Lai Guanlin

I'm so nervous sht. I walked back and forth, trying to calm my nerves.

"Hey Guanhoe, calm the fck down will you? I'm so dizzy watching you." I turned my head to Seonho who was in my couch.

"Who said you should watch me? Btch, I'm leaving. Take care of the house for me tonight." I said as I reach for the doorknob.

"Why? You won't be coming back tonight? Are you two going to do it!? Send me vids!" I was surprised when Seonho was already trailing behind me.

"Seonhoe stay inside the house! And no we aren't going to do that. I WILL NOT SEND VIDS! I got accepted in Cube and then if I get famous that'll serve as scandal, you btch." I flick his forehead, making him pout.

"Whatever, I'm calling Minhyun hyung to come to your house." My eyes almost fell from it's sockets, when he smirked.

"You hoe! Don't you dare do it in my house! Nevermind, just go home. It's fine if my house get robbed anyway." I started walking away from him. I'm so fcking nervous, this isn't the first time I'm seeing Jihoon in person. It will be the fifth time?

"I was just joking Guanlin! Good luck with your date!!! Don't you fcking mess up or else I'll slap you with my pregnancy test!" I almost facepalmed hearing that from Seonho. He just announced his gender to all my neighbors.

After walking through the chilly night air, I finally reached our meeting place. I checked my watch that says 7:50pm. I'm 10 minutes early but who cares?

I fidled with the hem of my shirt. It's a little dark but the street lamps in the park makes it less dark.

"Guanlinie~" I lifted my head as fast as I could. Only to see my baby.

"Jihoon." I smiled showing my gums. He started walking closer to me. Jihoon is wearing his disguise, the hat and face mask.

"Baby, I thought I would never see you again." I pulled him for a hug. He stroked my back in a calming manner.

"You know I would never let that happen, Guanlinie. I'm so happy I'm hugging you right now. I missed your gummy smile, your scent, your face, your hugs, and kisses." I swayed him in a playful way, still in my arms.

"Don't make me feel like this. It's because of you that my cheeks are burning now, baby." He broke from the hug and stared at my face. Jihoon chuckled, making my heart skip.

"Your ears are red too, Guanlinie. You're so adorable, I want to bring you inside my dorm and keep you there forever!" He pinched my cheeks, making my eyes widen a little. I was not used to skinship because we often see each other.

"Why don't we enjoy this night together in the street of Seoul?" I said intertwining my hands with his. I see his eyes smile a little before he nodded.

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Park Jihoon

It's my first time escaping the company. I know it's worth it because my Guanlin is there, waiting for me. I smiled at my own thought.

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I see him standing below the light of a street lamp. He's height never fails to intimidate me. But when you see his face, you'll surely fall for him.

His gummy smile that I really like, showed the moment I called his name. I miss this boy so much. Everytime my rehearsals and photoshoots are draining me, I just think about him and it gets me through the day.

He's my strength. I will never let him go. Why am I even talking about letting him go?

We are currently admiring the lively street of Seoul. People are staring at us sometimes because we were holding hands, so what? Is it their first time seeing a gay couple?

"Baby, do you want to eat?" Guanlin turned to me and asked. I was about to say no when my tummy groaned. I'm still in diet, because they say I'm a pig. I get very insecure with it, my childhood isn't so nice to say too.

"Aww, baby! You should've said so earlier. Let's go to that chicken restaurant?" I nodded. Guanlin was running now, still holding my hands.

His childishness is what I'll always love. He makes sure I'm always enjoying, which makes me proud of him.

We're inside the chicken restaurant now. Guanlin is talking to the cashier, who was shamelesly giving him the flirty look. It's making my blood boil.

When Guanlin sat infront of me, I glared at the cashier who was following Guanlin's every move.

"Guanlin, can I have my kiss?" I pleaded, making puppy eyes at the moment. He looked astounded, I almost laughed. He's so innocent I love it.

"Are you sure?" I nodded many times. I remove my face mask and pouted.

"I'm waiting for my kiss, Guanlinie." I'm close to doing my aegyo. When he stood up to reach my face and kissed me. Our lips touching, eyes closed, our moment.

"I love you, Lai Guanlin." I said after the kiss. He smiled, his eyes almost closing, his dimples showing.

"I love you too, Park Jihoon." He leaned in when he said it. Almost whispered, because he was scared that someone would hear my name.

I reached for his hands while waiting for our order. After eating chicken, we went to the playground.

I was in the swing and Guanlin is pushing me.

"Who's childish now?" I heard him say. I laughed, "We are."

"Jihoon-ah~! I have something surprising to say." He was smiling for sure. His tone made it more easy to know.

"Hmm... What is it?" I asked looking at the stars. He stopped pushing me awhile ago. I felt him sit next to me in the second swing.

"I got accepted in Cube entertainment." I didn't know if my ears heard it right but...

"You're going to be an artist too?" I asked him. My eyes were huge as a saucer. He was looking at the stars when he nodded.

"Don't you think it's nice? My dreams of becoming a swaggy rapper is going to happen!" His excited state was making me feel nervous.

"Guanlin-ah, I don't know... If you become an artist, then our meet ups will be less." He turned to meet my eyes. Suddenly his eyes were sad.

"Oh..." He looked at his shoes. I felt guilt for making him sad.

"Guanlinie... Don't be sad. I'm happy you got accepted okay? Don't mind me." I stood infront of him and crouched. I held both of his hands.

"But baby, we'll meet less. And maybe even not. I'm sorry, it was Seonho's idea to audition." He was still looking down, not meeting my eyes. Like a guilty child who got caught stealing.

"Look at me Guanlin." He slowly followed my order, his lips in a small sad pout. His eyes shining a bit. I feel my heart break from the sight.

"Guanlin, you know I love you so much. I'm happy for you! I'll support you, like how you supported me when I was a trainee. We'll stay strong and will become stronger, because we're facing problems. It's not bad to be upset sometimes. I'm just worried for you okay? I know what trainees went through to be an idol. I just—" I was cut off when he pulled me for a hug. I heard him sniff.

"Jihoon, promise me we'll be together in this forever." He was crying, and it's breaking my heart from hearing him cry. I hugged him back, tighter.

"I promise Guanlinie. We'll be in this together forever. Saranghae."

"Thank you Jihoon. Wo ai ni."

That was the best night for the both of us.

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This will end soon! :((((( I'm so fcking sad my heart is breaking. I love this book😭💔 why does it have to end! I'll always say thank you for supporting this book and the author! ;) Ily guys😘💕