I suck in normal everyday conversations so this won't be good

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Monday, 14th 2019

I wake up to my alarm, wondering what time it is. My sleep schedule is strange, I fall asleep at midnight and wake up at 2-4 AM. School starts at 8 AM, so between the hours, I do my homework, watch Youtube videos, play Minecraft. At 7 AM, I start getting ready to go and around 7:20 AM I wake up my sister, get out of the house and walk to school. It's the same routine every single day.

Maybe today will be different.

No, what am I thinking?
Nothing's gonna change.
It never does.

What should I do after school?
I'll probably play Minecraft.

I walk intro the school and head to the lockers to get my stuff, zoning out on my way. I broke out of it when I suddenly bumped intro somebody.

I feel pain on my side but decided to ignore it, knowing it's from this midnight's self harm. I haven't done it in a while, but got back intro the habit.

Looking up, I realised I bumped intro Darryl.

I'm not friends with him or anything like that, I only know him because he's in the students' council.
"Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry!" Darryl said while helping me up.
"It's okay, I wasn't paying attention." I anwsered and started walking away.

He went after me which was kind of unusual for me, but typical for him. Darryl always kept a good reputation - he made as much friends as possible so he doesn't have a lot of enemies.
"I haven't really seen you before. Are you new? What's your name?"

Bruh moment.

"I'm Zak and I've been here for a year, so I'm not really that new."
I don't have anything else to say, just like usual.

Even asking people about what grade they're in or their age seems weird to me. Back in middle and elementary school, I was in a class with people that were also a bit socially awkward, which obviously affected me too. Girls would be against boys and the other way around. My friend once told her friends that she has a crush on me, but they never kept her secret. That made us both awkward around each other, as whenever we'd talk, the girls would say that we were in love and stuff like that. It was happening even after rejecting her. She completely accepted it, but the classmates wouldn't stop trying to change my mind. They still continued bugging us.

Enough about these years, back to the conversation.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't realize. I'm Darryl!" he said cheerfully.
I have nothing to say, I'm too socially awkward for this, so I stand there, thinking of something to say, when suddenly the bell rang. I run to my lockers, luckily he doesn't follow me. After quickly getting my stuff I run towards my classroom, forgetting I have my hoodie on and so, when I walked intro the class, I get a warning from the teacher.

After the lesson (Who wants to read about class-)

I walk out of the room and go back to the lockers to get the books for the next lesson. While searching for them, somebody grabs my shoulders and I hear a low "boo" which makes me slighty jump.

I immediately realize who it is, nobody else talks to me for no reason at all. He starts laughing, so do I. "Hey Darryl!" I say when we finally stop. I really didn't expect anybody to talk to me. We awkwardly stand in silence for a moment.
"Uhh... What was your name again?" I chuckled at his question, of course he'd forget, he knows too much people. "It's Zak." "Alright then, let's hope I don't forget again. How are you, Zak?" "Bad as usual, you?" his face changes to a confused expression for a couple seconds.
"Why bad? Did something happen?"
"Nope, nothing. What about you?" Every day is bad for me, I sit alone all the time so it's boring as hell.
"I'm good. Also, are you going to that English contest? If so, it's on the 7th lesson in class 22." he tells me me.
"Yeah, I'm in it. I probably won't get any good scores but decided to try anyway."
"Hey, don't say that! I'm sure you'll do great."
I like it when people give me compliments or something similiar, but I never know how to react to them so most of the time, I deny them.

"Yeah, sure."
He isn't convinced with these words because, obviously, they are sarcastic.

There's an awkward silence for a moment, neither of us know what to say so I just continue searching through my locker. I assume he's gone, since I don't hear anything more, so I walk backwards but bump intro Darryl again. I quickly regain my balance, by that time he stands up with a confused smile.

"How did you forget I'm here?" 

"I thought you walked away."

"Why would I?"

I could tell you a million reasons why.

I stand there for a moment, pretending to think of a response.

"I don't even know." 

That made him laugh, the same with me.

~Timeskip~

I'm finally home and the first thing I do is go to my room. I turn on my laptop and start Minecraft, joining my server.
It's not popular or anything even close to that, but some people play on it, which I honestly don't understand at all.
Why would you play on a server that barely has any players? What's the point?
It'll probably be gone sooner or later anyway.

I leave the server open, going to the kitchen to get cereal and come back a bit later.

I look at the screen and freeze, my jaw drops. A staff member was sudoing me to say stuff that made people leave at the sight of it. I shut down the server, not knowing what else to do. There it was, gone. Not opening it ever again.

A moment later I find myself scrolling down Twitter. Then, I get the idea to apply for staff on some servers since mine doesn't exist anymore. First was Hypixel, which obviously wouldn't work but I still decided to apply. Continuing to search, I see a weird name.

Who would name their server MunchyMC?

This server is probably a joke. Who would use that title for their Minecraft server?
I'll still apply for staff here, why not?

A few minutes later, teamspeak (this isn't like the actual applying because y e s)

"Hello?" I hear a voice I immediatelly recognize. "Hi!" I say cheerfully, deciding to record this and opening my OBS.
"So I've seen that you applied for staff here, right?"

He didn't mention anything about me, I don't think he recognizes my voice. I could troll him for a bit!

"Yeah, quick question. Is this server a joke? No offence, I'm just wondering because of the name."
"Oh, it's alright, I hear this question pretty often. It's not a joke. Okay, first question..."

After a bit of rage and somehow getting mod, we say our goodbyes and I leave TeamSpeak, deciding to play a random singleplayer server. After an hour or two, I lay down and turn on my phone.

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I suddenly wake up to my alarm ringing. Of course I fell asleep while using my phone...

What was the last thing I did before sleeping?

I turn on my phone, squinting my eyes at the bright screen.

3:00 AM.

Just like always, I was looking at random Tweets. I get up, realizing there's another test today.

5:00 AM

I find myself watching Youtube videos again. I remember that almost all my scrapes have healed, which leads my thoughts to everything that's recently been happening in school.

On one of our lessons, after a test, the teacher called me and a girl and told us everything about the math contest that'll be in a few days. I signed up for almost all the contests for no reason. After all that, she looked at me, asking,

"Zak, are you okay? You look thinner."

She simply asks me that in front of the entire class. I didn't even realize they were laughing to each other at first, I just didn't think it was visible at all.

I've been eating less, but only at school, just to save money. I didn't even know it affected me, I eat normally when I'm home.

If she realized it, they probably would too, sooner or later. Oh wait, they don't even care.

"Yeah, I'm fine!" I say in my usual cheerful tone, heading back to my seat. That's when I saw how my class was talking to each other, looking at me and occasionally laughing quietly.

Of course, what else could I expect? They called me a fattie for an entire year, maybe that's one of the causes. Simple, yet effective.

Nobody understands. None of it is their fault through, it's not that noticeable, right?

...Right?

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pls correct me with grammar mistakes

(1469 words without this, I edited it a little bit-)