Three days after, you were supposed to meet at Jin and Jisoo's house.

All of you were ready to help them with whatever was necessary.
You were running a bit late since you stopped to buy some groceries for the happy couple. Everyone else was already there, or so you've thought.
As you were rummaging in your bag to check if you had bought everything, you failed to see Jungkook entering the building.

You smiled faded when you locked eyes.

"Hi" he held the door for you to enter. You hesitated a bit before entering.

"Hi. I thought you left for Busan" you nervously bit your lip.

"I still had some business in town. Plus, I wanted to see if I could help with anything today" Jungkook responded. You walked beside him all the way to the elevator.

"I see...How's life in Busan? How are your parents?".

" They're fine, thanks for asking" he chuckled before continuing " my mother wasn't happy about me not living with them though. She threw quite a tantrum".

"Oh you're not living with them?" You pressed the elevator button.

"No" Jungkook bit his lip distractingly while waiting for the elevator. He wasn't looking at you. He kept his eyes focused in front of him. "I bought an apartment there".

"Oh...I see" you let the conversation die as you weren't sure what to say to him. "How long are you staying in Seoul?".

"A couple of days" you entered the elevator. Standing that close to him, in that confined space made you almost hyperventilate.

Jungkook looked at you.

"You look good" he said.

"Thank you".

"How far along are you?".

"Half way through the fifth month" you said in discomfort. Talking about your pregnancy with him was making you uncomfortable.

Jungkook nodded. " Taehyung and you must be very happy".

You didn't know if those words hurt you or him more.

"Jungkook...I wanted to talk to you the other day at the hospital" you sighed.

"About what?" he asked.

You furrowed your brows. There wasn't anything you wanted to talk about with him in particular. You just felt an incredible urge to do so when you saw him the other day.
You felt quite stupid to be completely honest. You begged Taehyung for a moment alone with Jungkook and yet you didn't know why you did that exactly.
It was just that, when you saw him after so long, you wanted to. You wanted it so badly; to be alone with him, to hug him, kiss him. You wanted to reassure him that everything was going to be alright. But you couldn't. You made a promise.

"I don't know exactly" you bit your lip "I wanted to make sure that you were okay".

"You don't have to worry about me. I'm okay" Jungkook said.

"Okay...I also wanted to let you know that Taehyung and I have decided to raise our baby together".

"Wasn't that a given?" he exited the elevator followed by you.

"No. Not really. But we have decided to try and make it work".

"Why are you telling me this?".

"I thought you should know" you looked at the floor in front of you.

"Y/n, we had this talk already. I'm aware of the situation. That's why I walked away five months ago" he kept walking towards the apartment door " You've made the right decision. And I've moved on".

"Jungkook" you grabbed him by his upper arm to make him stop and face you.

Being face to face with him, so close you could smell his familiar sent made your breathing quicken.

He was so breathtaking.

So unbelievably beautiful, it made you feel dizzy. He was looking in your eyes with an indecipherable gaze.

"For what is worth; I forgive you" you went to caress his face but stopped midway. "Do you hear me? I forgive you and I'm sorry how things turned out. I wish you to find someone who will make you feel loved and wanted the same way you made me feel" you squinted your eyes as your mouth twisted into a sad smile.

"Y/n..." he sighed.

"It's fine. You don't have to say anything" you reassured him, smiling. "We should enter before they notice our absence" you stepped away from him.

"It was about time" Hoseok's enthusiasm faded once he saw Jungkook and you enter together Jin's apartment. You walked in together, catching everyone's attention.

"Hi Kook!" Jisoo broke the silence. She hugged him and he returned the hug.

Taehyung's jaw was clenched, eyeing you down up until you sat next to him after quickly saying hi to Jisoo.

"What's this supposed to mean?" he asked in between his teeth.

"Everything is fine. It's over for good" you reassured him.

"Good" he kept fixating on Jungkook who was still saying hi to Jisoo.

"I cant believe you've actually came" she hugged him again "Look at your hair!" she played with his bun "you look good".

"Thanks" Jungkook said "How are you feeling?".

"You know me. Same old same old. Quickly just popped out a child out of me".

"When can we see him?" Jimin pouted.

"He's sleeping now" Jin answered instead.

"Is there something I can help you with?" you asked Jisoo.

"Actually yeah, come with me" she guided you to the bathroom, closing the door behind you.

"What the fuck was that?!" she mouthed, emphasized each word.

"Calm down. We just met downstairs" you explained.

"And?" she encouraged you to continue " What happened?".

"Nothing happened" you sighed in frustration. "Nothing can happen with him. Ever again."

"Girls!" Hoseok knocked on the door "If you are gossiping in there I want in!".

"We are not gossiping!" you opened the door.

"What was that?!" Hoseok repeated the same words as Jisoo.

"Nothing" you stepped outside, passing next to him. You returned to the living room.

To your surprise, you found Yuna sitting next to Taehyung.

"Hi. When did you come?" Jisoo was as surprised as you.

"Just now. Congratulations on your baby!" Yuna squealed, trotting to hug her.

"Yeah. Okay" Jisoo shook her off. "You're here! In my apartment. How come?" Jisoo was acting pleasingly surprised.

"I invited her" Jin interfered.

Jin didn't hide the resentment he had for jungkook or you; he would always ignore you or avoid you. But now that you've all gathered for something positive and that Jin was still high on happiness over meeting his son, he was trying to lay low.

"I was supposed to come with Tae but got caught up into something at work" Yuna explained.

"I was talking to Jin yesterday over the phone and casually mentioned her when he said to bring her over. I hope that doesn't bother you" Taehyung said.

"No. Not at all. The more the merrier" Jisoo said with false enthusiasm before mouthing "I'm sorry" to you.

You couldn't believe what was happening; to lead separate lives was one thing but to get her directly involved with the people that were your friends was crossing the line.
You watched them sit next to one another as Taehyung gave you a look. Not sure what type of look.
Embarrassed, you sat next to Jisoo who was quick to squeeze your hand and give you a reassuring smile.

"I don't get it...are Taehyung and Yuna together now?" Jungkook leaned towards Namjoon.

"Yeah. That's a thing now. You have a lot to catch up to" Namjoon gave Jungkook a pat on the back.

Jungkook found it incredibly bizarre. The furrowed forehead explained it all as he proceeded to look at you, catching your attention.
Unable to hold his gaze, you lowered your head.

"So Jungkook-ah, tell us what you've been up to?" Hoseok asked.

"Nothing much. I've been doing business like usual. Had a trip to Hawaii a few months ago" he stopped to think it trough " Been going to the gym. Pretty much the same".

"Did you meet a girl there?".

"Well now I'm convinced that you're a complete moron. Why would you ask that now?" Hoseok scolded Jimin.

"What?" the other one asked back.

"Are you slow? You ask him this in front of everyone when we all know what happened between them" he pointed at Jungkook and you "now you've just made it weird".

"I'm pretty sure it wasn't weird before your interference but oh well..." Namjoon felt the need to interject.

Hoseok looked around as it got progressively more uncomfortable.

"Oh shit. Did I...did I make it weird? I'm sorry guys".

Jungkook was about to ignore the comments and continue talking normally when Yuna meddled.

"So Kook, tell us. Have you been seeing someone or are you still not ready?" Yuna crossed her legs and raised an eyebrow. She knew exactly what she was doing.

Jungkook smirked, catching the provocation.

"And what about you? Still playing on the old tricks. From one millionaire to another. At least now you've actually managed to snatch one".

Tension was palpable.

" Hey...if Y/n can interchange you guys I don't see a reason why I can't. The difference is that I'm not a greedy whore who wanted the both of you. I made my choice."

"The fuck did you just call me?" your head snapped at her.

"Oh shit" Namjoon said.

"Get the fuck out" Jisoo said.

"I simply pointed out the obvious" she said without even looking at you.

"Yuna!" Taehyung's tone was rigid.

"What the fuck is your problem?!" you stood up right in front of her.

"Y/n, calm down" Taehyung stood up and gently pushed you away.

"Don't tell me to calm down. I will not sit here and be insulted by some tacky bitch".

"I might be tacky but at least I'm not a slut and a whore who fucked two best friends" Yuna stood up as well. Facing you.

"You shady bitch! Get the fuck out of my house!" Jisoo yelled at her. But it was already too late as you were blinded by rage.

" You need to fucking watch your mouth or I'm gonna rip your tongue out!" you didn't know but you were screaming at her.

"Y/n stop it!" Taehyung said.

"How dare you?" you looked at him " how fucking dare you stand here, listen the things she's saying to me and not do a single thing?!".

"You're pregnant. You need to calm yourself down" Taehyung tried to push you away from Yuna.

"Why are you taking her side?".

"Because he loves me" Yuna said. "He loves me and he's with me because he wants to not because I'm some sort of pity case who need to be taken care of" she eyed you down " you and your bastard son are a lost cause".

That was it. You couldn't even remember what happened next.

All you do know is that everyone called your name in unison when you got your hands on Yuna. In your mind, chaos broke loose in that apartment. You managed to slap her across her face before you felt a pair of arms wrap around you, pulling you away from the commotion.

You were too visibly shaken to notice that Jungkook was the one who dragged you out of the apartment.

"Y/n, what the hell's got into you?! You are pregnant. Shit!" he dragged you into the elevator. It was then when, when silence fell upon you, that you've managed to get a grip of yourself.

"Are you okay?" Jungkook made you face him. He held you by your shoulders but kept looking at you in the eyes. The concern was real.

You nodded but were still shaken up.

"Come here" he brought you in for a hug.

He held you tightly against him. He smelled the same. It was the same, familiar sent you've loved for months now. You found your way back in the nook of his neck, wrapping your arms around him and closing your eyes shut. Feeling safe after so long.

"Its alright" Jungkook rubbed your back.

You let your tears run down your cheek, wetting Jungkook's sweater. You were holding onto him so tightly, afraid that he might disappear. Your knuckles were turning white from how much you were squeezing the fabric of Jungkook's clothes.

"Hey" he parted away from you and cupped your face. "Are you sure you're not hurt?" he tucked a strand of fallen hair behind your ear. "Hm?".

You shook your head, inhaling loudly. "I'm fine. Don't worry".

You felt Jungkook's muscles relax upon hearing that. He rested his forehead against yours, shutting his eyes.

"Don't do something like that ever again" he breathed out.

"She deserved it".

"She did. But that's beside my point" Jungkook's hands travelled to your neck, lightly squeezing it while caressing you with his thumbs.

The elevator door opened. "Do you want to get out of here?" he asked you, stepping away from you.

"Yes. Please".

You walked with him to his car. He opened the door for you and shut it after you entered only to take a sit next to you at the driver's seat.

"So Yuna and Taehyung...?" he lit the car engine.

"Please don't. It was already embarrassing enough before you found out" you turned your head towards the window.

"Hey. Look at me" you turned to face him. " You have nothing to be embarrassed about, okay? Taehyung's an idiot for doing this" the corners of his eyes crinkled. "He's the one who should be ashamed. Not you".

You nodded, unconvinced.

"Where are we going?" you asked him.

"You know where we're going" Jungkook gave you a small smile.

Quickly, you realized where he was taking you as you recognized the building.

"I can't go up there. I'm pregnant!" your eyes widened disproportionately at him, making him laugh.

I was almost cathartic hearing him laugh. Something you haven't heard in so long.

"Don't worry. They fixed the elevator finally" he was about to go out of the car but hesitated for a second "I could always carry you up myself. I wouldn't mind. Either way you're going up with me" he said before exiting the car, leaving you to wonder what he meant by it.

"Come on" he gave you one of those beautiful smiles of his. One of those cheerful and exited smiles he had whenever his face lighted up like the one of a kid. Naturally, you couldn't feel your legs after the sight of him.

You followed him up all the way to the roof. Chills ran down your spine once your skin made contact with the strong winds up above the city.
Nonetheless, the view was as breathtaking as you remembered.

"Why did you bring me here?" you sank into your winter jacket while approaching the edge, admiring the sights.

"I thought you needed some space" Jungkook stopped next to you.

"Have you been coming here often?".

"Every time that I'm in Seoul".

"You come here to think?".

Jungkook nodded. "To think and recharge".

"Why have I not seen you once since you left?" you looked at him.

"Because that's what's the best for everyone" Jungkook paused "The last couple of months were hard on me too you know? Especially at the beginning. But now I'm doing better".

"So it took you only five months to get over me?" your face twisted.

"You know that's not what I'm saying" he rubbed the back of his neck "But what else I'm supposed to do? I need to move on and so do you. There's nothing else we can do".

You knew that. Everything that was coming out of Jungkook's mouth was the truth. It was still hard though.

"I know. I've been trying. I thought I had it under control but then I saw you the other day" you placed your hand on his cheek. " And my heart sank".

" I felt the same way" Jungkook put his hand over yours, tightly squeezing it before putting it down to your side. "That's why you will never see me again. I only came here because of Jin an Jisoo. I will go back to Busan in three days, after Yoongi's party. I figured I could stay for the day he releases his album since I'm already here" he gave you a smile but you could tell from his eyes that he was hurting as well.

"I think that's for the best" you squinted your eyes and bit your lip.

"It is".

You've spent some time together up there. Without saying anything. Just enjoying each other's company.

"Thank you for what you said earlirer" you heard him say. His back relaxed against the wall and his gaze firm on the horizon.

"For what?" you turned your head to face him.

"You know...for forgiving me" he shyly chuckled and quickly glanced your way.

"You don't need to thank me" you reassured him but his lips frowned in a dismissive way.

"Jungkook" you called for him to look at you " you are a good person".

"Am I?" the corner of his lips tugged his mouth in a half smile "A good person doesn't do what I did to you".

He broke eye-contact with you and tilted his head against the concrete wall, trying to conceal how he felt but you could see how much what he did to you was bothering him. Hurting him.

He did a horrible thing to you and yet he was the one that felt upset. Which made him feel more like shit.

"Look at me" you nudged him with your shoulder. Reluctantly, he did so.

"You are a good person" you paused to emphasize " you just...acted irrational and made a mistake".

"Made lots of mistakes" he scoffed, interrupting you.

"We both did. But making mistakes is allowed. Is human. It's what you do after that defines you. And you made all the right choices. The difficult ones. I did too".

"Like deciding to stay with Taehyung?" he asked.

"Or like deciding to leave for Busan".

He nodded.

"Is he treating you right?".

You shrugged your shoulders. " He's doing his best. We have really good days and really bad days, like today" you glanced at him " today was a really bad day".

"And the good days?".

You hesitated to answer.

"He's kind, caring, attentive".

Seeing you carefully fish for words made him strangely uneasy. Jealous almost. He knew you so well, he could easily tell you weren't telling him everything.

"That's good" he bit his lip, forehead furrowed "So why are you nervously squirming on the spot? What are you not telling me?".

Your heart started to beat fastly. You knew your almost-kiss with Taehyung was a big deal. Maybe it meant to you even more than you wanted to admit to. Or maybe you knew that it meant something to you. Maybe that was the reason you were feeling so guilty towards Jungkook and felt the urge to confess.

"Taehyung tried to kiss me a couple of days ago".

Jungkook's heart dropped to the gorund when he heard you say that.

Giving the lack of response and the sudden silence coming from him, you felt compelled to clarify.

"But we didn't kiss. He said he wanted to, though. We were feeling good after an amazing day we had and probably got confused".

As much as he wanted to, Jungkook couldn't control the expression on his face, his jaw clenching and lips tightening.

"I didn't want him to kiss me but I wont lie to you; I felt good that day. I felt light. And-" you balked, swallowing a lump in your throat " I thought about it after. I don't want things to progress with Taehyung now but maybe in the future-".

"Y/n" Jungkook's ironic chuckle stopped you " As much as I want you to be happy, I just can't listen to this. I'm sorry. I'm just not there yet".

"No, I understand. I just felt the need to tell you. I feel guilty for just thinking about it".

"You don't have to. Don't owe me anything" he shrugged his shoulder, clearly eager to end this conversation as quickly as possible.

"I know. It's not about that. I just want you to understand my point of view. That I'm not there yet. And that I still have feelings for you but-".

"Y/n" he waved his hands to make you stop, standing up and creating distance from you. "I don't need to listen to this".

You nodded, your gaze on the floor.

"Hey" he called you, crouching in front of you " Everything is fine. You don't have to explain things to me. Everything that you decide is valid and I promise I don't need to think about me when making those decisions" he lifted your chin "over time, everything will be easier. Promise" he smiled, mirroring your smile.

"And, if you're not comfortable going to him today after what happened, you can always stay at mine's. You know that, right?".

"As much as I want to, I need to go home. I made a promise. One of those difficult choices I had to make". He nodded again.

"So should I take you home?" he asked and you nodded.

The ride to Taehyung's place was silent.

"I guess I'll see you at Yoongi's then" you said when you arrived.

"See you, Y/n" Jungkook said before driving off.

You took a big breath before entering into the building.

"Where the fuck have you been?" Taehyung asked as soon as you entered the apartment.

"You're the last person that gets to be angry at me right now" you passed right beside him, going to your room.

"Were you with him?" Taehyung followed you.

"Your obsession with Jungkook has gotten out of control" you sighed, taking off your parka, not looking at him.

"Were you?".

"You know what?" you threw you jacket on the bed "I was with him. This whole fucking time".

"I knew it. I knew you weren't going to keep away from him" Taehyung was furious.

"And where were you, Taehyung?" you held his gaze "Hm? Busy fucking the woman that called your child a bastard?".

"Are we doing this right now?" he put his hands on his waist, ready to get into an argument with you.

"Yes. Yes we are. Why did you let her do that?" your eyes were looking for a hint of regret in his eyes "Why did you let her humiliate me like that in front of our friends? I mean, I know that I'm a fucked up person but that was too much" you snickered.

"She obviously crossed the line. I already talked to her about that. The real question is why were you with him?".

"You see, this is your main problem. It's always about him. And you can say his name. Jungkook." You rubbed your hands across your face " It will always be about him. We wont be able to function properly until you stop circling back to him. God" you pointed out " You are going to use him in every argument we'll ever have. It will always be about Jungkook. It's going to be impossible to live like that. For us both".

"I'm doing my best, Y/n".

"Well... that's not going to be enough" you shrugged your shoulders before wiping off the tears on your cheek.

"What more can I do? It's not easy to deal with you after what you've done".

"After I cheated on you with Jungkook. I know that I've hurt you. I get it. How many times do I have to say that I am sorry?" you kept your voice raised the entire time. But you weren't angry. More exhausted and tired to always be feeling the way that you felt. "How many times do I have to ask for your forgiveness?".

"You don't get to decide when I'll forgive you" Taehyung's tone was sturdy as well "Its not your decision to make. It's not up to you. It's up to me to decide when and if I'll forgive you".

Taehyung's eyes grew. He was feeling a multitude of things. Mostly angry. But there was sadness, exasperation, bewilderment in his expression. "Until then you better behave like an adult and think about the child that you're carrying" he said before storming off.

"And you better keep your little whore out of my sight!" you yelled at him before closing your door shut.

"Can you believe that bitch?" Jisoo was nursing her son.

You made her a visit the day after the incident. You two were alone, taking care of her son and revisiting the events of the day before.

"I don't know what to tell you" you sighed, shifting your attention to the little man Jisoo was holding. You caressed his little hand with your finger and he responded by squeezing it tightly.

"What a cutiepie you are" you smiled at him.

"How can someone do something like that?" Jisoo was still bewildered by the way Yuna behaved "And to think that she has the right to behave like that just because Taehyung fucks her from time to time" she flicked her tongue against her teeth.

"He doesn't just fuck her. They're 'daiting' " you responded anoyed but continued to play with the baby.

"Whatever. It's not serious. It can't be." She looked at you "And I told Jin not to ever invite her at our place. Ever again".

"Thanks".

"What are you going to do now?" Jisoo asked you.

You shrugged your shoulders. "If he doesn't think there's anything wrong with seeing a girl that fucked up, then there's nothing I can do.I don't care anyway" you sighed "I'm so tired of it all".

"I believe you, babe" she rubbed your arm. " So yesterday you left with Jungkook..." she encouraged you to explain. Her insinuating expression made you chuckle.

"Yes. We spent some time together. It was nice" you gave her a small smile "He's leaving the day after tomorrow" you bit your lip " I won't be seeing him ever again".

"I'm so sorry" Jisoo felt bad for you.

"Its...whatever. It's fine" you shook your head "At least I get to see him one last time tomorrow night".

"Right. Yoongi's big day" Jisoo smiled "So everyone's going to be there".

"As it should be".

"Right" Jisoo nodded "Now let's get this little guy into bed so that mommy can rest for a bit" she carried her son into the bedroom.

Sorry for keeping you waiting for the update, hope you liked this chapter.

It's currently two in the morning so please, if you notice some grammatical error, just ignore it. I'm too tired to edit rn lmao.

Also, guys! We're approaching to the end of this book with ONLY four or five chapters left 🫣😭

I cannot believe this book is ending, it's been such a journey and I'm so thankful for you all reading this fanfic. I guess we'll talk about it more once the book actually ends but I just wanted to say to you how much I love and appreciate every single person who stuck with me so far. Thank you.

As of the new book, I hope I'll upload the first chapter by the end of the week. Can't make any promises though. I suggest you to check my profile these days since I'll be updating you about my posting schedules.