(06/07/15)

Michael POV

I had been crushing on Luke since forever. Straight from the first time I had seen him I had been completely infatuated. I believed that it really truly was love at first sight. But like they say "Love at first sight isn't real love. It's an attraction." But I didn't believe that to be true at all. I believed Luke was my forever. But forever never started.

Things begin & they end. But they can't progress if you don't take a chance. So I took a chance. I tried. I stepped out of my comfort zone just to see if I could begin my forever. I expected it but all I felt was heartbreak.

But everyone knows you use your heart to project false images. What I felt, was a pain like no other, one I'd never felt before. Through all the bad things in life I have went through that was definitely the worst. Because I had this reality that I lived in. One where it would've turned out picture perfect. A cliché happy, no problems life. Just like in the movies.

Like the cute little love story of Prince Edwards & Wallis Simpson.

Luke was supposed to be the Prince Edward to my Wallis Simpson. He was supposed to leave Chealsea for me like Wallis Simpson did her husband for the prince. & he was supposed to leave his popularity, reputation, & everything else behind like Prince Edward left the throne for Wallis Simpson.

But that didn't happen.

When he said all that that day I was caught off guard. I was surprised. I didn't know how it had actually happened. It was like when your in a warm comfortable bed asleep, then suddenly freezing water is thrown all over your body. Your unexpected & unprepared for the shock that it gives you.

That's how I felt. It was like I had thought about that moment for so, so long that when it didn't happen I had no idea what to do. I had imagined he'd say yes for so long that it was unexpected when he said no. Nowhere in my imagination had he said no.

I didn't prepare myself for the rejection I felt. I had no Plan B. I was a deer caught in the lights of an oncoming bus. & when he kissed Chealsea that was the impact of what was happening. It all just came crashing down.

I didn't get the numbness. I felt so many things that I couldn't even express my emotions, till there was only one thing I could feel. Heartbreak. But as a wise Oscar Wilde once said "The heart was made to be broken." & it is. I just was unprepared for the inevitable impact.

It took forever for me to talk myself into doing that, choosing a song, & finally get the courage to do that. All just to get laughed at. Like all I was was just a dumb clown. Doing it for all the people's entertainment.

I remember the first time I ever seen Luke. It was in ninth grade. It was two & a half months into the school year when he came. His parents, him, & his best friend Ashton had just moved here from Melbourne.

He walked in & everyone was wondering about him, asking for his name. He just smiled as Ashton answered "Trouble" I remember everything about that day. He was wearing a maroon shirt, his blonde hair quaffed high, black skinny jeans just like mine. (Exept he wore them better.) & my favorite thing, a little neon green lip ring in.

I thought he was the best looking man I had ever been near. He just had the popular look to him. & he wasn't settling for anything less than being at the top. In a week he had already gotten a secured seat at the popular table, a high placing on the swim team, & girls hanging off him left & right.

He didn't have a girlfriend at the time. Every day for three months I wished he'd just walk up to me & ask me out, sweep me off my feet. Enter in queen bitch. She came in three months after three months of Luke being a single pringle & stole him away from me, like he was a pair of cheap shoes.

My hope faltered but didn't diminish. I hoped every day he'd break up with her. One month after Luke & Chealsea started dating he seen me staring at him in class. "Uhm creepy." He had said before he turned back around in his seat next to Ashton. After seeing that Chealsea made it her mission to make my life worse.

By of course, getting Luke to bully me. That really was the only cliche thing about the situation. The gay loser falling in love with his straight popular bully. She'd make a snide or sarcastic comments every time I even walked by her when Luke was around.

Soon enough Luke caught on. Every time he seen me he'd have something to say. About any & every thing about me. But I thought it was okay, because I thought once he got to know me more that he'd fall for me. Everyone plays follow the popular people though, so the bullying I had before I knew Luke tripled.

It was worth it though. I had told myself that so many times. It basically came to be my motto. Fast forward eight months. New school year. Same school life. Being bullied & sitting in my classes zoning in & out constantly.

My second week back the new English teacher Greendale high had just hired ,Mrs.Malik, gave us an assignment. To get to know your assigned partner better. & when she called Luke & I out to be paired I was internally thanking whatever God there was helping me.

I thought it was finally my chance to show Luke who I really was & replace that slut he called a girlfriend.. As the weeks that we spent together passed by the crush I had on him escalated. Little did I know I went so high up just to be shoved hard off cloud nine.

I poured out all my emotions to him that day. & he just swept them aside. But I guess it's my fault for wearing my heart on my sleeve.

(A.N Finally updated again. Dedicated to @storiesofgay0 because she just joined WATTPAD & she's my irl friend aaaayyye. #Luke_is_a_asshole if you liked this chapter. Damn this was over a thousand words that's good for me.)