"Would you like more coffe?". Taehyung offered to pour it for you before taking a seat across.

"No, thanks. I should limit my coffee intake" you said before sipping down on the last few drops in your cup before starting to clean up.

That morning, like the mornings before, you had your breakfast together.

It was nice spending more time with Taehyung. After the talk you had a couple of days prior, you both felt more at ease around each other. You even slipped into your old routine of making breakfast for him on the weekends.

He gestured you to take your seat as he took the plates away from you, cleaning up instead of you.

"I can do it myself, its no bother. Really" you said, unsurely taking a seat at the kitchen counter.

"Nonsense. You cook, I clean. That's how it's always been" he dismissed you, already rinsing off the plates and soaking the pan.

You hummed in response, glancing at the window across the apartmant, tapping your nails on the cup you were still holding.

That day it snowed for the first time that winter and, as you watched snowflakes pile up against the window, you sighed. You felt content for the first time in a while.

"What's up?" Taehyung's absent voice reached you.

"Its snowing outside".

"I know. Hope it doesn't snow too much" he kept washing the dishes, his back turned to you.

"What?-" you glanced back at him "I thought you loved snow and winter" you said while walking towards him.

" I still do. Its just that I know how much you love walking around the city. Too much snow will ruin it for you".

You leaned your hip against the counter next to him before putting the used cup in the sink.

"I'm sure it wont be that bad. But, if you're afraid that I'm going slip and fall and hurt the baby then I wont be going on walks anymore. Promise" you were quick to add. Things might been getting better but you couldn't help but be somewhat coutious around him. Just to keep things smooth.

Taehyung chuckled. " I'm afraid you both could end up hurt but if its something you really like to do, you should still do it".

You caught yourself smiling at what he said.

Slowly, after months of coldness, Taehyung was finally letting his guard down, showing you again how pure and good he was. His true self. The person that you fell for many moons ago.

And so, as you observed him washing and rinsing that last cup, something overtook you and before you knew it, you spoke again.

"I was planning on going for a walk this morning, would you like to join me?".

Although he wasn't letting it show, Taehyung was caught by surprise.

"You want me to join you?" the sentence came out more bluntly than what he'd wanted to.

"Yeah, I mean...I can go by myself. I only asked you to come because it came up. I'm pefrectly able to go on my own, you don't have to come with me. Only if you want to" you stumbled on words "But I understand if you're busy. You probably are since it's the weekend and you probably have other plans that-".

"I'll go with you" he stopped you mid sentence. " I don't have anything planned for today and we could use some good, fresh air" he turned to face you after wiping his hands dry.

"Unless you wanted to go alone" he was quick to add, absently scratching the back of his neck.

"No no, I want you to come" you said awkwardly as you cheeks turned pink.

It was baffling how awkward all of a sudden you both seemed to be.

"You do?" Taehyung's brows shot upwards.

"Yeah I mean, I invited you" you chuckled, trying to mask the nervous tone.

"Oh, okay" Taehyung nodded, his fingers tapping against the sink where he was leaning.

"Only if you want to. You don't have to".

"No no. I want to" he said, his eyes uncomfortably darting anywhere but across you face.

"Oh okay. Then lets get dressed and head out in twenty?" you chuckled, your nerves acting up.

"Okay" he said, slowly backing up from you.

"Okay, I'll just go to my room to get ready then" you gestured clumsily, unsure of why were you repeating yourself.

"Okay. I'll go get ready as well" he let out a breathy chuckle, awkwardly scratching the back of his neck as he slowly walked with you to the hallway where both your rooms where.

"Okay".

"Okay".

There's something joyful about the Han river in winter.

When's a sunny winter day, much like that day, there's always something to see.
Young kids sledding on the hills near, the first christmas markets among many being set up, couples in maching puffer jackets strolling near the frozen river. It's a delight to see and, as you were strolling with Taehyung by your side, you began to feel the first wave of holiday spirit hit you.

"Its colder than I expected" he said, sinking further in his white puffer.

"Yeah. We got tricked by the sun being out" you agreed, a shiver running down your spine.

"Are you cold? We can go back home if you want" he was quick to suggest.

"No no, I'm fine. I only wish I'd brought more hand warmers with me".

"Here" you saw him pull out a warmer out of his pocket "Take it. Put it in your pocket".

"No no. I'm really fine" you tried to turn him down but he wouldn't listen, already sneaking it into your pocket.

"But you'll be cold instead" you protested but he wouldn't hear it, dismissing your concerns with a shake of his head.

"I'm fine. Don't worry about me" he said, a faint smile forming on his lips while he kept looking down at the ground ahead of him.

If you didn't know him better, you'd say he was just being nonchalant in the way he was carrying himself. Truth being told, he was getting a bit awkward and shy and he didn't know why.

He spent all of the months prior loathing you, trying to convince himself that you were the source of evil, but now that the relationship was starting to change and that both of you were putting an effort into it, he felt kind of lost. Baffled a bit.

It was strange, it felt old and new at the same time; like getting to know someone for the first time while also feeling like reconnecting with a long lost friend. Or a lover.

He was conflicted, arguing between keeping his guards up for the fear of getting hurt again and the desire to just let go and give into the feeling that was growing inside of him.
After all, it felt good; you having breakfast together, the random chats you were having on the way there, your smile, the stroll alongside the forzen river, the way your cheeks would blush after he'd offered you his hand on the way down the frozen steps near the water, the warmth of your hand in his.

All of it was fucking with his head and he'd tried extra hard to keep his guard up, resulting in all the hums and nods he'd produced during the talk you were having.

"Taehyung?".

He hummed in response, stopping in his steps only when he'd noticed you had also stopped walking.

"I asked you if you wanted something from there?" your head tipped in the direction where one of the few opened christmas markets was "I'm going to get myself a cup of tea, do you want something?".

"Oh sure, I'll get us something" he was about to head for your drinks but you stopped him.
"I'll get us something, you wait for me here" your hand was gently resting against his chest, a polite smile painting your lips before going to stand in line for the beverages.

Taehyung waited for you were you'd left him, next to the railing, separating him from the river.
He sighed, resting his forearms against the fence and letting his head tip forward, between his shoulders.
He took a breath, feeling like he was able to breathe again after you'd left him alone with his thoughts. Pretending to be fine while a storm of emotions was clouding his mind was hard. Harder than he imagined.

Not that he wasn't enjoying himslef that day. Felt nice. Felt too nice.

"Are you okay?" he heard your voce behind him, turning to face you.

"I'm fine" he gave you a lipped, contained smile while accepting the drink "Are you okay?" he asked as he leaned against the railing, his back turned to the Han river as he sipped on his tea, eyes looking away from you.

You sighed as you gave him an unedrstanding smile. An almost pitiful smile.
You knew how hard it was. You too, were feeling a bit anxious about the two of you hanging out together but it made you appreaciate him even more for making an effort. If it was difficult for you, you couldn't've even imagine how hard must've been for him to put up a front for you.

"I know how it must be difficult for you to be here with me now" you cautiously started " I just want to let you know that I really appreaciete the effort you've been putting into all of this. I feels a bit awkward for me too" you admitted through a chuckle " We just have to remind ourselves why we're doing this. We'd do anything for this little blueberry" you smiled as you reached for your belly with your free hand.

Taehyung gave you a half-smile as his eyes followed your hand. A strange emotion creeped up on him as the realisation of why were you doing all of this hit. Although he knew why were you making an effort, your son being the very reason stated by the both of you when you talked about it, he couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed finding out that that was the only reason.

He was doing it for his son too, of course, but there was a tiny part of him that - although unwanted- made him hope for more.

He was feeling good, spending his time with you, why weren't you feeling the same?

Taehyung gave you a smile " Yeah. I can't wait to meet our son".

You smiled at him, resting your forearms on the fence next to him while enjoying the view in front of you.

"Excuse me? Hi!" you heard a female voice behind you call for you. You turned around, only to find a slightly older woman approach you with - what you assumed to be- her husband.

"I couldn't help but overhear you two talk" she offered a shy, apologetic smile " Are you expecting?" she asked.

"You have to forgive my nosy wife" the man immediately jumped into the conversation before you or Taehyung could respond. "We're pregnant too, with our second" he patted his wife's large stomach, both Taehyung's and your eyes following his movements.

" She just gets extremely happy when seeing young couples like you expecting" he justified her behavior through a smile.

Seeing how you both were caught by surprise and how you failed to give an immediate response, excluding an uncomfortable giggle and a sigh here and there, she was quick to add " You are expecting...right? Oh please tell us you are and spare us the embarrassment if we misunderstood".

"No no, we are...expecting" you said, making the woman instantly sigh relieved.

"Oh thank God. I'm sorry to have bothered you. I just wanted to give you some comfort after hearing you worry about becoming parents. We were too, with our first" she nodded at a little boy crouching in the snow next to them, busy building a snowman " Joonwoo's been good so far, we'll see with this little one" she said.

Upon hearing his name, the little boy lifted his head up, glancing in your and Taehyung's direction before furrowing his brows in a grimmace, making Taehyung chuckle next to you.

"We're expecting another boy. Hope he'll turn out same as this little one. Have you found out your baby's gender yet?".

"Oh yeah" you cleard your throat "we're expecting a boy too".

"Oh how wonderful. Boys are a delight once you figure out how to change their diapers corectly" she giggled, leaning into her husband.

"Hm yeah" you chuckled, a tad uncomfortable " We're a bit scared but we'll figure out things eventually" you admitted with Taehyung giving them a polite smile next to you.

"Of dear you'll be fine. Once you figure out things with your first, your second will be like cruising in calm waters" she laughed.

The statement made the both of you uncomfortable, you shifting from one foot to the other and him clearing his throat, glancing elsewhere. You couldn't help but feel embarassed at those words; mainly because you knew that there wouldn't be a second, with Taehyung at least. It made you sad, knowing how much he wanted a big family. Maybe, eventually, he'll have one. Just not with you.

"We'll see" you limited yourself to say.

"Kids can bring so much in your marriage" the man spoke " you are married, right?".

Second blow. It was turning to be too much even for Taehyung, who had crouched next to the kid to help him build the snowman, a chance to escape the painful conversation the couple had you engaged in.

"Not yet" Taehyung took over, sensing how anxious you've gotten " we're planning a wedding next summer" he lied, gently throwing a bit of snow on Joonwoo, making him giggle in delight.

"Oh how great" the woman clapped exitedly " so happy for you".

"Well. It was nice talking to you, we won't be bothering you anymore. Come Joonwoo" the dad called for his son " Let's leave them be. Sorry for bothering you again. Have nice day" he offerd you both a smile.

"Thank you, you too" Taehyung shook the man's hand after saying goodbye to the kid.

"What is it with strangers and personal questions?" he leaned into your ear while still waving them goodbye.

"Don't know" you admitted through a giggle " Boundaries don't exist anymore".

"Well, at least Joonwoo gave me one good idea".

"He did?" but before you could fully turn around to face him, you were met with a thud on the right side of your face.

Taehyung's laugh reached you before you could process what had happened. But, when you felt the cold snow melt down your neck and when you saw Taehyung happily bouncing another ball of snow in his hand, realisation hit you.
Just as you were about to move, you felt another ball of snow hit your shoulders, Taehyung's laugh growing.

"Oh, I see" you laughed, picking up a clump of snow " I see how it is" you said as you threw the snow ball at him, missing him completely.

Before you could pick more snow, you were met with anoter ball of snow on your head. Then another one. And another one. Before you knew it, you were chasing him across the field, doing your best to hit him while he dodged your every throw, hitting you with more snow in return.

"Taehyung!" you laughed, frustrated at his remarkable dodging skills. " I swear to you, if I catch you, I'm going to make you eat snow!" you threatened, making him laugh even more.

Hearing his rich laugh after so long felt almost cleansing.

You were laughing too, up until the moment you felt your leg slip on a chunk of frozen sidewalk. Taehyung caught you just in time before hitting the ground, shielding you as you both fell into the big pile of snow next to the sidewalk.

"Are you hurt?" Taehyung concerned tone faded away almost instantly when he watched you laugh uncontrollably in return.

Relieved, he slid off of you just enough not to press on your belly with his weight but kept holding your head and neck, even though you both landed in leg deep snow. He laughed in return, shaking his snow-covered hair onto you. It made you laugh even more, trying your best to shield from him.

"Tae, stop" you giggled, trying your best to fight him but it resulted in him pressing even more into you, preventing you to retaliate.

You were so close you could feel his warm breath against your skin. The closeness didn't go unnoticed by him either, his smile slowly fading away. You're eyes darted across his face but he kept his firmly on you. He's jaw clenched, both of you stayed still for what it seemed minutes but lasted not more than a couple of seconds.
Then, as per fate, Taehyung's phone began to ring, earning you both much neaded space.

"Excuse me. I need to take this" he slid off of you and helped you get up "you're sure you're fine?" he made sure to ask once again.

"Yeah" you nodded "go ahead and take your call. I'll wait" you gave him a reassuring but stiff smile.

The air seemed too thick between you.

He nodded, walking away to take the call.
It was a Sunday. You knew Taehyung doesn't take work-related calls on the weekends. You figured that only Yuna's call would be important enough to answer in that moment and, judging by the fact that he excused himself to take it -something he never did in the past- was more than a clear indicator. Not that it mattered. It just made you wonder wether she'd be okay with Taehyung and you spending some time together. Wether she was even aware of it.

You dusted off what little snow remained on you and adjusted your beanie just in time for him to walk back to you.

You gave him a contained smile but were met with only a lipped one in return.

"Everything okay?" you cared to ask.

"Yeah" he limited himself to say.

"Was it Yuna?".

"Yeah" he tried to brush it off with a shrug of shoulders but you weren't having it.

"If you want to go, go. You don't have to spend your entire free day with me. We've hanged more than enough today" you gave him a reassuring smile.

"Nah. Everythnig's fine" his shoulders lifted up as he put his hands in his pockets "I told you I'd be spending today with you. She understands".

"You sure?" you asked, unconvinced.

He nodded "Don't worry. Lets go for some tteokbokki. I'm starving".

You've returned home in the evening, after spending the entire day together. You longed for a hot bath after being in the cold for so long, couldn't wait for it. Taehyung felt the same.

As soon as you got home, both of you went to your respective bathrooms, eager for a shower.
Only, you took your time with it.

After soaking in the bath for more than an hour, you've washed and dried your hair. Shaved too. Didn't know why though.

You brushed your teeth and were standing in front of the mirror in underwear, about to start your skin care, when you felt your baby's kicks again.

You felt a faint thud on the right sid of your belly, instantly bringing your hand on it.
Through a smile, you called for Taehyung's name and waited for him to appear.

In a matter of seconds, you heard gentle knocks on your bathroom door "you called?".

"Come in" you encouraged him, waiting for his head to pop up behind the door.

"Oh. I can come later" he was about to close the door but you stopped him.

"We're having a child together. In a couple of months you'll see far worse than me in my underwear. It's fine. Really" you encouraged him to enter. He hesitated a bit, standing awkwardly in his shorts and a fresh, slouchy t-shirt.

Slowly, he approached you. "what's up?".

"The baby's kicking again" you took his hand and placed it where you were feeling tiny scratches.

He smiled, pressing gently the palm of his hand against your naked skin.

"Its amazing" he said through a smile, his eyes lowered on your stomach.

"Oh. Now I can feel it here as well" you gently lowered his hand to the lowest point of your belly, above the underwear and kept yours above his.

He hummed pleased as you stayed like that for a couple of seconds.

It felt right. It felt so right for him.

That, right then and there was everything he'd dreamed of. And you were beautiful. So unbelievably beautiful. Standing in front of him in your underwear with your lower back leaned against the sink, gently gazing at him.

He tought you looked like a goddess. Pregnant with his child. Carrying his son.

He swallowed a clump of emotions and his jaw tensed as his eyes slowly travelled up your body, stopping at your eyes. And then, the air turned thick again.

He began to gently caress your skin where his hand was resting, slowly closing the distance between you. Your heart began to race when you felt your belly rest against his stomach, his eyes never leaving yours as he hovered over you.

His hand slowly traced your hip, his thumb caressing your belly as he adjusted himself better against you.

You lifted your gaze up to mach his hooded eyes when you felt his other hand stroke your thigh.

"Tae" you whispered but he only hummed in response, his eyes switching between your eyes and your lips. Taehyung felt his baby kick against his stomach, and, with a racing heart, he parted his lips.

"Tae" you called for him again "Think about Yuna. You can't be doing this to her".

"She's the only reason I'm not kissing you right now" he admitted, his one hand leaving your hip and nestling under your jaw, his thumb bushing against your lower lip.

"Taehyung" your voice was full with compassion. Your eyes squinted and you shook your head as your hand went to stop his fingers from caressing you further.

Taehyung gave you half a smile, knowing where your heart truly belonged. "Don't worry. I wouldn't do it. I know that you still love him" he said while tucking a strand of hair behind your ear, making you close your eyes at his words. " I can't force you to do something that you don't want to".

He was about to leave but you stopped him, grabbing him by his hand.

You pushed yourself off of the sink, intertwining your fingers with his as his eyes dropped down at your hands.

"Thank you for being so pure-hearted".

" Yeah. It will kill me one day" he tried to joke with you but you could see how hurt he was.

"Good night Tae" you kissed him on his cheek "Today was great. Thank you for being with me" you said before leaving him alone in your bathroom.

New update guys, hope you liked this chapter.

This was one of my favorite chapters back when I first wrote the fanfic and it seriously made me contemplate the direction the story was going 😂

What are your thoughts on this chapter? I'm curious to hear what do you guys think about Tae and Y/n's relationship so far.

I'l be updating another chapter at some point next week but I'm considering posting the first chapter of my new book the week after. It's a Jimin fanfic and it has a better, more realistic story, better writing and overall more mature style. So excited about this one and I hope you'll be too. What do you guys think?

Love you