T/W : angst, fluff

im so sorry my unalived gremlinos, i've left you unfed for so long i suddenly felt like my writing was terrible compared to a lot of writers i read. anyhoo

also THANK YOU FOR 37K i ascended seeing that <33333 ik i keep saying it but you gremlinos are really wicked peeps

who is a little here? (i am) ive never met one irl before

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changbin let out a small groan, placing down the weights he had been exercising with for the past couple of hours. the rapper clenched and unclenched his fists, trying to relax his hands. 

he glanced over at chan and minho who had their hair hanging over their eyes, working out diligently taking water breaks every now and then.

changbin sighed and looked back at the weights. he had been there before his hyungs so maybe he did deserve a rest.

he washed his face and hands before walking back to the dorms. changbin trudged through the door feeling more tired than usual. 

"wait.." he mumbled to himself. something was off.

changbin walked around, checking all the rooms to see if anyone was there. the dorm was empty. that meant hyunjin wasn't home either. 

changbin pouted, falling face first onto the couch pillows. he hadn't seen hyunjin in a week, their schedules never lining up.

and when they did see each other, it was rushed greetings and maybe a tiny airborne kiss. yeah, they slept together at night, but they both woke up at different times leaving no time for them to speak to one another.

the curly haired boy huffed, crossing his arms around a pillow. he pulled himself up and went to take a nap in his own room.

but his brain would not shut off. it had made the amazing decision to pull out every fluffy, lovey dovey memory changbin had ever had with hyunjin and make him feel like shit.

changbin laid on his bed, grasping the pink duck plushie hyunjin gave him for his birthday the year they started dating. he held back tears as memories of going out, feeding each other, cuddling flooded his mind.

it had been so long since he had just a hug from his boyfriend. "hyunjin.." he whimpered. changbin sat up and wiped his tears.

the boy breathed heavily, trying to control how he felt. he didn't wanna be found crying like a fucking baby, all alone by one of his members.

changbin grabbed his phone and opening it. the first thing he saw was his wallpaper, hyunjin cuddling him and kissing his cheek.

"jin-jinnie.." changbin sobbed quietly, hating how uncontrollable he felt over himself. his fingers gripped the phone tighter, his emotions balling up inside him. hot tears brimmed in his eyes as his breaths sped up.

changbin needed hyunjin's arms around him, securing him and making him feel loved again.

he grabbed hyunjin's grey hoodie from the wardrobe and slipped it on, wiggling over to hyunjin's side of the bed. changbin closed his eyes, slowly breathing in his smell. it was almost as if he was really here.

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keys jangled in the lock of the door, alerting changbin. his eyes snapped open, and he grabbed his phone to check the time.

7:08 PM

7:08?!

did he really just knock out for three hours? how? when? more importantly, did time travel exist and is life a simulation?

he heard shuffling, probably a member taking off his shoes and jacket. changbin heard a small thud, meaning that someone fell. so it was a clumsy someone.

jisung? or hyunjin?

a smile spread across his face and he clambered out of bed, forgetting to wash his face of the tears, and burst into the living room.

on the other hand, hyunjin was on the floor struggling to take his shoes off, grunting and cursing quietly with each tug.

the dancer heard a door open and before he could comprehend anything, a mass fell on top of him, squeezing him tight as if there was no tomorrow.

changbin buried his face in hyunjin's neck, a satisfied smile resting on his previously frowny lips.

"binnie?" hyunjin exclaimed, his hands touching the person's face and arms to administer who it was. as his fingers reached a bicep, he knew exactly who it was.

hyunjin hugged him back, allowing changbin to mould his legs around his waist. "baby, i've missed you so much." he mumbled, stroking his hair.

"missed you too jinnie." changbin murmured, savouring this time. hyunjin pressed a tiny kiss to his neck, making changbin squirm.

"ee, that tickled jinnie!" changbin giggled, nuzzling his face in his chest. hyunjin smiled widely in happiness. it wasn't a lie when hyunjin would say that barely interacting with his lover had affected him.

in ways that he couldn't imagine.

changbin was always on his mind, his smiles, his to-die for laugh, his humor, the way he eats, his hair. the list was endless.

"let me see your beautiful face binnie." he whispered.

changbin felt heat rise to his face immediately, sitting straight to look at hyunjin.

hyunjin gasped, feigning unconsciousness for a second. "the beauty ..." he rasped, covering his eyes, "it's too much!" 

changbin laughed, pulling hyunjin towards him. the dancer cupped changbin's face and pressed kisses all over it, reaching anywhere he could.

"baby i don't know how i managed this long without seeing you." he said. changbin rolled his eyes and shuffled closer to hyunjin's face in his lap.

"me neither." changbin mumbled before leaning in for a sweet kiss. they let their lips sit against each others for a moment before hyunjin pulled away.

he squinted at changbin's cheek, tracing his thumb down it. hyunjin scanned his boyfriends face.

slightly puffy eyes, tear tracked cheeks, dishevelled hair.

changbin waited for moment before he realised what hyunjin was doing. he pushed his thumb off his face and spoke up before hyunjin could.

"jinnie, please don't worr-

"bubba how long were you crying for?" hyunjin asked, tears forming in his own eyes. he hated that he caused changbin to feel pain.

changbin grabbed ahold of hyunjin's hands, trying to distract him. "listen, i'm fine it-

hyunjin shushed the boy, standing up and scooping up changbin. (YEAH IK HE'S NOT LIGHT LETS JUST IMAGINE HYUNJIN HAS AMAZING AMOUNTS OF STRENGTH)

his slender legs moved fast towards their shared room, the dancer immediately getting into the bed and swarming around changbin.

the said boy, was kind of frozen, not knowing what to do. hyunjin clasped his hands around his cheeks and turned his head towards him. "binnie," he said, changbin gazing at him intently, "never, ever forget how much i love you."

those simple words struck a chord in changbin's already weakened heartstrings and he flung himself onto hyunjin, who had open arms.

"i-i," changbin sniffled back, "thank you jinnie."

hyunjin smiled, "lets watch a film." changbin nodded eagerly, sitting in hyunjin's lap. the couple just rested in each others arms, slowly but surely falling asleep to the Howl's Moving Castle soundtrack.