"How are you feeling?" Jungkook asked you.

"Honestly, I don't know" you rubbed your eyes before looking back at him.

"Why? What's wrong?" Jungkook stroke your cheek.

His tone was calm but inside he was dying. Just the thought of you regretting what happened just mInutes ago made his heart clench.

"Nothing, is just that I'm overwhelmed a bit"you gave him half a smile "I didn't expect seeing you here, in my apartment" you looked around "And I certantly didn't expect that to happen at all" you glanced at the couch you were sitting on, making the both of you chuckle.

"To be honest, I didn't expect it either" Jungkook rested both his arms on the back rest, relaxing into the fabric of the couch and spreading his legs wide apart. He sighed but it was a sigh of peace, of calmness.

He couldn't remember when was the last time he felt that way.

You observed his profile; he looked ethereal. His eyes were tired but they glistened. His cheeks were pink and his hair ruffled. And he had that half smile he would always have that you somehow forgot over the years.

"You look good" you smiled at him, passing your fingers through his hair. "I like what you did with the hair" you chuckled looking at his short haircut "It so unlike you".

"You like it?" Jungkook touched his hair, trying to hide his shy smile. " I wanted to change something".

You nodded as your smile faded away. "How have you been? How's everyone?".

"Good. Same old same old. Hoseok misses you. You should probably give him a call. The others are fine; everyone is mostly being busy with something. I don't talk to Jin or Jimin. Or rather, they don't talk to me".

You squinted your eyes, feeling his pain. "I'm so sorry Jungkook".

"Eh, its not that big of a deal" he shook his hand, trying to conceal how he really felt about the topic but you knew him; you knew how much he loved those guys. Hearing that he wasn't on good terms with them broke your heart.

"How's Tae?" you asked, leaning on the palm your hand.

"From what I've heard not good. All that he cares about now are the clubs, the girls and the drinks" Jungkook bit his lip "The others are trying to help him but he doesn't want to hear it".

"That's...just..." you twisted your lips and shut your eyes.

You knew exactly what Taehyung was going through. You were living it every day.

"Yeah...I know" Jungkook said.

"And how are you?" you asked Jungkook, changing the topic.

"Now that I'm with you I'm great" Jungkook dragged you closer to him, making you face each other.

"Jungkook..." you chuckled when his breath tickled you behind your ear as he kissed you there.

"We can't be together" you said.

"Why not?" he kept kissing you down your neck.

"Because..." you lightly pushed him off with an amused smile seeing that he wouldn't back away from kissing you. He was insatiable.

"...I have a life here. I've moved on" you looked him in the eyes.

"What does that mean? Do you have a boyfriend or something?" Jungkook chuckled at the question.

"Yes. I mean no. Well...sort of" you stumbled upon words. As soon as Jungkook heard you say that his expression changed and his body stiffened. Not again.

"It's just some guy that I've been going on a couple of dates with this past month. Nothing official, nothing serious".

"Oh so you've been going on dates here?" Jungkook's tone was curious but bitterness and jealousy came through.

"I only started recently. I've been trying to move on so hard from everything an everyone. From you" your voice trembled " So I've been forcing myself to build a life here and actually met this guy. He's a very nice guy".

"Fuck that!" Jungkook uttered out "Y/n, I want you to be mine" he grabbed your hands " I've been through hell this past year. We have been through so much to not be together now" he begged you with his eyes " I know you love me as much as I love you so what's the problem?" he cupped your cheeks.

"Its not that simple Jungkook. I do love you. I will always love you" you placed the palm of your hand on his, slowly dragging it away from your face "but being with you, even now, brings back memories that I don't want to relive. Just looking at you pains me so much" your lower lip trembeled.

"And what about the good stuff? What about everything that was jenuine and pure between us?" Jungkook asked "Wasn't that worth something? What was the point of everything we've been through, hm?".

"I-".

"What was the point of me loving you, you loving me?" he cut you off " Of us going against everything and everyone just to be together, of us hurting Taehyung and the people we love? Y/n..." he leaned in "...if we let this go then everything would've been for nothing" he grabbed your hands and brought them to his lips, kissing you softly.

"You have no idea what I've been through" you retracted your hands away from him " You have no idea how much shit I put up with. And it started way back before I got pregnant".

"And I haven't?" Jungkook asked "both of us did questionable things and hurt each other but we always came back to one another. Despite everything." He bit his lower lip " you were ready to be with me".

"And then you hurt me" your expression full of both sadness and anger.

"And I'll never get over that" Jungkook's eyes narrowed "but then I watched you get pregnant with another guy. And I didn't know which hurt more; the fact that you were back with him, having a child with him or the fact that I wasn't the one" he remembered.

"Don't mention that" you threatened him " I went through hell back then" you twisted your lips " but despite of everything I was happy that I was going to be a mother. I couldn't wait to be a mother, to finally have something to bring light in my life" you swallowed down the knot in your throat, repressing your tears " and then it happened. The only good thing in my life got taken away from me" your voice quivered " You have no idea what it was like; to wake up in that hospital, barely hanging to my life as the doctors told me that my baby's heart stopped beating" you wiped your tears away " that I had to give birth to my dead son" you shook your head, fighting for the tears to stop running down "So no, I wont apologize for wanting to run away from all of that. From wanting to start again far from those memories that haunt me to this day. I can't Jungkook...I just can't".

"Okay..." Jungkook nodded, his expression sturdy "So what happens now?".

"Now" you inhaled deeply, trying to recompose yourself as you wiped your tears away "now you need to rest. You didn't have a good night's sleep in two days. I'll show you where the bathroom is so you can take a shower and in the meantime I'll cook us something to eat." You stood up " And after I'll give you some fresh sheets to put on this couch so you can rest till tomorrow. And then we'll see".

You escorted Jungkook to the bathroom, showing him the shower and where you kept your fresh towels and new toothbrushes.

"Are you sure you're wont be coming with me in there?" Jungkook smirked and intertwined his fingers with yours, bringing a smile to your face.

"I won't. But nice try" you closed the door behind you, leaving him to freshen up. In the meantime you cooked some pasta for you guys.

"What ere we eating" Jungkook walked towards the kitchen with nothing but his boxers on, rubbing his hands together. He hadn't had anything to eat since the flight. He was famished.

"Why are you naked?" you chuckled, mixing the pasta with the sauce you made.

"I can't wear my clothes. They're still damp from the rain" he explained himself.

"Well I can't let you roam around here like that. I'll find something for you to wear" you left the pasta on the stove and went to the bedroom. Jungkook followed you.

"Why? Afraid that you'll give in?" his smirk was suggestive.

"Actually yeah" you smiled " Here" you rummaged through your wardrobe "These are yours anyway. They will fit you. I'll wash your clothes and they'll be ready for tomorrow" you threw him a pair of shorts and a hoodie. His shorts and his hoodie. The ones that he borrowed you a long time ago. When you were still unaware of the feelings you had for each other.

"I can't believe you kept these" Jungkook played with the clothes in his hands.

"Of course I kept them" you said " do you remember when you gave them to me? When was that?".

"Sure" Jungkook smiled looking at the clothes " you came to my house. We were supposed to cook some dinner but ended up making a mess instead" he laughed " We needed a shower so bad, I gave you something to wear" he brought them to his nose " they smell like you" he said, making you shy all of a sudden.

"Should we go eat?" you asked, changing the topic.

After you ate your dinner, you got ready for bed. You gave Jungkook sheets for the couch and after saying goodnight to him, you went to your room.

That night you couldn't sleep.

Not when you knew that Jungkook was in the other room.

Your heart was beating so fast, you felt tingles spread to your limbs. You were thrilled that he was there. Couldn't contain your excitement. A part of you wished for him to come to your room, knowing very well you wouldn't be able to resist him. Even though you knew it was a bad idea.

You tossed and turned around for hours before deciding to get out of bed. Quietly, you exited your room and walked towards your living room.

The TV was still on but Jungkook was sleeping. You smiled; the light emanating from the screen was lighting up his face just enough for you to see him. He looked so lighthearted when sleeping, so stunning. You smiled at his little pout he always had when sleeping and, as you approached him, you fought the urge to get into bed with him. He looked so tired you figured he needed the rest so you went back to your bedoom but not before giving him one last glance; you walked away and smiled, shaking your head.

Who would've thought he would cross half the globe just to see you.

The day after you woke up first. You figured you would let him sleep some more in peace so you got ready quickly and went out to buy some groceries and a cup of coffee for him.
On your way down you stumbled upon Mrs. Baker.

"Good morning".

"Good morning, dear" she gave you a smile "Where are you going so early in the morning?".

"To the farmers market" you smiled back.

"Oh great. I'm going there too. Do you want to walk with me, keep me some company?".

"Yes, of course" you let her grab onto your upper arm "Let's go together".

"Where's that lovely boy who waited for you in the rain yesterday?" the lady asked after being silent for a couple of minutes as you walked " the one who flew all the way from Korea to see you".

"Yes" you chuckled, looking down "there's only that one guy Mrs. Baker" you said, making her laugh softly.

"He's sleeping. I didn't want to wake him. I wanted to buy him some coffee first".

"That's so sweet" she walked beside you "did his grand gesture of love pay off?" she made you blush by asking you that question.

"It's not that simple" you said.

"Sure it is" she said.

"Hm" you chuckled " I wished it was that simple Mrs. Baker".

"My dear girl, may I give you some advice I myself didn't follow when I was you age?" she looked at you as you were walking.

You nodded.

"When you find love...the true type of love. You know what type of love Im talking about.
The type of love that consumes you. That paralyzes you. That burns you and freezes you. The type of love that feels like dancing barefoot in the kitchen. The type of love that feels like grass tickling your skin on a warm Sunday picnic." She smiled " The one that can feel overwhelming sometimes. The type of love that makes you question your entire existence. The one that can be hard sometimes...yes, but that makes you appreciate even more the life that you have, the life that you're living. When you find the love that challenges you, tests you, the love that makes you go out of your comfort zone but is there waiting for you to comfort you like a warm cup of tea on a rainy day".

"My dear girl, when you find that type of love you cannot be selfish. You cannot ever be selfish when it comes to truly loving someone. You owe it to the both of you" she made you stop walking.

"You owe it to at least try. Even if it doesn't work. Even if it doesn't end up like you would've wanted to. Try my dear girl. Let yourself go. You only have one life ahead of you. Don't waste it on the ifs and the maybes" she gently placed her hand over yours "Don't be afraid. Try it. You'll regret it later. Trust me" she smiled.

"Don't let the love of your life slip through your fingers for something as futile as fear. Don't make the same mistake that I did" she looked so deeply into your eyes you could almost feel the sorrows she went through. It shook you through your entire core. Her words reached deep into your soul, waking something you thought you've lost forever.

You squeezed her hands as your eyes filled with tears. She gave you an understanding smile.

"I see it in you. I feel it in you" she continued " you love this man and he loves you. Goodness, he flew from Korea with nothing on him just to see you!" she said making you laugh through your tears.

"Do you love him?".

"With every atom in my body" you exhaled. Feeling finally like you were able to breathe again.

The lady smiled, proud "then go and tell him that. Don't waist a second longer". You nodded as she lowered her hands.

"Will I ever stop being afraid?" you asked her.

She shrugged her frail shoulders " I don't have that answer for you" she said and you closed your eyes.

"But, that's life. You can't wait for the right time or to stop being afraid, otherwise you'll never do anything".

"Life's too precious to let it simply pass next to you. So live" she smiled.

"Thank you" you nodded, wiping your tears away.

She waved you off "Go now, go tell him you love him".

"Go!" she urged you "Go right now. Don't mind me. I know my way back to the building" she chuckled sensing your insecurities.

" I think I will" you inhaled, rubbing your runny nose.

"Of course you will" she said "there's nothing to think about. Go!" she shooed you.

Your legs started to move on its own, retracing your own steps.

You ran with your heart in your throat and your lungs on fire. It was like you have woken up from a long winter's sleep. It was like all of a sudden you could see clearly. Like nothing mattered and everything mattered at the same time. Tears of joy ran down your cheeks as you gasped for air.
Your legs hurt from how fast you were running, passing through the people on the streets.

You climbed your stairs in a heartbeat.

"Jungkook!" you called for him once you entered your apartment.

"Jungkook?" you called for him again, looking around.

"Jungkook, are you here?" you gasped for air. He wasn't nowhere to be found. You looked for him in every room with no luck. Suddenly, anxiety took over your body as you feared you've lost him for good.

"Oh good, you're back" you heard his voice behind you. He entered the apartment, holding a pastry bag and two cups to go.

"I wasn't sure when you were going to be back but I bought us-" you interrupted him by plunging your lips into his. He was caught by surprise but embraced you nonetheless, letting the bag and the cups fell on the floor.

You wrapped your arms around his neck, holding him tightly against you.

You kissed him with all your might. With everything that you had inside. You poured your entire being into the kiss.
You felt his hands wrap around your back, holding you in a firm embrace.

"Y/n" Jungkook parted away from you, panting from the intense kiss you just gave him.

"What's the meaning of this?" he closed his eyes and rested his forehead against yours, stroking your lips with his thumb.

"I love you Jungkook" you said "I've always loved you. And I'll always love you. You are the love of my life and I don't want to let you go" you kissed his hand "Ever again".

"Do you mean it?" Jungkook asked you, his voice full with emotion. He couldn't bare another heartbreak.

Not this time. Not after everything.

"Yes" you whispered "Yes. I mean it. I am yours" you took his hand into yours "These lips..." you guided his fingers on your lips "...these eyes...this heart" you placed his hand on your chest "Its yours. It always belonged to you".

"Y/n" Jungkook's voice trembled " I can't even describe how I'm feeling right now" he chuckled, cupping your cheeks "How happy you make me".

He gave you a kiss before hugging you. You squeezed him thightly, not wanting to ever let him go. And you didn't have to. Not this time. Now he was there, with you.

"I love you Y/n".

"I love you too, Jeon Jungkook".

And that's the end of our main story 😭

BUT...

I have one last part edited and ready to be posted on Monday to wrap up all of the relationships Y/n has with the other characters so make sure to read it because its very important and its the true ending of this story.

We'll save some time after the last part is posted to discuss the story and for me to answer all the questions you may have about it.

I'll also have an important announcement to make but we'll leave that for Monday.

I hope you enjoyed this part, see you in a couple of days ❤️