Y/N couldn't see for tears, she was furious with herself for getting so upset because she was supposed to be getting better and she didn't want to be that girl.

The type that ran away when things got too tough, the type who allowed her emotions to get the better of her.

She wanted to be strong.

She wanted to stand her ground.

Why did this have to happen? She was so happy, things were finally starting to improve but then everything came crashing down around her.....now she was in freefall.

"Y/N! Y/N please stop! Wait!"

The concerned voice, somewhat familiar called out to her but she couldn't stop.

She didn't feel safe here.

She wanted to go home.

How did she end up back at square one? This was the kind of shit she used to do after the accident, before meeting Taehyung.

She should've known this wouldn't last, that eventually she would do something to fuck it up.

"Y/N!" There was that voice again yet she didn't stop, pushing herself towards home....towards safety and everything she's used to.

There was a strong grip on her forearm seconds later, fingers curling around her wrist and suddenly she was spun around.

"Stop running, just let it out okay."

It was Jungkook....Jungkook who had chased after her and she did exactly what he advised.

She let it out.

All the pain.

All the doubts and insecurities.

Jungkook didn't say a word, just wrapped his arms around her as she sobbed against his shirt.

Why didn't Taehyung come after her?

Wasn't she worth it?

Didn't he feel guilty?

Was he so willing to let her go?

This only caused the lump in her throat to constrict, heart aching.

~

"How far is your place from here?" Jungkook finally spoke once her sobs subsided.

"Ten minute drive, maybe twenty minute walk." Her voice trembled and Jungkook felt his heart ache.

"Hey." He whispered, voice as gentle as he could make it as he pulled back. "Take a breath okay? Breathe in slowly through your nose, out through your mouth."

Y/N's eyes were swollen, tears still escaping and Jungkook was so fucking sad.

She didn't deserve this.

The two just met but from what he already knew about her she seemed to be such a genuinely sweet person, she didn't deserve to be treated like that.

Jungkook loved Taehyung with his entire heart, the older male was like a brother to him but he couldn't condone his actions this time.

"I can't drive because I've had one too many bottles of Soju but we can walk okay?" He smiled, thumbs wiping away her tears as she gave a nod.

"You don't have to come with me Jungkook, Taehyung is upset too and he's your friend."

Jungkook marvelled at the woman beside him, she was the one wronged in this situation yet she was still worrying about Taehyung.

"I'm not going anywhere but with you Y/N, Taehyung has enough people with him right now and there's absolutely no way I'm leaving you alone." Jungkook offered his arm, smiling when Y/N slid her own around it.

"I used to have panic attacks too, on occasion when things get really bad I still do." Jungkook broke the silence as the two walked away from Taehyung's apartment.

"How did you know I was having a panic attack?" Y/N's voice was soft, slight tremble to it still which made Jungkook mad because the poor girl had tried so hard to start recovering from what Taehyung had told them.

Now Taehyung had messed it up....what a fucking idiot.

Yet deep down Jungkook had his suspicions as to what happened, didn't justify the outburst but certainly made it more understandable and hopefully forgiveable.

"The frantic look in your eyes, erratic breathing and trembling extremities are a dead giveaway plus when you've suffered with them yourself it makes it easier to recognise."

~

Jungkook seemed so confident, he certainly didn't seem the type to suffer with his anxiety.

You never can really judge a book by the cover.

Maybe he was just good at hiding it.

Jungkook seemed to sense her shock over the revelation.

"I was about ten when they started, it was just after my parents got divorced. I don't really know what started them, maybe it was the constant arguments or how my dad seemed to take everything out on me after my mother left. I guess over time I got better at controlling them, hiding them from people too. I discovered the best way to deal with them when I started college, not exactly the healthiest but I don't care what other people think." Jungkook stopped, spotting the park opposite.

"Y/N would you like to share a joint with me?" Jungkook probably shouldn't get her involved with his bad habit but one wouldn't hurt, she definitely needed something to help calm the anxiety.

~

Y/N should say no, it wasn't the best of habits to get herself involved with.

Yet she needed something.

Everything still ached.

She couldn't stop thinking about what happened, how Taehyung had spoken to her.

How he didn't come after her.

This was probably the end for them.

"Yes, would love to." Y/N managed to reply, eyes filling with tears again as Jungkook took her hand.

"I'm really sorry about your parents too, you didn't deserve to go through something like that." She added as the two entered the park, Jungkook leading her to a bench.

"It's okay Y/N, I'm somewhat over it now." He sat down, patting the space beside him.

"You sure we should be doing this outside?" Y/N sat down, eyes darting around the empty park.

"It's fun to live dangerously huh?" He smirked, tone playful as he opened his trusty tin and pulled out the remedy to his own demons.

"One I made earlier." He chuckled, sparking up and taking a long drag.

The two sat in silence for several minutes, only breaking it when Y/N took her first drag and proceeded to cough and mutter a 'how do you smoke this shit?' To which Jungkook laughed, shrugging in response. "I've been doing it for so long, comes naturally as breathing now."

Y/N still aches....still feels so fucking sad but it doesn't feel as intense now, it feels likes she's floating on the periphery.

It's only temporary, a momentary reprieve.

The pain will be back....the sadness.

It's Jungkook who finally breaks the silence, seems like they basked in it for an eternity.

"I'm sorry for how Taehyung spoke to you, it was so wrong of him. I love him, he's a good guy but he's got issues and like me he manages to hide them really fucking well. I know he told you about his brother, it doesn't take a genius to see he's not got over it. In all honesty I don't think he ever gave himself a proper chance to grieve, he just refused to acknowledge Jin was dead. Taehyung isn't perfect Y/N, all this time he's been helping you to heal and in your own way since finding out about his brother I'm fully aware that you've been trying to do the same for him." Jungkook paused, eyes filled with sadness.

"There's no such thing as perfect Y/N, we both know this. Taehyung has tried so hard to make you think he's got no flaws....that he's perfect for you but deep down just like everyone else he struggles. I think tonight you scared him, you know how he lost Jin. Death terrifies him, losing those he cares about. We all have our own kryptonite Y/N, mine is raised voices and people blaming me for something beyond my control...putting pressure on me to make their shitty reality better. Taehyung's kryptonite is the fear of death...of all the things that can take someone away from him, tonight those demons were too loud and suffocating."

This is why Taehyung lost control.

Jungkook doesn't say this out loud but Y/N already knows.

Jungkook was right....we all have our own kryptonite.

So later that night after Jungkook walks her back home she sends a message to Taehyung.

To Taehyung

I don't need to forgive you....just need to know you're still in this with me.

I've still got my demons to cover.

You've still got yours to check off a list.

Please come back to me.

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