I'm gonna miss you. It's the hardest leaving, you Dal, Charlie, Claire and Soda behind. 
Pepsi-I could say so much to you. I could tell you how I wanted to make us work as friends, as lovers, as everything. We could of ruled of the world. I want to tell you how great we were. I want to tell you that you're my everything. I want to tell you all these things, but I think the best thing to tell you is, I love you.
This is none of ya'll's fault. You guys were always my one way out, my one laugh, my one smile, my one last hope, but sometimes that's not enough. I love ya'll.
-Daisy"

I look in my top draw until I find my razor cutting my finger as I do. The tears continue to silently stream down my cheeks. My breath is unsteady growing heavier with every breath I take. In and out. In and out. In and out. I remind myself as I walk slowly to the bathroom. Every step I take gets harder and harder as I know this is the end. It's the end of everything. I walk into the bathroom and look into the mirror. My hair is thin, dead, and greasy full of nots. The mirror tells me I'm fat, but everybody else lies to me telling me I'm skinny. They want me to smile, but I can't. My eyes that were once bright and and full of life are now dull. They hold no emotions, they're like never ending pits showing my emptiness and how hopeless I am. My arms are full of scars and cuts. My cheeks are bright red and blotchy. As I look into the mirror I don't even recognize my ugly face. 

I put the razor against my arm and press down sliding up to my elbow just deep enough to kill. My vision blurs as more tears form in my eyes. I match it on my other arm. I cut across my wrist over and over again. They're deep enough to kill me, they're gonna kill me. They have to. I match it on my other arm.  I look down as the blood drips onto the floor mixing with my tears. I slowly inch over to the medicine cabinet as I cry silently making sure I don't make a noise. I grab the bottle of sleeping pills. My vision blurs and I know this is what dying is like. A small smile creeps on my face as I know this is the end. I twist the cap, but they won't open. "No!" I whisper to my self throwing the bottle against the mirror and watching it shatter. Glass flies back smashing me in the face cutting my face. I fall to the ground landing on the glass. They pierce my skin like little daggers. 

I hear my bedroom door swing open and slam close followed by Soda's voice,  "Daisy! Daisy?" I hear the paper unfold and it's silent as I try to stand up. I need to get the pills. My vision is blurry and I feel faint. I can't stand. The world spins as I hear Sodapop scream loudly, "DAISY! Daisy, where are you?" I hear doors and draws slamming as his footsteps grow louder. "Daisy, where are you? Daisy please. DAISY!" The bathroom door opens as he looks down to see me, the world spins around me as I see a blurry figure dancing. He screaming something as he cries. I can't hear a word he's saying, he's shaking me screaming in my face as he sobs. "Please," I whisper as Lacey and Lucy walk in. Lucy's holding her heart as she cries. Lacey is screaming something crying and before I know it everybody's in the bathroom crying and screaming.My vision finally goes out as I get engulfed in a world of black.

Dally's P.O.V.

I get a phone call late in the afternoon. (S=Soda, D=Dally)

D-Hello?

S- *crying* Da-Da-Da

D-Sodapop?

S- *Sobbing*

D- What's wrong?

S- *crying* Daisy's in the hospital. *crying*

D-What? Why?

S- *Sobbing loudly* She tried to kill herself *Sobbing*

I drop the phone as tears roll down my cheeks. Charlie looks over at me, "Dally?" I take a deep breathe as I feel my heart break. "What happened?"

"Daisy, tried to kill herself," I speak in shock. "We need to go to the hospital now."

"Oh my god," she lets out a small cry.  "Lets go."

We rush out of the house speeding the the hospital.
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After hours of sitting in the hospital room staring at my stunning sister who just tried to kill herself, her eyes flutter open. I rush over to her side and she looks up at me tears  building behind her eyes, "Dallas?"

"I'm here, I'm here baby girl," I smile as I hold her hand. "The whole gang is in the waiting room including Claire."

Tears stream down her cheeks as she sob out, "I'm not dead! I'm not dead! Why? I want to be dead. I want to die! I want to die! Dally, why didn't I die?"

Pain pings in my chest as she speaks, "You don't want to die hunny, I love you. Please, tell me where I went wrong?"

"Can I speak to Soda?" She asks calmly holding back tears.

I nod, "of course." I walk out of the room and go to the gang still crying.

Charlie stands up Claire crying in here arms, it's like even she know's something wrong, "is she still with us?"

I nod slowly, "she's holding up. She's awake, but she's absolutely destroyed. Sodapop, Daisy's asking if she can please see you."

Soda looks over to me shaking his head as tears roll down his cheeks, "no, Dally, I can't. "

I sob loudly, "Soda, you have to. Please, Daisy's asking for you. Please."

He looks over at Del and she whispers, "please Sodapop. Please." 

Steve holds her closely as she sobs. He looks up to Soda, "please Sodapop for Delilah."

Soda slowly stands up walking away as he cries.

Daisy's P.O.V.

As I look around the room, I release that I'm not dead and Dally is holding me here, "I'm here, I'm here baby girl. The whole gang is in the waiting room including Claire."

"I'm not dead!" I start to cry loudly and I can see the pain on Dally's face. "I'm not dead! Why? I want to be dead! I want to die! I want to die! Dally, why didn't I die?"

"You don't want to die hunny, I love you," he speaks softly holding back tears. "Please, tell me where I went wrong?"

"Can I speak to Soda?" I ask calmly.

He nods his head slowly as he cries, "of course."

As he walks away I roll over in my bed as tears silently roll down my cheeks. I look down at my wrists as I go to grab a needle, I'm gonna die. I want to die! I go to sit up when I release I can't. I sob loudly as Soda walks in. I look up at him, "Sodapop?"

"I'm here," he smiles weakly fighting back tears.

"Please, don't cry," I croak out.

He chuckles a soft faint sad chuckle, "are you okay?"

"I'm alive," I respond. "Why?"

"Why what?" He asks.

"Why did you save me?" I ask tears rolling down my cheeks. 

"Because, I care about you," he smiles as he grabs my hand.

I sob loudly, "I don't want to be alive. I want to be dead. Why don't you get that? I didn't want to live."

"Don't  say that, please," he begs.

I shake my head, "it's all your fault."

"What is?" He asks clueless.

"The fact that I'm still alive when I want to be dead," I say coldly.

"Please, please don't say that," he begs. "I care too much about you."

"If you cared so much, you wouldn't of cheated on me!" I yell at him as I sob.

"I thought you wanted to talk to me," he speaks softly.

I let out a loud sigh, "you ruined everything!"

Dally barged through the door, "get out!"

"I thought-" Soda starts.

"Get the hell out of here!" He screams. "She just tried to kill herself."

"Dally, calm down," I speak softly. "I wanted to talk to him. It's not his fault."

Dally takes a deep breathe, "just leave. You can talk to her later after everything is better."

"Bye Daisy," he smiles sweetly.

I smile back staring into his eyes, "bye Pepsi-cola."

I see a smile creep on his face as he walks out whispering, "later Daize-maize."

As the door shuts Dally turns to me, "what happened?"

"We got into a fight," I explain. "It's no big deal. It happens all the time. People fight."

"Not after a suicide attempt!" He yells.

I shake my head, "it does when it's the person who saved you."

"Do you even want to be saved?" He asks.

"No!" I yell back at him. "I didn't-I don't want to be saved. I don't want to be alive. Am I living or just breathing because, there's a different. I'm not living, I'm just breathing."

"Please Daisy," he cries. "I've never not known what to do, but now I don't. I don't know what I can for you."

"Wanna know what you can do?" I ask him.

"Yes," he speaks. "Please. I want to help you."

"Then let me die," I inform him. "Let me kill myself and then you'll be helping me. If you loved me, you'd let me die and be happy. I don't want to take my life, I just want to take away the pain I fell. I'm sorry."

"I'm the one who's sorry," he sighs. "I'm sorry I didn't see how much pain you were-are in. I love you Daisy. Do you love me?"

"Of course I love you Dallas!" I yell. "You're my big brother."

He breaks down in sobs, "then why?"

"Because!" I yell my voice breaking. "Because, we got yanked out the house, the gang doesn't notice me anymore, I have a little sister I don't know, Soda cheated on me, Soda not only cheated on me, he cheated on me with my sister! Everything is my life is going wrong. So, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I tried to kill myself, but I can't help how I feel."

"I'm sorry," he sighs slightly. "I'm so sorry, you feel this way."

"I'm tired," I smile a weak sad smile. "I'm gonna go to sleep. Night."

 "Goodnight Daisy," he sighs. I roll over in my bed closing my eyes slightly.

Wow! This chapter is heavy! Well I hope you guys are happy that Soda saved her life. I cried so much while writing this. The next few chapters it's Delilah's time to shine. Stay gold. Do it for Johnny!
-Beth 

Book summery- Daisy wrote the note to everybody with a separate paragraph for Sodapop, Dally, Charlie and Del. Then she went in the bathroom and tried to kill herself, but Soda came in to talk to her. When he found the note he completely freaked out looking for her. Her death wasn't soon enough so she tried to make it faster, but ends up slipping on broken glass. Soda finally finds her, but she thinks it's too late. She can't hear a thing he says and as they all rush in to save her, she passes out.
Dally gets a phone call from Sodapop telling him that Daisy tried to kill herself and his world stops. He rushes to the hospital with Charlie and waited until she woke up. He tried to comfort her, but Daisy just cried and asked for Soda. Dally had to beg that Soda came to talk to Daisy.
As Daisy woke up she released she wasn't dead and all she could do was cry. She asked for Soda and when he came in she begged him not to cry. When asked if she was okay, she responded with a simple, I'm alive instead of saying no. Then she asked why he saved her. They got into a fight over it until Dally came in kicking Soda out. Daisy defended him causing a fight between her and Dally. To end the fight (and the chapter) Daisy rolled over in bed sadly saying, "I'm tired"