"So did you have fun Shumai?" I  asked as we headed home. Saihara nodded "yeah I didn't want to get home this late though..." he mentioned. The sun was setting. Aww I really wanted to hang out more...oh well this was a good day off...

I nodded and lied "me to, I'll see you tomorrow Saihara chan!" I called and Saihara nodded waving me goodbye as he entered his house. Guess I got to go back to he** now...

I walked in the opposite direction in which me and Saihara were heading. I often did this just to procrastinate the fact I have to eventually go home.

I ended up at our small apartment and pick locked the way in. I had my keys stolen a week ago, that's how bad this whole area was. My head felt a little funny, good thing the apartment was clean at least. One less thing.

"You should've died"

I walked into the room to hear some groaning on the couch, aw no not again...

I walked over to the couch to see my mother wasted on it clutching a bottle of alcohol close to her "Kokichi....be a dear and go fetch Mom her purse..." I sighed.

"I thought you said you were going to quit drinking" she just glared at me "s-shut up...you don't u-understand *hic* your just a kid...this is grown up business...so don't be a a**hole to you Mom..." she said drunkenly.

It's no use trying to convince her otherwise when she gets like this...I sighed and walked over to grab my Mom's purse and just as I guessed was some more bottles of beer.

Honestly...what's the point of her even putting it in here...she knows I know...she never even leaves the house to do anything anyway...

"I promise Kokichi I will change!" I shook my head, can't believe I was stupid enough to believe that...Momota must have rubbed off on me...that idiot.

Ugh...I don't want to be anything like those cronies Saihara calls friends.

To be honest no one except Saihara in that class even likes me, much less tolerate. They only deal with me and let me come along to events such as karoke if I pay and if it convinces Saihara to go...

The times when he isn't around though...

"KOKICHI!" My Mom's scream snapped me out of my thoughts.

I walked over and handed my Mom a big glass of water and some tylonal. I sighed "Mom you can't keep doing this, we can't afford for you to do this with our money now that Dad's gone-"

*SMACK*

"SHUT UP YOU BRAT! I-I...he is coming b-back...and we *hic* can...afford this if you stopped slacking..." she said lazily and I gritted my teeth in anger.

"I WORK TWO JOBS MOM! YOU HAVEN'T EVEN WORKED IN OVER A YEAR WE CAN BARELY AFFORD TO LIVE HERE! WHEN WILL YOU OPEN YOUR EYES HE LEFT WHEN I WAS TEN IT'S BEEN EIGHT YEARS HE ISN'T COMING BACK-"

*SMACK*

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" My Mom screamed as she started hitting me and I covered my head.

D*mn it! Why did I push her so far?! I knew she would react like this if I poked her to much!

I...I just want her to stop...I just want my Mom back...

-/-/-

I looked jm the mirror. Nothing no bruises or anything and sighed going downstairs to see the empty living room. When I am eighteen I can go...far far away...and she will never find me...she can't...she isn't even supposed to now...

Until then...

I walked along the empty living room, the atmosphere was cold as I looked at the old beer stains that I still haven't gotten out. And the closet...

I really miss what it was like before Dad left...at least I still got Saihara...ooh maybe I should text him...

Ouma: Hey beloved! Want to talk, I'm really boooooooorrrrreeeeddd 😖

I hope he responds...until then...

I walked over to the bathroom and rolled up my sleeves, I really need to stop doing this...

But...it gets rid of the pain...and it makes her go away...