a/n: this chapter contains rape and violence. reader discretion is advised ⚠

and lastly, it's all fictional, keep that in mind !

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"you were with that jungkook, weren't you?"

"what?" Taehyung didn't know how to respond to that. there were many questions he had in his blustery head. the first one being, how the hell bogum figured out he was with jungkook, his damn neighbor? second being, why did he sound so mad about it?

by all means, bogum can feel jealous that his husband was out at night with another man, taehyung could understand that but the way bogum asked him that question, it seemed like bogum was about to explode, appearing as if he was lamenting on to ever let his husband be meet their neighbor. as if bogum was scared, scared to lose taehyung to jungkook. there was desperation, anger, fear, and regret in his voice.

taehyung knows his husband all too well. there's no way he could misinterpret the tone bogum is all so suddenly using.

just a few minutes ago, bogum sounded so hopeful and apologetic. but now on the mention of a certain raven head named jungkook, he's shaking like he has already lost everything.

sounds skeptical if you ask taehyung.

"what do you mean—"

"I ASKED IF YOU WERE WITH THAT FUCKING JUNGKOOK!" bogum hollered, kicking the table that was near his legs so hard it flipped over.

taehyung flinched and drew back from seeing bogum getting so tempestuous.

there were many times taehyung has seen bogum being recklessly violent and enraged, but trust him when he says it's the first time park bogum has ever lost control of himself like that.

"h-hey calm down—"

bogum rushed to the brunette, grabbing him by the arms, shaking him vigorously which made taehyung yelp and squirm under his pressure.  "I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU, GOD DAMN IT TAE! STAY AWAY FROM HIM! PLEASE!"

"l-let go! you're hurting me!"

"AM I NOT ENOUGH? AM I THAT BAD THAT YOU HAVE TO GO TO THAT ASSHOLE? HUH? TELL ME!" the raging male shook taehyung on his feet.

taehyung started chewing on his lower lip and his eyes welled up with tears. with each second passing by, it became difficult to hold it in so eventually the brunette started to cry, tears streaming down his face.

"p-please you're hurting m-me. . . stop. . . please st-stop" taehyung sobbed aloud, but it didn't work on bogum, his senses were already long gone.

"YOU LIKE HIS DICK? IS THAT IT?" taehyung enlarged his tearful eyes from his own husband's, the man he has loved all these years words.

"what. . . what are you. . ." taehyung didn't know what to say, he was eventually left to be numb. he wasn't sure if his heart was beating at the moment. everything felt distorting while he watched bogum's infuriated face, trying to comprehend the words he said.

seeing the brunette with zero replies bogum scoffed. tears damped his reddend face as he smirked bitterly, "I'LL GIVE YOU WHAT YOU LIKE THEN!"

it was all too fast for taehyung to take in. gives just enough time for bogum to grab the brunette's wrist harshly before he dragged the male upstairs into their room.

"let me go! what are you doing!" taehyung struggled against bogum, trying to pull back his hand but bogum's grip was stronger than ever, the brunette didn't even imagine he can have such strength.

just what did he do to make bogum this mad?

and before he knew, bogum threw him on the bed. taehyung winced from the sudden impact, but bogum didn't care about that anymore. he hovered over the scared male, unbuckling his belt while doing so. taehyung's eyes enlarged as he tried to escape from the raging man but bogum grabbed his ankles at the right time and caged the brunette underneath him.

hurriedly he lowered his pants and boxers before taking out his length that made taehyung enlarge his eyes from fear.

and then he pulled down taehyung's pants; boxers coming off right after as he flipped over the frightened man, exposing his ass. "this belongs to me. you belong to me. . ." caressing the skin bogum smiled to himself, tears rolling down when he did so.

he looked crazy.

taehyung was scared. so fucking scared. he didn't want to do this right now, he didn't give consent to it. but would his husband listen to him?

"bogum-ah, i'm— i'm sorry. . . please i'm begging you!" taehyung tried to lift himself but bogum had his one hand wrapped around his neck to keep him in place. therefore, he had no other choice but to plead and cry.

bogum looked at him, watching how taehyung buried his face in the bedsheets and cried out his heart and soul. usually, it would have snapped back the angry male to reality but right now, it only flamed his insides.

"y-you can do it with him. . . but not with me? am i dirty tae?" bogum squeezed taehyung's asscheek harshly making the brunette cry in pain. he didn't even know why bogum was accusing him of something so cheap and not true. is that what bogum thinks of him now? does he have no trust in him anymore?

"I DIDN'T DO IT WITH ANYONE! LAST NIGHT I WAS WITH HIM, YES! BUT NOTHING HAPPENED BETWEEN US! SO FUCKING STOP! I DON'T WANT THIS!" taehyung screamed with everything in him, hoping that'll make bogum stop,

but tragically it made things worse.

"so now you're lying to me? do i look dumb to you?" bogum's voice trembled as he smirked bitterly, "IT'S SO CLEAR YOU AND THAT BASTARD FUCKED! IF NOT THEN WHY IS HE ALWAYS WITH YOU? WHY!"

it was hard to tell if bogum was even willing to listen to him. taehyung wondered where did he even get such vulgar ideas from? even if he was with jungkook, it doesn't mean they slept together. jumping to such conclusions when bogum barely knows jungkook seemed utter bullshit to him.

taehyung was riled, disappointed and anguished by such accusations. but it didn't mean he will not say anything against it. however, when he tried to, it didn't help much.

"WE DIDN'T—" taehyung's voice hitched in his throat when bogum shoved his dick inside him without any warning or preparation.

"AH! NO! THAT HURTS!" taehyung cried out, scratching the man's other hand that was next to his head but bogum didn't budge even in the slightest.

"i'll fuck you real good baby. . . so don't go to him, please?!" whispering into taehyung's ears, bogum pounded inside him so mercilessly that at some point taehyung started to bleed a little.

but even then he didn't stop.

"you are mine. he should know that for better" bogum hissed, pulling out before slamming himself inside the brunette who shrieked from the sudden thrust.

he was hating it so much that at that moment taehyung wanted to die.

"stop. . . s-stop. . . it hurts. . ." he choked and since bogum had his hand wrapped around his neck, it also was hard to breathe.

but he never stopped.

taehyung didn't even know when he stopped his pleadings, soft sobs will tumble out of his swollen lips but it wasn't even under his control.

at some point, he couldn't feel his lower part as his cold-blooded husband thrusted in and out of him as if he was just a filthy hole and nothing else.

what happened to the love they shared all these years? what happened to the oath they took during their wedding that they'll never hurt each other?

guess, everything was a lie.

"i love you, i love you so much" bogum kissed the back of taehyung's head while still ramming his insides. not even using a condom as he cummed inside the numb male, not stopping even then as he fucked taehyung without any mercy.

taehyung didn't even shudder nor did he react to anything. perhaps this was a dream and if he sleeps now, he'll wake up to a reality where bogum and he is truly happy.

so with that stupid hope in his heart, taehyung closed his teary swollen eyes, falling asleep or more like unconscious underneath the man he didn't recognize anymore.

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it wasn't a dream.

tragically everything that happened was very much real.

taehyung realized it when he woke up next to a sleeping male, one hand around him tightly that the brunette found it difficult to get out of his grasp.

his lower part was aching so bad that taehyung is afraid he might fall severely sick within the next few days. not that it matters anymore.

in that state with bogum hugging his waist so firmly; taehyung didn't want to get up at first but when he felt the stickiness between his legs, it made him nauseated.

he felt so so dirty.

and so without even having any strength in his lower half, taehyung with much difficulty got himself out of the sleeping male's grasp. once he tried to stand he nearly fell but gripping the bed frame he managed to somewhat stand before sluggishly walking towards the bathroom.

turning on the shower taehyung slid down against the tiled wall, hitting the wet floor taehyung grimaced as he entered his fingers inside him, squelching out the white substance that didn't mix with the water, making it hard for him to look at the floor. it was excruciating to look at the nasty stuff that was coming out of his own body. it reminded him of how dirty and pathetic he is now.

soon taehyung was crying, tears mixing with the water as he tried to get every bit of bogum's cum out of his body. never did in his life he imagined, doing it with his own husband would feel this disgusting and painful.

you're dirty now

the little voice inside his head giggled.

you can't even put up a fight, how pathetic

he shook his head, covering his ears with his hands he shook his head aggressively.

"that's not true..."

it's not bogum's fault, it's all your fault to be so fragile! how saint!

"s-shut up!" he cried out, putting his head in between his trembling knees taehyung sobbed.

no human is as filthy as you kim taehyung!

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" taehyung shouted, lips and entire body shivering so terribly but he couldn't tell if it was because of the cold water that poured on his hot body or was it because he was scared of that little voice in his head because it seemed to tell the truth.

the water running down was the only source of sound coming from the bathroom as taehyung leaned against the wall, staring at nowhere in particular with his ever-so-emotionless eyes. his lips parted as he tried to breathe but couldn't.

his chest felt so heavy.

he wondered was it really his fault bogum acted like that? did he push the man to his limits that he became so animalistic?

but then again, taehyung knew very well he did nothing wrong. if anything, he concealed his desires for jeon jungkook very well. from everyone including himself.

he tried to be a good husband. he tried to be loyal to his partner but his partner didn't seem to care.

all bogum ever did was blame him, and have his way with him when he clearly wasn't okay with it.

bogum hurts him.

but,

will jungkook do the same?

"he doesn't love you tae hyung. if he did, then he wouldn't hurt you. because i would never hurt the one i love— i would never hurt you"

taehyung was suddenly reminded of those words. turns out,

jungkook was actually right.

bogum doesn't love him. not anymore at least. after all, he hurt him so bad that it physically pains taehyung. how can this be love?

but then, will jungkook treat him right?

will jungkook really not hurt him?

does jungkook actually like him?

love is a strong word. but it held no worth to the brunette after getting so badly hurt by the one he believed will not even make him cry. tragic to say, his trust was broken.

taehyung had no strength to look for love again. he isn't even sure if he loves bogum anymore. he was already falling out of love and just when taehyung was hanging by a thread, to try his best to keep loving his husband, bogum ended it with his own hands.

however taehyung was sure, he felt some kind of way for the raven head. if not, why is he thinking about him while being at his lowest?

maybe taehyung finally had lost his mind. but he doesn't care anymore.

to hell with sanity.

he needs to find jungkook.

after all,

taehyung has finally realized he really needs jungkook.

he craves him.

and only him.

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i know that was painful to read. it was ten times painful for me to write it...

but after such a bitter chapter, now the real story starts. it'll be so worth it, trust me ;)