"When I was a kid, my parents fought a lot, like some parents do.

"My parents fight didn't end like most fights do.

"My mom was pretty violent with my father, and he was drunk that night....are you seeing where this is going?

"This guy suffered years under abuse from my Mother....he couldn't take it anymore....and finally snapped.

"In that fight he fought back for the first time. In that fight killed my mother.

"I also had a twin back then, did I mention her? She skipped school a lot, and even was expelled from the one where you and I met so you probably didn't know her.

"She and I....we saw the whole thing happen in our kitchen...we were really young Saihara.

"One thing led to another, my sister fought our dad to try and protect our Mom...she kept punching and clawing....

"And right before he did the final blow on my Mom...my sister acted as a shield and he killed her.

"For nothing. Because even knowing he killed her he still killed my mom.

"I panicked and ran to the closet to hide. And that was the worst mistake of my life.

"My dad locked me in there, and left me there all alone.

"I now know why...guess he didn't want to see me as he killed himself.

"So...there I was...alone in a closet...in the dark...while I just saw my family being murdered.

"And all I could do was scream from inside the closet for help.

"Took a few days for someone to finally call the cops, and they found me inside of the closet.

"I went to the hospital, got fixed for minor issues, my uncle moves into tje house and raises me for years, till recently, he had better things to do and left me to my own devices

"Now....I wish the story ended there. It doesn't.

"It should be obvious that event scarred me. Big time. And that's where my freak side is today, and why I have scars.

"I have psychosis Saihara, I see things that aren't real and I always think they are.

"I see my family...and that night replayed again and again, only much more graphic and gruesome..

"And I always end up back in the closet.

"The scars are from the many times those episodes broke me, and how many times I tried to escape from what I thought was the closet or things I broke or scratched myself with without realizing.

"Don't worry, I take medication for it so big episodes like that rarely happen
..instead I get minor ones and even then I notice them fairly quickly and become self aware that it isn't real.

"So....that's it Saihara, you wanted to know huh?

"That I'm going insane?"