"What do you mean by that Sky?" James asked as he pulled his hand away from my face.

"You know what I mean." I sighed as I looked over at him, I found it hard to look him in the eyes so I resorted to looking as his shirt.

"Sky your talking crazy. You don't mean that." James said as he pushed my chin up to look at me.

"Whatever just take me home." I stated as I looked away from him and grabbed the seatbelt. I kept my eyes on the street in front of us as he closed the door. I know he wasn't happy with me but I honestly couldn't care right now.

"Is Blake home yet? I know he was supposed to be home before Christmas." James asked trying to get my mind on something else.

"No he isn't home yet and he isn't sure if he will make it back for Christmas he says that they think they might need him." I stated as he pulled up to my house.

"So your still alone at home all the time?" He asked putting the car in park.

"Ok you haven't been gone that long James. What its been 3 months? Why would things change that much? Of course I'm still alone except now you aren't around remember?" I stated as I pushed the door open.

"Sky?" He tried to speak as I slammed the door shut. I didn't want to hear it right now. I've dealt with more than enough people today. I've only had to deal with one stubborn person before Clyd and Clark, that was James, but he left so it just me and sometimes Blake. Oh I better not forget Bennie.

I pushed the front door open to be greeted by Bennie my big baby boy. He is the one thing that can make me smile when I done and he is the only one that has been there for me constantly.

"Hi Baby" I whispered as I sank down onto my knees. "Did you miss me?" I asked as I rubbed his back as he gave me a wild hug that involves a lot of me losing my balance.  

"Sky?" James asked from behind me. I groaned in annoyance just wanting some time alone with my baby.

"Just go home" I stated as calmly as I could. I turned around to see him standing a few feet away. "I just want to be alone." I said as I slammed the front door shut. I turned my body back to Bennie, I leaned against the closed door just trying to understand what all happened today.

I should have just kept my head down in the first place. If I hadn't looked up to see James with all his new friends I wouldn't have met Clark. If I hadn't met Clark then I wouldn't have had met Clyd or gone to there house, therefore not running into James.

God this is all my fault.

What am I going to do?