Y/n

"What are you doing here? Why are you here Jungkook?" you asked him once you were left alone.

"How did you find me? I-" you stopped mid sentence "Jisoo...of course".

"Please don't be mad at her. She only said where to find you because I was begging her to do so" Jungkook said.

He sighed, smiling "I can't believe I actually found you".

"Yes. You found me but you need to go now. You can't stay here" you kneeled to pick up the groceries that had slipped out of your hands when seeing him.

"Why?" Jungkook went to you, lowering to help you out.

"Because... you can't be here" you said " just...please leave everything as it is and get out" you took the groceries from his hands and threw them in the bags.

"Y/n" Jungkook was about to place his hand over yours but you pulled back.

"No" you shook your head "Leave. Please" you jumped up.

"Why are you being like this?" Jungkook stood up "why are you telling me to go away? Why won't you talk to me?".

"Because there's nothing to talk about" you finally said, running your fingers through your hair, overwhelmed by the sudden situation you were in "I've left a year and a half ago. I moved on with my life. And you being here only brings bad memories to my mind" you tortured your lips.

"I just want to talk Y/n" Jungkook pointed out " I didn't cross half the globe only for you to kick me out like this".

"Well... I didn't ask you to come" you crossed your arms.

Jungkook was hurt by those words. And by the way you were behaving; he knew that you didn't want to be found, that you were trying to move on with your life, but for the sake of his own sanity he couldn't let you do that before opening up to you.

He flicked his tongue, annoyed by the way you were behaving.

"I won't leave until you hear me out".

"You can't force me to stay here" you said before opening the door and storming out. Jungkook followed you out but wasn't quick enough to catch up with you before you locked yourself into your own apartment.

"Y/n" Jungkook knocked "Y/n, open the door".

"Go away" your voice echoed from the other side of the door.

"Y/n!" Jungkok called for you, banging on the door "I won't leave until you let me in".

You leaned against the door, sliding down as emotions overwhelmed you. You started crying, unable to contain it in any longer.

"Y/n!" Jungkook kept banging at the door "please let me in!". He leaned his forehead against the door, closing his eyes as he knocked once again.

"I just want to say how sorry I am for everything" he sighed after a long pause, his voice low and raspy.

"It's my fault that you lost the baby and its been killing me ever since" Jungkook's eyes filled with tears.

Silence.

"What on earth are you talking about?" you then opened the door, wiping away your tears.

"Its my fault that you lost the baby" Jungkook was barely holding it in " I should've never came back to Seoul and put you through so much, I should've never sung that stupid song. Or maybe I should've never left your side. I don't know" Jungkook looked down "Either way I feel like I'm to blame for everything bad that has ever happened to you".

"No one is blaming you for anything" you said "certainly not for what happened with the baby" you said, swallowing the lump in your throat. "It was an unfortunate event that no one could have predicted. You didn't do anything, Jungkook. The baby died long before the stillbirth happened, it had nothing to do with the song, or you in general. How could you possibly think that?".

"It's not just that. I feel like I am to blame for all the stress that you suffered during the pregnancy. I'm sorry Y/n. I should've done something different".

"Come inside" you sighed, letting him enter and closing the door behind him.

"Everythnig that had happened between us, between Taehyung and I had nothing to do with the pregnancy" you took your jacket off and sat on the couch "There are lots of reasons why a miscarriage like that could happen but at the end of the day it doesn't really matter. It happened; I lost my son that day" you bit your lip and looked away to stop tears from running down again. Jungkook stood at the entrance door, silently observing you.

" And it was the most painful thing that I ever went through" you breathed, trying to get a hold of yourself. He then walked slowly over to you, taking a seat next to you. " but not once, not ever did I blame you or anyone else for it. You must know that" instinctively, you placed your hand on his.

The contact with his skin caused a current-like sensation to spread all over your body. Immediately, you retracted your hand and backed away a little bit. You didn't even notice how close you were.

"Our situation was messed up. And maybe God, the Universe or some other force in nature punished me for my sins by taking away what was most precious to me. It's over, it's done. I had to go away and start over" you looked at him "And I'm sorry that I didn't say goodbye first".

"You don't have to apologize for that" Jungkook was quick to add " I was thinking selfishly, knowing very well that you had to do what you did in order to heal. It's just that...well, I didn't want to lose you like that" Jungkook put his hand on your knee. "I missed you so much" he gently stroke your knee with his thumb, making your breathing quicken.

"Don't" you shook your head but didn't back away " Don't tell me how much you've missed me".

"Why?" he leaned in a bit. You kept facing one another while Jungkook continued to gently stroke your leg.

"Because its nothing comparing to how much I've missed you" you answered honestly as you let a tear ran down your cheek.

Jungkook lifted his other hand, wiping away your tear. He kept caressing your cheek, his eyes gazing into yours.

"Jungkook" you turned your head, lowering down his hand. It was then when Jungkook noticed a small tattoo you had on your wrist.

"What's this?" he caressed the marked skin.

"It's a tattoo that I did a couple of months ago" you slightly smiled at the sighed of that. "It's a blueberry" you explained "Taehyung and I used to call our baby our little blueberry in the beginning of my pregnancy" you caressed the tattoo, lost in thought "Its just something that I had to do. To remember and treasure forever".

"I think it's beautiful" Jungkook kept looking at the small tattoo.

He lifted your arm at the height of his lips and placed a small kiss on it. You felt his breath against your skin, sending shivers down your spine.

Jungkook's kiss was slow, everlasting.

Then, instead of lowering your hand he kissed another spot on your skin. Then another one. And another one.
His lips were soft and his breath warm.

"Jungkook" you called for him but didn't pull away your arm; not when his kisses felt so good.

He kept kissing your arm all the way up. You placed your hand at the back of his head, interweaving your fingers with some strands of his hair.

Jungkook reached your shoulder, it was only then when he lifted his head up, finding your gaze.

His eyes burned with desire. Desire for you. He was so close to you, you could feel his breathing on your face. Your gaze shifted from his eyes to his lips to his eyes again. Jungkook slowly shifted towards you, hovering above you. You held each other's gaze, in some way asking one another for permission. Jungkook then lowered himself until your lips were almost touching.

"Y/n" Jungkook licked his lips "I really want to kiss you right now" his voice soft in a whisper.

"I want you to kiss me" you husked against his lips. You felt him smile through the kiss when he pressed his lips more into yours. You felt like your heart exploded when Jungkook kissed you. He kissed you decisively. He kissed you with ferocity.He kissed you desperately.

He placed his hand at the back of your neck, tilting your head to deepen the kiss. His tongue entered your mouth, devouring every inch of you.
You melted under him, at every touch of his. You felt like you were in heaven, something you felt only when you were with him.

Jungkook lowered himself on top of you, making you lie on the couch. His hand went to your waist, holding you firmly while kissing you, feeling thousands of miles away. You let your arms roam free under his shirt, craving every bit of him.

Jungkook could swore he almost shivered at your touches, pressing more against you, making you feel just how much he wanted you with every inch of his body.

After years, he was finally getting to experience you again. Getting to feel you. To be with you. To be one with you.
And it felt like a dream.

So aware of your body, of the way you were moving against him - with him-, and yet so distant, miles away, like a vague memory.

You moaned against his lips, your eyes tightly shut. Jungkook's hand travelled from your waist under your shirt, roaming across your skin all the way to your breasts, thightly squeezing one as he pushed his clothed member in between your legs. You broke the kiss, gasping for air as your head rolled back into the couch.

You grabbed his shirt by the edges and pulled it up, forcing him to part away from you long enough for you to free him of his shirt. Jungkook didn't waste a second longer and plunged his lips back into yours, craving you more.

"You have no idea how much I've missed you " Jungkook traced his lips down to your neck, marking a spot on it.

"God. Jungkook" you grabbed him by his hair, holding him closely to you. Jungkook lifted your shirt up, freeing you from it instants later. He observed your naked chest under him.

"You are so beautiful" he traced a path with his finger in between your beast down to the edge of your pants, you watched him slowly unbutton your pants and unzip the zipper before taking them off of you.

Jungkook's eyes crinkled as he smiled at the sight. His fingers grazed all the way down to your underwear, across a small scar you had on your abdomen.

"It's from the cesarian" you explained when you saw Jungkook's forhead furrowing.He didn't say anything.

You were about to call for his name when he slowly lowered himself down to it, kissing it gently.

You rested your head against the arm rest of the couch andyou closed your eyes, nervous of what was about to come.

"Jungkook" you said his name before whispering "Make love to me". Your heart beating fast.

Immediately, Jungkook pressed his lips against yours. Sparks erupting deep in you. You wrapped your arms aroung his neck, holding him against yourself as your tongues danced together.

"I love you" Jungkook parted away to look at you in the eyes.

"I love you too. Always have" you caressed his cheek before giving him a light kiss.

Jungkook kept looking in your eyes as he lowered himself down, gliding your panties down your legs. He then let you undress him, leaving him bare and naked in front of you.

He hovered above you, making you lie down once again as he lowered himself on top of you. You pushed your lips to his again.Something about his lips, about having him that close to you, felt so comforting, so calming that it almost was enough to ease your racing heart.

He met your lips as he slid himself into you, muffling the moan that escaped you as your walls clenched around him. He pushed inside you so unnervingly slow, letting you feel every inch of his hardened member, filling you up to the brim. Your back arched and tingles exploded in your core as he thrust deeper and deeper.

"Jungkook" you let out a breathless moan, tilting your head back.

He leaped into your neck, grunting against it as he dug in you over and over. His heavy breathing was making you go wild, sending you in a frenzy.

"God" you continued to moan, digging your nails into his back as your bodies bounced together.

You kissed him, biting and tugging his lips. Jungkook grunted with pleasure everytime you did so. He intertwined his fingers with yours and pinned you against the couch with one hand while holding you steady with the other as he made love to you.

"Shit Y/n, how I've missed this" Jungkook scrunched his nose and bit his lip as his face twisted into the beautiful agony of pleasure. "how much I've missed you".

His name left your lips countless of times as you begged him to be fucked faster, to make you cum.
Jungkook picked you up with one arm and slid under you, making you straddle him while he leaned against the backrest of the couch.

"Fuck" Jungkook's voice was husky, coated with pleasure as you began to move your hips in a circular motion. His hands slid down your ass, guiding you up and down.
You licked your lips, pressing your body against his chest and your eyes tightly shut.

"Y/n..." Jungkook grasped your chin, making you face him.

He watched his thumb stroke your lips before locking his lips with yours. His other hand went down to your ass, squeezing your flesh. You gasped, parting away from him and leaned back, holding onto his shoulders in order not to lose balance. You glanced at the ceiling, letting your moans fill up the room. Jungkook held you by your waist, watching your body twist in pleasure.

The way your naked, damp body moved on top of him clouded his mind; your breasts bouncing up and down were almost hypnotizing to him. And, as his eyes shifted in between them and your contorted expression, he swore he wouldn't last long.

"Lean against me baby. I want you to ride me until you cum" Jungkook's voice shaking with pleasure.

He pulled you closer to him, holding you in a tight embrace as his tongue found your nipple.

"Fuck. Jungkook" you moaned in his ear, your walls tightening around him. You circled and swayed your hips left and right, front and back. You were almost there, feeling tension building up. He held you as he thrusted his hips towards you, burying himself deep into you.

"Does that feel good?" he murmured.

"Yeah. Fuck. I love you".

His thrust kept getting faster, deeper, more irregular and all you could do was to stuff your teeth into his shoulder. His each thrust left your body trembling, tingles spreading in your core.

"Fuck!" you cired, unable to contain it in anymore. "Harder" you moaned into his ear, begging him to make you cum.

Jungkook's hand went to your shoulder, pushing you down to meet his rhythmic thrusts.
Your breathing became erratic, uncontrollable as you leaned against him and closed your eyes. You felt your walls throb and thighten, liberating yourself of all that tension.

"Yes! God. Fuck" you bit your lips once you climaxed. In that same moment you felt Jungkook hips ease, filling you up.

Both of you panted, gasping for air. Jungkook rested his head on your collarbone and you leaned against him, resting your chin on the top of his head. He placed a kiss on your sweaty skin once his breath had calmed a bit. You didn't want to part away from him, knowing very well that once you did so that you would've needed to come back to reality.

"That was-".

"Shh" you shushed him, "let's just stay like this".

Jungkook wrapped his arms around you, holding you close. You stayed like that for a couple of seconds, seconds that felt like forever, before you slid off of him.

You immediately searched for your underwear, wanting to cover up as soon as possible. Once the closeness and the warmth of his body had disappeared, all that was left was a sence of emptiness.

"Looking for these?" Jungkook twirled your panties on his index finger. Shyly, you grabbed them and gave him his boxers that you've just picked up from the floor. He watched you get dressed without saying a word. Perplexed, he did the same before sitting back on the couch.

"Come. Sit" he pulled you by your hand next to him "How are you feeling?".